Bila malam mula la datang ting tong

Check twitter tadi....i cant believe HATE MALAYSIA is trending....rs nk gelak guling2 ader gak...sume nye sebab football game tu? Ke its more than dat? Pergaduhan antara malaysia n indonesia mmg la sgt memeningkan kepala....umpama pergaduhan antara budak2 tadika yg ada anger-management-issue....ader je benda nak d gaduhkan....sekecik2 kuman pun nk dgaduh....knp nie?

Wahai la malaysian and indonesian....try pk panjang...kita serumpun...kita negara jiran....janganla nak berpecah belah.....yg di barat tgh bertepuk tgn tgk asian country mula bertegang urat sesama sendiri...

Sila balik kepada sejarah....mcm mn negara boleh di jajah...pernah x dgr 'bersatu teguh bercerai roboh'....leh x amik iktibar sket?

Kepada saudara senegara....jangan di layan kerenah mereka ok? ...just berdoa kita kembali berdamai n berakhir la perang2 nie....jgn nnt smp perang yg boleh menumpahkan darah...cukup cukuplah....

I m rambling here....just to stop myself from tweeting excessively.... :p

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Things that makes me happy lately

My friends' wedding or engagement ceremony

Despicable me (the movie)

Good food

Karaoke with people who enjoys karaoke as well

Making new friends

Chatting with my new friends n knowing both of us is havin a good time

Chocolate

Meiji milk ice cream

And lot of other things.....

So i m gonna concentrate on the happy things on my life.... ;)

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If you really matter to someone, that person will always make time for you. No excuses, no lies, and no broken promises..._montellohello_

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Buat baik berpada-pada

...buat jahat jangan sekali...

I believe in what goes around comes around...if we be good to others, people will be good to us in one way or another....

I also believed that it is easier for people to be awful to us when they didnt know us...but please...that doesnt mean we have to be awful to strangers....remember...what goes around comes around...

I also believed that if u help people with the hope of getting something in return sooner or later, u will also get an unsincere help from others...if u will get help at all...

If u make 'friends' just because they are an engineer or lawyer or doctor or have some fancy work n u want their 'help' in the future, that is not really friends, i dont know what that is...

And just because people has no importance in your life, doesnt mean you can treat them like crap....you make them wait for hours then show up like you had done nothing wrong...like their time is so unimportant and that is why it is ok for you to make them wait...

In other words....buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jangan sekali....

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Lazy girl white sauce for pasta

2 tablespoon of unsalted butter
2 tablespoon of flour
2 1/2 cup of milk
Salt
Black pepper

Melt the butter with a medium heat
Whisk in flour
Add milk
Left to simmer till desired thickness
Add salt n blackpepper to taste

Then add your own choice of stuff...like me, i add some parmesan cheese, basil n chicken stock...then some cooked minced-chicken....nyummmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

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Senangnye nk miscommunicate

Omg
Malu gilos
Masa nk byr mknn td, pakcik cashier said something...i m sure he didnt said it in nihongo
I was blurr and tried to think what is it that he is tryin to tell me....suddenly i blurted out, "what? No need to pay?"...luckily i said it in a joking manner....luckily!
The pakcik smile, almost laughing, and quickly count my bills on the cash-register...
I can feel myself blushing....bengong....xtau malu btol mntk makan free.....iskkkkkkkk
Still smilling, the pakcik said,"i said u r beautiful".....
I blush some more.....
Pengajaran...jgn memandai wat assumption okey.....

P/s: Dah la pakcik tu bg teh halia free....adoi....lamaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa pasni br g kdai tu lagi nampaknya....huhu......

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My sweet dream

which ends with a nightmare....

I rarely had any dreams....or perhaps i did but rarely remembered them once i woke up. However, some of my dreams are so crazy....it carved in my head forever.

Earlier this week, i had a dream....in the dream, initially, i was so happy. I met my family and friends...we hang out together and smile and laugh all the way....

Then we met a stranger, at first he was nice and fun to be with...until he met his other friend...they started to argue about something (which i cant remember)...and start fighting. The stranger took out a long pointed sharp scissor (you know the one that our mum use to cut thread when they are sewing? The one that is shiny-stainless-steel the whole body....that's the one.)
Somehow i was there to watch the fight.
At first, the stranger tried to stab his friend, but failed. Then out of sudden, the stranger turn to me and stare me in the eye. In a split second he plunged the pointed scissor to my face. It goes straight into my mouth, through my tongue then my throat.
I fell and my back was against the wall. I was waiting for the pain to come....but i never felt it. I can taste the blood in my mouth then i black-out.
When i passed-out, i recalled seeing my mum smilling at me...then my dad then my sisters and brothers...one by one they smile at me...as if saying goodbye....then it all goes pitch black n i know i was dead.....

...in the dream....

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Burst my bubble

Yesterday night...someone burst my bubble....i m not really sure how i feel about that but i do understand why he did that. Maybe it was his desperate attempt to save me. Little did he know that i have hit the self-destruct button so many times, it is almost impossible to reverse the action.

With his help, i destroy myself....how bad is the destruction? I m not really sure....is the destruction can be repaired? Once again my answer is, I m not really sure.

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I Love Shidax!

Stop Tweeting!

To stop myself tweeting excessively…I decided to post a blog instead.

Last night was fun…we went to Karaoke all night…well…not really all night…it's actually from 1.40am till 5….and the charges was ￥16000/+ …dats for 5 of us so its about 3000yen per person. Then because I have a membership card, we were given the chance to lucky-draw, if we got it, the bills would be on the house….the cashier was telling us its only 3% chance to get the lucky draw when a friend of mine drew out a red ball from the spinning case…. We were all as clueless as can be when the cashier said, "ok…the bill is on the house!" …..

Blurr? That's how we felt…the cashier is so unenthusiastic about it..making us hard to believe that it's real…..then he showed us the 0 yen receipt…haha…lucky us…and it's a fun night as well…get to know my new friends more … ;)

I love karaoke…and karaoke in Japan is the best! The sound system is great…be a member and you'll get special discount weekly…there's free-flow of soft drinks and the snacks are not that expensive either. The room is cosy and the toilet is clean!

Pink-Theraphy

So it was a really stressful day yesterday….unbelievably stressful with my studies n my life n everything all mixed up is enough to make me loose my mind. So late evening, I went out shopping.

Uniqlo Ebina is where I went. Its considered a cheap-clothing-store here…so I think it's the safest to shop when I'm depressed ….'xderla bocor sgt purse tu'..hehe…I m quoting a friend of mine. I never heard it before so….anyway….

After spending almost 3 hours in Uniqlo (gasp!! Haha…its not that big…..but if you spend your time trying everything and touching everything… you'll spend more time and, sadly, money there)…then I went to Starbucks, I had Caramel Steamer n New York Cheesecake….. Its yummy but a really bad combination…I ended up stuffing the cake down…. MUAK tahap gaban…iskhhhh

Then I went home. Back home…. I open all the stuff that I bought and all of it is either pink or black…haha…… n I realized, pink always makes me happy. Sweet-light-cotton-candy pink makes me smile and happy … and as I m looking around my room now, I understand now why my room is covered in pink and black things…. Black cuz it's simply my favorite color.

I went to bed last night wearing all pink…. And covered myself in my pink futon and slept like a baby. Woke up this morning, seeing all the pinkness brings that I'm-a-happy-girl feeling to me…hehe

So guys, u should really try it out…find one color that makes u happy and just cover yourself in it. Some people find green n blue is calming. Some love red cuz it gives you motivation… yellow or bright orange for energy, white for peace and so on….

Find your colour! NOW

;)

 

p/s: pink-therapy is actually a counseling help for sexual minorities in UK….they help people who is gay or bisexual or others, should they need a-friend-to-talk-to. You can always GOOGLE it! :p

Manasssssssss

orang madah jangan berkata apa2 masa marah.......biar tenang baru berbicara....

kmk manas dari lastnite.....bertenang...g tdo then bangun pagi tek ngn aman...dan memulakan hari dengan senyuman......bila dah tengahari, kmk cek balit benda yg polah kmk manas lastnite....perlu ba cek....so...bila benda ya tetap sekda....kmk manas ok!

mun dah pinjam duit orang, pandey la bayar nak? mun d tagih, alu kamek d tuduh berkira....yahhhhhhh...mun sik mok bayar, iboh kata 'leh pnjam duit x'...padah jak 'leh MINTAK duit x?'...besar maknanya sia eh...lewat juak ya pun sik faham?!

pasya nak...salah kmk kah mun lamak2 tok each time org transfer duit ke acc kamek, kmk akan dpt notification, p tetiba lastnite, kmk sik dpt apa2 notification wp kitak madah kitak dah transfer duit ya...salah kmk ka?! kmk dah berik bank 12hours k....maybe sidak ada prob lastnite ka apa......dah over 12hours since that transaction...tetap juak sekda.......salah kmk ka nak nanyak? mun kmk nanyak alu maknanya kmk sik cayak kitak la tek?! ooooo...gia duhal.......

urghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

Jom buat pengat pisang

So hari ni buat pengat pisang...sangat senang dan cepat...

Slice 5 big bananas thickly...put aside

Then boil 1 cup of water

Add 1/2 cup of sugar...dissolve it with constant stirring...use slow fire

Once done, add the bananas n let it simmer for a while

the sliced banana in sugar water

When the water start to boil, add 2cups of coconut milk

Add a pinch of salt

Let it simmer till the bananas gone soft but not mushy

Serve HOtttt... :)

Kan senang? ;)

Kalau nk lebih sedap, tambah sagu or keledek (according to my beloved friend ...will try it later)

Enjoyyy

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Call ur mum/dad today

I've been missing my parents so bad lately.so freaking bad. Its killing me...i dont kno why...i just miss them.

So this morning i text my mum. Asking how she is n everything....few mins later, my phone rang... its mum... hehehe....

She sound so happy n i m so glad i text her (despite the fact that she is at the office,working!).....

So my point is, call ur parents anytime anyday....they will always be happy to hear from you....insya Allah.....

p/s: please take a moment for all of the deceased parents..... Al-Fatihah.....

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beauty tips

Not really sure if i've shared this but what's the harm of sharing it again right?

So i read this on totalbeauty.com ... tips on taking care of urself esp skin and hair care...n i also added some of my own... ;)

Never rub moisturizer into your face, pat it on instead...patting it on helps the skin soak it up...

Wash ur face twice daily...once in the morning n once in the evening...personally, when i was in kuching, i wud make sure i wash my face before 7 pm...it helps to reduce the chance of getting pimples...and when i said wash, use facial cleanser... did u wear make up that day? Dont forget the make up remover... and always always always use toner... followed by moisturiser

Always use make-up base ... n no...foundation is not a make-up base that i meant...a proper make-up base helps to create the barrier between our skin n the full-with-harmful-chemical-make-up...

Try to wash ur hair only twice a week ... it helps to keep our hair from drying n dying... :p cover ur hair when cooking n if u sweats a lot...maybe u need to keep a short hair...u cant have it all rite? Huhuhu ... n dont forget that there r hair-cologne...

Alternate ur shampoo brand n type ... it is to avoid ur hair from getting used to it...one brand that is highly recommended is pantene! And also ... hair conditioner n hair mask is actually essential...

Instead of brushing ur hair, opt to comb them instead...brushing is actually harmful to ur hair...but if u must brush them, use a natural-fiber hair brush

Exfoliates....exfoliates...exfoliates....

But beware of facial scrub...some can actually enlarge ur pores....

Hydration....hydration...hydration...inside out...drink lots of water n dont forget ur moisturiser....

Always use sunblock....avoid the sun as much as u can...bukan sbb xnak hitam...tp sbb the uv-ray is so skin-damaging....

Eats healthily ... i m on this lemon-juice diet.... i drink luke-warm lemon juice twice daily... lemon juice has lots of health benefit ... including helping the bowel movement... ;)

Never use hair-dryer...if u must, set it on cold....or else just let ur hair dry overnight...

I love facial mask... in just 15mins, u'll have a healthier-looking skin...back then i always use the nivea face mask...now, i simply use body-shop product.... i always love mud-clay facial mask...there is this one brand i truly love...its st.ives.....ur skin will truly feels amazing after using it ( but dont use st.ives apricot scrub....i mean it....just don't)

Biore pore pack is the best


Ok....thats all so far.... (truth is, i m getting sleepy)...hehehe....

Nanitesssssss.......

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jom buang masa

So wat shud i blog about?

So there is this one person...it seems like this person enjoy pin-pointing the negativity in everything....i mean everything...feels like i wanna scream at top of my lung, "not everything is perfect! Cant u just enjoy the positive and dont mention the negative at all sometimes?"

The irony thing is, that same person always label me as someone negative...who is negative now?!

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xda idea

obviously i am out of idea and motivation to update my blog...

there are few things that would be interesting enough to blog about;

i) what is your future-plan 10 years ago

me n my 2 seniors are chatting at Lotteria that day and it comprises of several topics including this one....what were we thinking 10 years ago? ( i was only 14! form 2 okeyyyy) :p

ii) reasons to break up with your gf/bf ...

THIS HAS NOTHING TO DO WITH MY LIFE! i do need to emphasis on that or else i would be 'kena pancung' ... this topic came across my mind cuz i was listening to Hitz.fm just now...n there's a snippet of the morning crew...one of the caller said that he has to break up with his gf cuz of her smelly armpits ...well....logically...it has to be her body-odor rite....it totally make-sense to me cuz i cant even stand a person with really awful body-odor for a minute ..let alone spending 6months or more with him. 2 words - body hygiene ! p kalo dah sakit tu....tak dapat nak elak lah owh... :( but that is rare ...how about taking shower more often...body scrub....and deodorant! and clean clothes please!

iii) my super-gt video

oh...this is the most upsetting one.... i went to japan super-gt last 2 weeks.....i was so nyanyuk, i left my 8gb memory card (for my camera) at home....so i need to use others memory card instead. back at home, when i tried to replay the video i took....i somehow become choppy and choppy.... i dont know how to describe it ... choppy is the perfect word... i dont know whats wrong...it has to be because of the memory card... cuz the only changed variable is the memory card... (changed variable..haha :p) ...so no video for you n me! huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

thats all peeps!

see?!

told u i have no idea n motivation to update my lonely-blog....huhuhu

sy frust!

..ntah naper program ni die nak block.....buletin utama tak block pulak...tu la patut d block....eiiiii.....isk

mengong punye priuk nasik

hari ni typhoon melanda japan....so i was house-bound all day...siap tutup shutter-window lagi...ngeri gakla sbnrnya...tambah2 rumah ni agak ringan...di tiup ribut bergoyang2....siap ngn di kelilingi pokok buluh...so each time ribut camtu abis la patah pokok2 buluh tu...hmmm...

p alhamdulillah...ni dah malam....ribut pun dah reda..and alhamdulillah rumah ni xder aper...so penghuni nye pun slamat. ;)

cenggini ha kisah rice cooker...jap...kmk klaka swak jap... bahasa jiwa bangsa...haha

camtok kisah rice cooker yg mengong itu.....kamek tek masak la nyaman2....nothing special...just ayam goreng halia n cendawan masak belacan..hummm...my fav...anyway...tgh masak2..masakla nasi skali...dgn kompiden nie nasik tgh d masak.....

so few minits pastu rice-cooker tu berbunyi...bunyi nasi dah masak...few mins je! gilo ke aper...isk.....bila cek..memang lom masak...so tekan2 la lagi nak masak...xleh! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa.....stress giler.....ayam dah siap d goreng....sayur memang dah siap...nasi lak takleh d masak......isk isk isk...

setelah mencuba ribuan kali (itu hyperbola ye)....setelah mencuba ribuan kali..beras dlm tu pun dh kembang!....so dgn hati pasrah....makanla ayam n sayur camtu je...isk..nasik takdak....

so pas makan..kemas2 dapur..cuci2 pinggan....b4 tutup lampu dapur...try je la masak nasi lagi skali...tekan nye tekan rice cooker tu....skali nye dapat! ya ampun.....dengki tol rice cooker yg mengong itu! :(

so baru tadi bunyi nasi dah masak...... p tgk jam dah kol 917...so wp lauk masih berbaki...n perut masih lapa sbnrnya...p xperla..kita kuatkan smangat utk tidak makan heavy2 lewat2 cenggini ye kengkawan....

huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

i love u...too

sayang...bukan sekadar mengatakan 'i love you'
...bukan sekadar memberi hadiah intan permata...
...bukan sekadar memberitahu satu dunia yang si dia milikmu...

sayang...jagalah hatinya sebaik mungkin...
...jika kerana egomu dia terguris, kerana egomu juga, kau mungkin kehilangannya...

sayang...lumrah wanita...hatinya halus...biar disakiti sejuta kali...jika hatinya masih sayang...dia tetap akan disisi...
...lumrah wanita juga...hatinya cekal...sekali kasihnya berubah...sukarnya mengubah itu kembali...

jadi sayang...menjaga wanita bukan sekadar menjaga dirinya...tetapi juga hatinya...jika dia bahagia, bahagialah dirimu...akan dia jaga bukan sahaja dirimu...tetapi juga hati mu...hartamu...dan paling utama, maruahmu...

ps: sorry la terjiwang kol 3 4 pagi... huhu

jom bercintan dgn zerd

zerd ni...sp yg tau, tau la ek...sp yg tak tau...tak tau la ek...

heh heh...

aku bersama dia kejap je sbnrnya....setahun gurai (ecece....speaking nampak)...masa tu aku kat matriks labuan....

1st impression aku ngn dia? Sombong giler minah tu! ahaha...time tu aku nengok dia dari jauh je la.. pastu kawan aku berkawan ngn kawan dia....so secara proxy nyer kami pun berkawan.

sapa sangka...kawan secara proxy tu jadi bestfriend gila2...aku bahagia ngn dia..ngeh ngeh ngeh. dah macam org bercinta pulak.....ala...bercinta sesama kawan...apa salahnya? :p

aku ngn dia sangat berbeza but yet sangat serupa....paling aku tak dpt lupa...ada skali tu aku lepak kat dorm dia...time tu loker dia terbukak..so aku usha la barang2 dia..dia ada skali la....dgn sungguh terkejut aku cakap mcm ni kat dia, 'gila la makcik. barang kita banyak giler sama'....siyes...dari bedak sampaila ke syampoo, cologne dan sgala...sama brand n sama type....xke gila? sedangkan aku tak penah pun shopping ngn dia b4 tu...uhuhu...kalo takat sama jenis syampoo ke aper aku paham la jugak...ni majoriti brg2 lain sama....haha..tu la antara benda aku xdpt lupa masa memula kawan dia.

pastu kami ska crita kami 2 je..ehehe...ader skali tu..sbb nk privacy, kami g lepak kat 4th floor dorm dia. 4th floor tu memang xder penghuni.bila pk2 balik, giler brani time tu. dahla skali lepak sampai kol 2 3 4 pagi. isk.

malam terakhir aku ngn dia kat matriks, kami lepak all day n all night... smua crita klua. hehe. time tu la aku sedar aku cayangggg sangat kat dia. ala..cayang kat kawan aper salahnya? :p

and now dah dekat nak 5 tahun tak jumpa. aku slalu tgk dia dlm paper jer pun. ms dia dapat offer af, aku la org paling tak percaya. ahahaha...aper punya terokla aku ni sbg kawan. :p xmo trima kenyataan sbnrnya. sampaila list name bebudak af5(af5 ke dia? aku dah lupa)...anyway...sampaila list name tu officially klua....aku pun tumpang la hepi. ms tgk dia ngs dlm tb, aku sangat2 la sedih. zerd bukanlah jenis yg cepat menangis (tak macam aku)... dia cekal sangat hati. dia hafal banyak sangat doa buat bekal...sebab tu hati dia tenang kot...(peringatan untuk mendalami ilmu agama lebih lagi)...

now dia dah fames. aku sbnrnya xska dia jd penyanyi. p aku still kawan dia. bila dia launch dia nyer kompeni, aku syukur sangat2...bila dia grad degree dia....aku lagila bersyukur... aku doakan all the best for you zerd. bila ader kontroversi pasal dia....aku la org2 kepochi nak call dia...hahaha......yg penting aku nak sound dia... hehehe...sorry la makcik....aku sayang ko sangat2 nak tgk ko mcm tu.... mcm la ko takder sapoter lain kan? :p

aku bertuah...dalam hidup aku ni....wp aku tak ramai kawan, tapi aku ada kawan2 mcm zerd....yg aku leh kata kawan sampai mati. korang pun tau saper korang. i love you all. i love u all so much. aku dah banyak kali kena tikam dari depan (tikam dari blakang takyah cakapla kan) and aku tau...time2 camtu, korang akan datang n tolong aku...and aku janji...aku akan berusaha utk jadi kawan sebaik korang. pinky promise..hehe

so kesimpulannya... kawan2 adalah keluarga yang kita pilih (ni kata dr. george o'mailley)...manakala dr.sheldon cooper lak kata,'kawan2 adalah umpama surrogate family'...aku kurang pasti aper maksud dr.sheldon sbnrnya...p The Big Bang Theory sangat lawak. sila la tonton. :p

aperpun....kawan2 adalah keluarga...dan acquaintance are just people we need to work with....tak ramai org tau beza kawan n acquaintance. and owh...skarang ader istilah baru...kawan fb... nanti2 la kita crita psl perbezaan kawan, acquaintance n kawan fb ek. aku dah ngantok. sweetdreams.

assalamualaikum.

;)

i miss my friend

i miss zerd.....honestly i miss all of my friends...all of my beloved true loyal friends...malam ni post ni pasal zerd sbb dia br anta msg kat aku...kat fb...so far dia la yang paling rajin anta msg kat aku...soh aku call dia...agak2 atleast once in 2 weeks dia akan tanya khabar n kluarkan perintah utk aku call dia..hehe...p tiap kali pun aku akan langgar perintah tu...

sorry makcik...aku appreciate sangat ko care pasal aku..terharu sangat2...and aku berdoa sangat2 ko xkan give up checkin on me... :)

ader sbb aku tak call...aku tak mampu nak call n bercerita ngn ko and knowing that aku kna hang up soon n entah bila lagi aku leh call ko...sedih sangat aku nk pk..siyes...

sebenarnya ni apply kat most of my friends...aku jarang call or chat ngn korang bukannya sebab aper...p sbb aku tgh tak mampu skarang nie....aku tgh emosi emo-emo macam neemo...hehe....so aku amik keputusan untuk lebih banyak mendiamkan diri dpd tercerita benda yg tak sepatutnya aku cerita...eheh...ni kan dah cerita sikit? :p

aku ok...i m still engaged....and yes aku masih kat sini (jepun)...struggle nak habiskan master aku. insya Allah pertengahan tahun depan aku habis dan aku akan pulang ke tanahair tercinta.pastu aku akan keja kat ibu pertiwiku bumi sarawak. maybe masa tu boleh lah aku sering kontek korang sbb by then aku dah leh jumpa korang. kalo aku sedih sgt2 aku leh la lari ke mana2 korg ader..korang kan berselerak kat bumi bertuah malaysia tu... hehe...

jadi aku harap dalam tempoh aku bertapa ni,aku harap kengkawan aku takkan berkecik atie ngn aku. korang anta msg ke aper, aku akan layan. p janganlah ambik atie kalo aku tak segirang dulu.aku dah tua.nak melompat2 girang macam muda2 dulu, takut tulang patah pulak...ngeh ngeh ngeh... paham2 la metafora aku tu ek.

aperpun, aku bangga ngn korang smua.so far smua jadi manusia berguna. mampu nak sara diri.tu satu permulaan. pastu kita sara mak bapak kita.pastu kita sara keluarga kita. setiap hari korang turun kerja, adalah hari2 d mana korg adalah warganegara yg menyumbang kepada negara.ecece...aku memang ska melalut mcm ni. :p

so dengan izin Allah kita akan berjumpa lagi....dan aku rindu sangat2 kat korang smua...smua mua mua muaaaaa.... ;)

Well Well Well

Check this out!

2ndly…

Behold Readers!

LOL

I’m sorry for hiding my blog for a week or two…I’ve been to busy to post

a new blog hence I’ve decided to take a step back from this blogging-world (agak menyampah ngn statement nie…huhuhu)

3rdly

It’s finally autumn here and the weather is damn nice…but freezing at night. I love autumn. It’s like the gothic-version of spring. Hehe….i cant really explain it but that’s how I see it.

There’s main event for every season here (or elsewhere perhaps) …

Winter – Snowboarding … I am definitely going this year… Insya Allah….

Spring – Hanami (hanami ke? Jadi confuse jap)…anyway it literally means watching-flower… so hanami is actually picnic under the Sakura Trees that would blossoms for few weeks usually late march to early april every year. Its pretty awesome cuz the sakura would slowly fell like snow…giving us owh-so-romantic-feeling … (hence the name snow-drop in some country .. & cherry-blossoms in other)…

Summer – Hanabi Taikai ( Firework Display and I mean massive firework display…including up to 2-3 hours of display with lots of different colour and shape of firework…so far my favorite is the shape of Heart and Smiley..there’s also bow/candy, some Japanese character, sunflower, flower, fish, famous Japanese cartoons etc) ..this is my favorite…I never get bored watching this…

Then now Autumn! So usually we will go and se the autumn leaves… koyou is what the called it… this year I was so lucky cuz my fiancé (ehemm…I m mentioning you real nicely here! :p ) ….my fiancé organize a doraibu (road-trip) to Sendai and on our way, we make a stop at Zao Echoline…the view was definitely breathtaking..so unbelievably beautiful….my camera and photo-taking technique definitely didn’t do justice to the scenic view…but maybe this can give u the idea…

the sky is crazy-beautiful that day. Crazy-Beautiful! That is where i discovered my clouds-fetish! :p

this is Zao Echoline...its actually a highway(?) i dont know how to describe it....imagine how we used to hike into the wild? well this is driving-into the nature....the road is amazing! its crazy how they manage to maintain such a good road (not bumpy watsoever) in this secluded but tourist-packed area!

oh well...the truth is, we went there a little bit early...hence the leaves are not totally 'autumnized' yet...

Indah kan ciptaan Allah… ;)

p/s: my deepest condolences to all Indonesian for the enraging act of Mother nature on their land… I know my country will definitely send rescue-team…so jangan attack diaorg k? we are just tryin to help..Let puts our differences aside for a while and unite as human…

i'm a proud Sarawakian from Malaysia!

good advice

someone gave me a really good advice the other day. shame on me, that person was two years younger than i am. oh well..age didnt really matters when it comes to maturity. i learned that the hard way.

anyway...she helps me to see things from a 3rd person perspective. all along i've been seeing things from my own perspective n his...i tend to 4get that they are people who are also affected with my decision...

all of our posts on fb n twitter n blogs or on any type of media on the internet, actually reflects who we really are. i m known as someone who are overly emotional n attached at times and i bet it is clearly shown through my posts. i just hope my employer wont read this. isk... but then they hired me for who i am and i am trying to be the best as i can be as a person as well as an employee.
i bet all of us know this already but yet we need to be reminded from time to time again. it is so easy to let our feelings control the best of us when expressing ourself online...simply cuz we r alone when we r doing it n thus we feel comfortable expressing anything on our mind (n heart).

Hidup yang Indah

Bercinta

Merancang perkahwinan

Bercinta

Membeli rumah

Menghias Rumah

Bercinta

Berkahwin

Berpindah ke rumah sendiri

Bercinta

Memulakan kehidupan sebagai seorang isteri

Bercinta

Mendapat berita gembira diri sudah berbadan dua

Bercinta

Memulakan kehidupan sebagai seorang ibu

Bercinta

Mengandung selama 9 bulan

Menimang cahaya mata

Menatang anak ibarat minyak yang penuh

Bercinta

Suka dan duka mendidik anak

Melihat anak-anak membesar dan berjaya

Bercinta

Melihat anak head-over-heels dengan pasangan di pilih

Bercinta

Tersengih sendiri melihat bakal menantu yang gementar

Menerima menantu ke dalam keluarga

Bercinta

Menimang cucu

Bercinta

Duduk di halaman rumah, memerhatikan cucu-cucu bermain girang

Bercinta hingga ke akhir hayat

indahnya kehidupan ini...

akhirat jangan di lupa...

Spirit Girl

ok..this is really scary...

the girl took a video of her apartment using her keitai(hp) and somehow she captured 2 'ghosts' in her apartment.

i m not kidding when i said please dont watch it if you are living alone...(like me! iskkk! i sleep with the lights on for so many nights after watching this)...

myMetro | Tikam perut rakan akibat dikutuk dalam Internet

myMetro | Tikam perut rakan akibat dikutuk dalam Internet

i m getting tired of fb n twitter lately....ask my partner and u'll know why... :(

i m still me

i believed that my past posts are quite heavy

...and someone told me to be more careful with my words...

thank you for the reminder...

i was just speaking my mind n what's on my mind are actually really heavy...isk...if only u guys can get into my mind n see things from my point of view.

ok

lets talk about something lighter...

i m thinking of getting japanese driving license...

i m still thinking about it n so far all i've ever did is casually browsing through website regarding the written-test. that is so me...thinking deep n hard about so many thingsss....
in japan its a True or False question...n we need to at least get 7 right out of 10 questions... its a logical question actually.. e.g It is ok for you to drive after you took a small amount of alcohol or drugs, and did not feel dizzy. True or False? (try jawab!)

...here are some of other questions

;)

its not that hard i guess....i just need to study the road-signs in japan....it can be quite different than what we have back home....

gosh..i really want that license! wish me luck! :D

Breaking up with your partner because of her/his annoying/n such family member

I have a girlfriend who is facing this delicate n complicated matter. Initially, her boyfriend family seems to be very nice and accept her as the way she is. It all changes as they become closer. His mum even said this, 'memang lah memang takkan ada menantu yang boleh memuaskan hati mak mertua'. This phrase is in my some-things-are-better-left-unsaid list. The mom didn't tell my friend directly to her (thank god), she found out about this through her own partner. Pity her.

Anyway, my friend's situation becomes worst by the month. First they accused her being a gold-digger (her boyfriend is not even that rich. Both of them are working and earn a respectable amount of salary). Then they accused her of asking expensive jewelries from him (still under the gold-digger accusation). Then they said she is using him to get what she wants. Recently the family accuses her of being an irresponsible partner, cuz she didn't prepare his meal, do his laundry, and clean his house and such. OMG… she is not even his wife yet!

She is someone so dear to me and it actually kills me to know that she is in such situation. Why is she still with him? It's a wonder to me as well.

As someone who is raised in a very tight-family-bond, I feel sorry for the guy. He must be in a very complicated situation. It's his family and it's his love. Our family is perfect to us and may be imperfect to others but when it becomes a problem for you to make your own family, it's complicated. It's messy. Unless the guy is the one who makes his family believe that the girlfriend is actually a gold-digger and such. We would never know.

What ever it is girlfriend…I wish you all the best. If it is not worth it, then just let it go…. What's the point of trying to 'mengajar ketam berjalan lurus'… and never ever ask him to choose between you or his family cuz 'air dicincang takkan putus' and family do matters.

keinggasannnn

ingga ku nangga laki yang dah ada kapel g flirt around rah twitter la fb la...nang antap la...lebih ingga bila nya flirt ngn smua empuan yg nya kenal...iboh antap gilak ehh...kitak ya dah berpunya...mun empuan yg molah gia...kompem bergegar dunia tok sbb kitak ngamok...tol sik? iboh antap gilak k? ingga nyawa knak...

1. dont ever judge the book by its cover.

2. people think that people think this. we cant tell people to stop thinking(&assuming), but we can tell ourself to stop caring so much.

3. kuih sepit berasal dari kaum cina and i think it is more famous in sarawak then it is in other part of malaysia. friends, it has nothing to do with popia.. ;)

4. chat with my friends lastnite and she is so unhappy in her relationship. she is still in that relationship cuz she is hoping that guy wud become the person she once known.*sighhhhh* my friend...*sighhhhhh*...

5. i cant believe its already october. in 9 days time, i m enggaged for exactly 2 years...i cant believe that either.

My Magic Box

The day before yesterday ( saja jak engkah panjang2... :p) anyway The day before y

esterday, i went to Tokyu Hands at Machida...and bought this magic box... :)

lets make this into a box shall we? *wink wink*

1. take it out from its plastic cover.

2. Make it memanjang macam ini.

3. Buat macam itu.

4. Masukkan yang tepi itu ke dalam.

5. Kemaskan semua sisi.

6. Masukkan harta karun anda ke dalam magic-box tadi.

7. Cover elok2 k. SIAP!

Thank You Toffy for helping me to organize my stuff! ;)

p/s: u guys has just wasted few minutes reading this..hehe....

Pernahkah kau bicara

Tapi tak di dengar

Tak di anggap

Sama sekali

Pernahkan kau tak salah

Tapi disalahkan

Tak di beri

Kesempatan

Kuhidup dengan siapa

Ku tak tau kau siapa

Kau kekasihku tapi

Orang lain bagiku

Kau dengan dirimu saja

Kau dengan duniamu saja

Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah

Kau begitu

Kau tak butuh diriku

Aku patung bagimu

Cinta bukan

Kebutuhan mu

Kau dengan dirimu saja

Kau dengan duniamu saja

Teruskan lah.. Teruskan lah

Kau.. kau begitu

Teruskan lah… teruskan lah..

past,present,future

my posts... my future posts...or my previous posts...sapa2 makan cili, dialah yg terasa ok?


my life...my future life...or my previous life...would and had come accross so many people...so many friends and others in life...jadi my post cud be my past...my future...or my present...its how u interpret it...

;) have a great day people..

igNorANCE

lamak dah sik update blog.

i've deactivated my fb...simply cuz i m so sick of the drama on fb...either by others or me myself...ahaha...need to control my emotion more!

my raya was perfect. a mixture of family and true friends...its one of the perfect moment in my life

my friends r either getting engaged, married or divorced(sighhhh)... but its a sign that we r no longer a kid...its a sign that we are all adult and adulthood comes with the responsibility...

fitnah...backstabber and immature/ignorance people...wat more can i say? ignore the ignorants and ur life would be calmer...

sapa yang akan berdiam diri bila d fitnah sila angkat tangan! leh sik kitak org nasihat kit kmk tok spy just ignore sidak penganok tok? :(

grey's anatomy new season premier is on sept 23rd!!! OMG i cant wait! i miss them terribly! uhuhu

SLAMAT HARI RAYA! ;)

_written on the palm of my hand_

this is my raya post

i dont know why but i never really learn from my mistake...i keep on reminding myself that nobody besides my own family deserves sacrificing for...i learned this the hard way but yet i did it again and again...cuz for a while i forget that that person is still the same person who dont deserve me...i have a soft spot in my heart for that person and now i am praying the spot will be gone...soon...after all that person surely knows how to ice-cold-freeze his heart for me sometimes.. its ok...its who u r... and this is me following ur lead to be cold-hearted when it comes to you...

somebody told me that revenge is a mess. oh dear...i m most definitely not looking for a revenge...i m looking for happiness or at least serenity. anybody who knows me, know that i am not a berdendam type of person. i forgive easily and forget far too easily...as long as you know how...benda ni ada baik buruknya... :(

i heard somewhere about how our body n mind would sometimes jeopardize our own road to success... it scares me sometimes...i hope this is not me jeopardizing my own life...

and i used to respect you...but u told me in a way or another that u dont deserve my respect... so i dont respect you anymore...its what u want right?! ;)

anok jak

boleh kitak orang nganok kamek....ya dosa kitak orang bah.....lalek apa kmk... kmk dah nasihat bagus2...p mok juak anok....bah....suka atie lah....lubang kubur lain2 bah...

boleh kitak orang nganok kamek...asal nya sik sampey ke telinga kamek....mun nya sampey ke telinga kamek, kmk pulak jadi emo...mun kmk dah emo, terpaksa la kamek mujok diri sak bersabar...sbb kamek sikmok nambah dosa kamek kedak kitak org bah...yahh...sik ka dah nyusah kmk ya sbb knk pujuk diri sendiri?

boleh kitak orang nganok kamek...tapi kadang2 kamek terpk juak...pernah kah kitak cerminkan diri kitak lok? pernah kah kitak lay awake at night and pikir pasal kehidupan kitak sendiri? tolak kamek jauh2 and renungkan kehidupan kitak sendiri...renungkan peribadi kitak sendiri...dah cukup perfect kah diri kitak sampey kitak leh nganok org sesuka hati? kmk pasti jawapannya sik...sbab mun kitak perfect, kitak sikkan gago nak nganok kamek...by the way sekda manusia yg perfect nektok... tapi kita leh berusaha menjadi lebih baik... :)

boleh kitak nganok kamek...p kadang2 kitak sik pikirkah? better kitak nasihatkan kamek dpd nganok kmk sesuka hati kitak... bena padah kitak ya? ney kitak tauk? dari si poret ya? leh cayak duhal kaki poret ya tek...

bah bah...kmk sikmok emo2 nektok...(kmk berusaha sik mok emo bah...kamek post tok pun dengan senyuman d wajahku...)...ya la kmk padah tek...boleh kitak anok kamek...p judgement day kelak tengok la mun kitak leh transfer dosa kitak ya ke kamek. ;)

kamek doakan kita semua bahagia dunia akhirat... ;)

The heart of the Matter

forgive and forget

thats what they say

it's a good advice but it's not really practical

when somene hurt us, we want to hurt them back

when someone wrong us, we want to be right

without forgiveness old score are never settled

old wounds never healed

the most we can hope for is that one day we will be lucky enough to forget

g.a_S04E5

aDudeShould!

#adudeshould love his mother.

#adudeshould always keep a smile on a womans face

#adudeshould treat his girl like a princess

#adudeshould grow some balls, before he decides to make a promise he can not keep...

#adudeshould show respect his girl.

#adudeshould feel he is replaceable.

#adudeshould come with his A game on all the time.

#adudeshould know that it's not always about what you say but : how you say it.

...where's my Noah Calhoun?...

Search on FB!

obviously i am dead bored....so.....blurghhhh

i use the search function on FB and this is the result...

1. It turns out there's about 120 000 people named Cullen on fb! is that their real name? hehe.....who cares! i once change my name to Zaara Hayaat Khan! :p
2. There are 35 people named Afiela on fb...
3. One of the name is 'Afiela Selalu Ada Dihati' muehehe...what i love the most is his statement (?) 'Pasti semua orang tidak percaya. begini loh.GW tampan, kren, selalu di hati setiap wanita' again....muehehehe..haha...no offence...cud be fun to make friends with this cowok....

that's all.....xda idea.... :p

by the way...this is a facebook safety announcement, most of the links on fb, especially those say something like 'LOL - See How... on CLICK HERE TO SEE' .......or something like that...is actually a virus! or worms...or watever that can threatened your facebook acc and worst your computer....the effects maybe little....but better be safe than sorry..... ;)

Grey's Junkie!!!

this is so cool...if anyone would make this into a quilt, and give it to me as a present, i would be happy for years... ;)

i've just watched Twilight Eclipse...OMG...Robert Pattinson is such a bad actor...so bad it is painful to watch...even Taylor Lautner is a much better actor...

then i watched Abandoned...at the end of the movie there's ' in a loving memory of Brittany Murphy'...i cant believe i 4got that she died last year...because of pneumonia or something...'over-the-counter-drugs' that she has been taking actually worsen her condition...so people...stop medicating yourself!

just to share, her late husband died 5 months after that... his health begin to deteriorate after her death...its a really sad love story... :(

i m missing all of my beloved ones...i guess when u r going through what i m going through, all u want is the warmth u get from your beloved ones...

and guys...always have the decency to let your girl know that u r going to be late. most of the time, we r not mad that u r late, but we r mad that u didnt bother to tell us that u r going to be late. a simple text saying, 'dear, i m sorry but i am going to be late cuz bla bla bla...so please dont wait for me or bla bla bla...' simple thing like this makes our world a much better place...

:)

Humiliated on Fb

    Yesterday, I went out to the nearest Jusco to buy some fruits and drinks for iftar. I was out for about 1 hour plus. During that time, there's no phone-call or message that I received.

Back at home, I check my fb profile (as usual lah). Behold! There's a message posted on my FB wall, marah me for using the car without telling him. My friends read it, his friends read it and they've even post their comment on that humiliating post. He tried to soften out the humiliating post by trying to make it sound like a joke, serious but in a joking way. I didn't find it funny. I still don't find it funny at all. I find it humiliating and I was very upset.

My whole life, nobody had ever manage to humiliate me directly, that was until yesterday. I feel so betrayed. Only trusted people can post on my wall, that's my family, my real-life friends and my game-buddies (I don't trust them that much, but all they can post on my wall is game related, so I am taking the risk.) That was one the greatest betrayal. What make it hurts so much; it was from the person that I trusted.

When I allowed you guys to post on my wall, or to comment on my pictures, it means I trust you. I trust you to keep the personal thing personal and never humiliate me or yourself. This is a reminder for all of us.

I hope he's happy with that post, though I've deleted it. That was my first reaction when I read it. I didn't even manage to read all of the comments. I was sitting here alone in my room, and I can feel my face burning red. My first reaction is clicking that 'remove' button.

Whoever you are, you've taught me the feeling of being betrayed, the feeling of being humiliated, and this is not the first time. My heart is aching and my mind is spinning cuz I can't understand why you would do this to me. I hope you forgive me for all the pain that I've caused you cuz I am trying to forgive you for all the pain that you've brought to me and my family. Remembering the good times is all I have left to keep us alive.

senyuman d wajah

ceria suaranya

namun luka d hati siapalah tahu?

Pets=Strays?

1. Selamat berpuasa.
   
2. My oyasan's (landlord) dog is extremely skinny…extremely skinny. I don't know what happen. It was a healthy dog and now it look sick and starved to death. I am enraged to think that my oyasan has neglected the dog…but to calm myself, 'the dog might be sick'…
   
3. Regarding my previous post….i got lots of response that says, 'You OWN Your Life'…oh well people…..i am not looking for anybody's permission. I am enraged to think that you guys think I need permission to meet my family….haha….sikla enraged…..but thanks for all the support. ;)
   
4. I have a confession…I've watched Salt and Inception twice…. It was the second time that I truly understand Inception.haha…it is such a complicated movie….dont blame me!
   
5. Can't wait for Eat,Pray,Love and Biohazard…thinking of watching Eat,Pray,Love with my girlfriends. I think it is more effective that way…haha….
   

Selamat berpuasa ….take advantage of this bulan penuh kerahmatan….not to loose weight okay…but to gain pahala! ;)

might go back for raya

assalamualaikum

selamat berpuasa

my 2nd ramadhan here. no bazar ramadhan...no terawih wiv mum....no sahur wiv family...no bazar satok wiv grandpa n my brother....

yup...i am homesick....but i still cant figure out what is so bad about that?

what is so wrong about me wanting to be home for raya? although this is my last raya here...still...wats so significant about celebrating raya in nihon? lainla kalo beraya d mekah...solat sunat raya d masjidil-haram...alangkah indahnya...

mungkin ni antara perkara yang tak perlu d fahami....but people...help me out....am i so wrong wanting to be home for raya? life is short...i love my family...i miss them with every breath i took (yup...it is that bad....pathetic? maybe...)...

i m not there for the worst? whats the worst? ohhh.....terlalu banyak persoalan...semuanya sebab 'i might go back for raya'...

help me friends...

●●SURAT DARI HAWA UNTUK ADAM (II)●●

Jika isteri menangis dihadapanmu….
“hargai lah ia sblm terlewat…”
Jika seorang isteri menangis dihadapanmu,
itu berarti dia tidak dapat menahannya lagi…
Jika kau memegang tangannya saat dia menangis, dia akan tinggal bersamamu sepanjang hidupmu..
Jika kau membiarkannya pergi, dia tidak akan kembali menjadi dirinya yang dulu, selamanya!
Seorang isteri tidak akan menangis dengan mudah, kecuali didepan orang yang sangat dia sayangi, dia akan menjadi lemah!

Seorang isteri tidak akan menangis dengan mudah, hanya jika dia sangat menyayangimu.
Dia akan menurunkan rasa EGOnya.
Wahai suami2, jika seorang istri pernah menangis karenamu, tolong pegang tangannya dengan penuh pengertian.
Karena dia adalah orang yang akan tetap bersamamu sepanjang hidupmu disaat kau terpuruk terlalu dalam …
Wahai suami2, jika seorang isteri menangis karenamu, tolong jangan menyia-nyiakannya. Mungkin, karena keputusanmu, kau merusak kehidupannya.
Saat dia menangis didepanmu, saat dia menangis karenamu. Lihatlah jauh kedalam matanya. Dapatkah kau lihat dan kau rasakan SAKIT yang dirasakannya karenamu ?
Apakah keistimewaan perempuan ini ? ”
Dibalik KELEMBUTANYA dia memiliki kekuatan yang begitu dahsyat..
TUTUR katanya merupakan KEBENARAN..
SENYUMAN’nya adalah SEMANGAT bagi orang yang dicintainya. .
PELUKAN & CIUMAN’nya bisa memberi KEHANGATAN bagi anak2nya..
Dia TERSENYUM bila melihat temannya tertawa..
Dia TERHARU Dia MENANGIS bila melihat KESENGSARAAN pd org2 yg dikasihinya. ..
Dia mampu TERSENYUM dibalik KESEDIHAN’nya. .
Dia sangat GEMBIRA melihat KELAHIRAN..
Dia begitu sedih melihat KEMATIAN..
TITISAN air matanya bisa membawa PERDAMAIAN.
Tapi dia sering dilupakan oleh SUAMI krn 1 hal…
Bahawa “Betapa BERHARGAnya dia”…
Sebarkan ini ke SELURUH ISTERI2 yg soleha dan SUAMI2 yang kamu kenal agar mereka tidak lupa bahwa ISTERI mrk begitu berHARGA… Dan sangat berHARGA.

shared from FB note...

Enchanted

‎..for months i was awfully bitter inside when people start to talk about weddings n such..but lately i am damn excited n had butterfly in my stomach thinking bout the wedding..The wedding of Mohd Zacaery Khalik & Siti Khadijah Reduan ..haha..sik taukla knak..p kmk nang tumpang excited..tumpang lok ahh.. :p . So hepi for u guys... Andra Afisham Yusuf&EMmaz XLovezz Akma bila gik? others? cpat2.leh kmk tumpang excited juak!

dats my fb status tonight...

am i crazy for getting so excited for both of them? they were planning their wedding...december wedding and from time to time one of them will post their status regarding the wedding-planning...and whenever i read them...i would smile and 'fell head-over-heels' with their excitement...i dont know why....iskk....i guess i am just awfully happy for him, my childhood friend...and her, the girl he chose to spend the rest of his life with..

i am dying to go to this wedding.....i really am...i even make a mental-note to find a reasonably cheap flight-ticket and make sure i am free that week. i badly wanna attend the wedding.

i hope this officially lift the 'curse' that has been haunting me for months...yup...dats my confession....for months i feel awfully bitter and upset whenever people talk about their wedding or their friends wedding (wedding pun upset...apatah lagik marriage!)...whenever someone start to talk about it, i wud silently bit my lips and try not to get emotional. its the worse 'curse' ever....cuz i love weddings.....i was born to believe in love and to hope for a fantasy-romantic love-life...

pathetic?

yeahhh...i guess so.... it is pathetic when you still hope for fairy and unicorn and charming prince riding his black shining horse and he wud sweep u off ur feet and u will live happily ever after in a far far away land where the birds can sing and there's rainbow every day... :p (uhhh....diz makes me wanna watch Enchanted all over again)...

watever people...i am picking up the pieces and try to be the happy-cheerful-positive fiela once again...pray for me... ;)

hati yang terluka

Kan Kucari Jalan Yang Sunyi
Untuk Menghindar Diri Darimu
Kuberjanji Di Dalam Hati
Takkan Lagi ku Menjumpaimu

Di Tengahnya Kabut Bermandi Embun Pagi
Dingin Membuat Hatiku Membeku

Kau Yang Telah Membuat Luka Di Hatiku
Kau Yang Telah Membuat Janji-janji Palsu
Kau Yang Selama ini aku SaYangi
Kau Merubah Cintaku Jadi Benci

Di Tengahnya Kabut Bermandi Embun Pagi
Dingin Membuat Hatiku Membeku
Kau Yang Telah Membuat Luka Di Hatiku
Kau Yang Telah Membuat Janji-janji Palsu
Kau Yang Selama ini aku SaYangi
Kau Merubah Cintaku Jadi Benci

...kau milikku?...

copy paste from kak lya on FB...

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Petanda 1
Rahsia sepasang kekasih agar dapat memiliki usia hubungan yang panjang adalah dengan adanya saling kerjasama. Kamu dan dia selalu dapat saling membantu, dalam urusan remeh atau besar. Paling penting adalah kamu berdua selalu dapat melalui segala aspek kehidupan secara bersama- sama. Dan semuanya terasa amat menyenangkan meskipun tanpa harus melibatkan orang lain.
Apakah kamu sudah merasakan perkara tersebut?
Jika ya, selamat… kerana ada harapan bahawa dia adalah calon pendamping hidup kamu!

Petanda 2
Salah satu kriteria yang menentukan sesuai atau tidaknya dia sebagai jodoh kamu atau bukan adalah kemampuannya bersikap bersahaja di depan kamu.
Cuba sekarang perhatikan, apakah gerak-gerinya, caranya berpakaian, gaya rambutnya, caranya berbicara serta tertawanya mengesankan apa adanya?
Apakah setiap ucapannya selalu tampak spontan dan tidak dibuat- buat? Jika tidak, maaf kemungkinan besar dia bukan jodoh kamu!

Petanda 3
Adanya deria batiniah membuat hati kamu berdua dapat selalu saling tahu. Dan bila kamu atau si dia dapat saling membaca fikiran dan menduga reaksi serta perasaannya satu sama lainnya pada situasi tertentu.
Selamat! Sebenarnya dialah destini kebahagian kamu…

Petanda 4
Bersamanya dapat membuat perasaan kamu menjadi tenang, selesa dan tanpa perasaan tertekan. Berjam-jam bersamanya, setiap waktu dan setiap hari tanpa membuat kamu merasa bosan…
Inilah petanda bahawa kamu berdua kelak akan saling terikat.

Petanda 5
Dia selalu ada untuk kamu dalam situasi apapun. Dan dia selalu dapat memahami situasi dalam hati kamu baik dalam suka dan duka. Percayalah pasangan yang berjodoh pasti tak takut mengalami pasang-surut, suka-duka saat bersama. Sekarang, ingat-ingat kembali. Apakah dia orang pertama yang datang memberi bantuan tatkala kamu dirundung musibah? Dia selalu faham saat emosi
kamu terganggu? Dia tahu keadaan waktu anda sakit? Jika ya, tak salah lagi. Dialah orangnya…

Petanda 6
Dia tak terlalu peduli dengan masa lalu keluarga kamu, dia tak peduli dengan masa lalu kamu saat bersama kekasih terdahulu. Dia juga tak malu- malu menceritakan masa lalunya… Nah, kalau begitu ini bisa berarti dia sudah siap menerima kamu apa adanya..

Petanda 7
Setiap orang pasti memiliki kekurangan, dan kamu tak malu-malu perlihatkannya pada si dia. Bahkan pada saat kamu tampil ‘buruk’ di depannya sekalipun, misalnya saat kamu bangun tidur atau saat kamu sakit dan tak mandi selama dua hari.
Ataupun menceritakan sejujurnya kepada kamu tentang kelemahan dan kekurangannya… Nah!
Kamu dan dia memangnya disuratkan untuk bersama!

Petanda 8
Bila merasa rahsia kamu bisa lebih selamat di tangannya daripada di tangan sahabat-sahabat kamu yang lain. Atau kamu merasa sudah tak dapat lagi menyimpan rahsia apapun darinya, maka berbahagialah! Kerana ini bererti pasangan sejati telah kamu temukan!

Apakah kelapan-lapan petanda di atas telah kamu temukan padanya?

diberi betis nak peha

...kesabaran ku ada batasnya...

...diberi betis nak peha...

...aku mungkin tersenyum....sememangnya aku tak marah...tapi hati terguris sedikit...

...'biarlah'...ujarku pd diri sendiri...memujuk diri sendiri...siapa lagi nak memujuk diri ini kalau bukan sendiri?...

...aku senang begini...tidak terikat...aku bersyukur aku masih mampu berdiri atas kaki sendiri...aku bersyukur ibubapaku mengajarku berdikari...aku bersyukur agamaku membimbingku menjadi insan lebih tabah...aku bersyukur dengan kehidupanku ini...

Ya Allah...aku memohon ketenangan dari-Mu...

Updates

1. Most likely (60%) I won't be going home for raya! GASP! Yeah people…memang mintak ksian ktk org tok… :p
   

   
    

2. I miss my family.
   

   
    

   
    

3. Inception is one of the most 'intelligent', 'smart', 'brilliant' movie I've ever watch… so go ahead and watch it… you'll be amaze with the physics concept they applied…not to mention the amazing graphic…(mun terms utk describe salah nang sorry la… gue enggak pasti apa terms yg betul)
   

   
    

4. I miss my friends.
   

   
    

   
    

5. Last weeks I finally use the phrase, "Trus G MANA?" in a real-life conversation…hahaha…. I was talking to my Indonesian friends. They were nice and irritatingly funny…. 'owh….aku nggak mau ada pisau d rumah, takut nanti aku stress, trus bunuh diri!" hahaha…lawak bangat lo…. :p
   

   
    

6. I miss my family and friends.
   

   
    

7. Predator XBEST! Save your money for BIOHAZARD and SALT instead. I mean it.
   

   
    

8. I miss kuching…its yummy weather and its yummy food and its crazy driver and its sudden heavy rain and its everything.
   

   
    

9. My weight is now officially at the border line of being overweight. GASP! Hahaha…not so much kan? I am worried actually….low metabolism…low physical activity…dahla makin tua… seriously….i think its just a matter of time before I get 'over-weight-related-health-issue'….no kidding people… I will try to lose more weight….yoshhhhhh
   

   
    

10. Bottom line is I am just homesick..haha..but I am grateful to be here…I am lucky to have this chance…I am thankful to everyone who has been supporting me... *keneng-keneng mata*
    

p/s: in a slightly better mood cuz they finally see me for who I am instead of judging me without actually meeting me in person…

and owh…congrats to my dearest friend yang nampaknya tengah plan nak 'getting hitched' soon…I am so happy for both of you…cant wait to meet your girl… smoga bahagia hendaknya…

If you,if you could return. Don't let it burn, don't let it fade. I'm sure I'm not being rude
but its just your attitude. Its tearing me apart. It's ruining everyday.
I swore... I swore I would be true, but honey so did you. So why were you holding her hand. Is that the way we stand? Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

...emotional d senja jumaat....

1. i am still at the lab...totally my fault cuz i went the lab in the afternoon today...eventhough i knew i have stuffs to do...sekpa....yg penting keja siap.
2. saya sangat ingga dengan kenyataan F**** S***** yang mengaku dia sedang bercinta dengan J****....saya sangat alergik dengan perempuan2 yang dahla merampas suami orang....then g buat statement 'saya dan dia sedang bercinta...we r in love...' urghhhhhhhh....muntah darah saya dengar...berdarah telinga saya dengar...mun lah saya volcano...dah muntah lava saya dengar...(ok..camney eja lava? lava ka larva...haha) ...anyway...dearest perempuan...ko dahla merampas suami orang....pastu you wanna rub it to her face? pedulikla kalo rmh tangga diaorg mcm tongkang d landa ribut badai tsunami! they even had a baby together! doesnt dat mean anything to you? skali pun dat guy bina taj mahal for you...berhati perut la sikit...ko ya perempuan...sampey juak kempang atie molah empuan lain camya? diam2 udah...mun org anok kau nang patut la juak....eiii.....smoga kitak 2 bahagia lah owh...
3. tringat kisah M**** dan R*****......kami bergamba mcm ni sbb disuruh photographer! kami masih menjaga batas2 agama.....huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhhh...mun dah bodo,diam2 udah...sik perlu nak polah statement bodo....sigek jakla...mun photographer ya suruh bukak baju, ko bukak sik?
4. adoi...saya emo..ya memang saya emo pasal hal2 mcm nie....adoiiiiiiiiii....adoiiiiiiii....owh kawan2...janganlah merampas lelaki org owh...true we cant help who we fall in love with...and maybe jodoh kita adalah suami orang...but if that happen...do the right thing...pergi jumpa isteri..bincang cara elok...kalo isteri tu tak redha...tolonglah undurkan diri...dan berdoa pada tuhan...mintak petunjuk apa jalan terbaik...janganlah g menggedik2 kat laki tu and hope he will divorce his wife and leave her and their child behind....peritnya penceraian...janganlah jadi punca penceraian orang lain...imagine if the same thing happens to us....sedih la bila mengenangkan ada orang terlalu self-centered and sanggup buat apa saja asal diri dia bahagia....skalipun org lain terseksa... :(

p/s: really proud of my friend, Heliza Helmi...dah bukak syarikat sendiri....you go girl! cek out the HHP(Heliza Helmi Production) facebook here....sokonglah industri muzik tanahair kita.... :p

cairrrrrr.....

ur stare make me shivers....your smile melts me...when u laugh i feel so happy like a kid getting a candy....

haha...i've been in love with this man since i saw him on tv...he wears all black..his casual-oh-so-cool look drives me crazy...

name: Gackt (sebutan gak-to...if i m not mistaken)

d.o.b: July 4th 1973

p.o.b: Okinawa, Japan

BloodType: A

he's a Japanese male singer....since 1999, over 10 million copies of his album were sold in Japan....more info here

...hensem owh....some people are born to be good looking...charming and downright heartbreakingly handsome....if i have someone this good looking as my boyfriend...plus he is caring, loving, respectful, sensitive, macho, and all the good things that i want in man...i would parade him around just to show him off....hua hua hua...and then we would spend our time together....he loves me...i love him....we get married and have cute babies....and live happily ever after....*wink wink*