DILEMA AURAT WANITA ketika bersalin!

Haha…..have nothing much to talk about…..

Uhhh….i do

Do you know that it is WAJIB for a husband to find a female gynae for his wife? The priority-list should be: 

1. Muslim Female

2. Non Muslim Female

3. Muslim Male

4. Non Muslim Male

It is obvious I am not the best person to talk about this. Read one book and already I am an expert? Haha…. 

But I really want to share about it. I come across this book accidentally one day and just bought it without much thought….it’s just I never read it till recently….so the book I am mentioning is….. “ Dilema aurat wanita bersalin ketika bersalin” by Dr. Zaharudin Mohammad. 

It is just 191 pages …. RM19.00 at Popular….so people, go and get yours today.

Anyway, for you guys who are quite lazy to read (kekekeke…no offense)…keep in mind that your first priority should be finding a female OBGYN. A Muslimah. Sure, it is quite possible if you can afford private hospital. For us who can’t really afford it, all we have is the government hospital and we all know far too well how the system works there. Keep in mind that we can request for a female OBGYN in government hospital. It is our right. Unfortunately we have to fight for it.

In that precious book, there is a real-case when this wife got a male midwife and she fight for it (dah nak beranak ni…but she truly fights for it…) and suddenly they gave her a female midwife! After telling her there is no female midwife available bla bla bla…suddenly there is one pop up out of nowhere cuz she truly fights for it.

I mean of course not all of us can be that lucky…be it we fight for it or not. But my point is, we can request for a female midwife even in the government hospital. Write a letter, fight for it. Make sure your husband fight for it. 

Unless…unless it is truly a life or death question…(that’s why you need to read the book on your own…huhu).

It’s sad that we have to fight for it in this Islamic Country. 

I mean how embarrassing it is for us to expose us to the male doctor? 

We cover up our hair and body and suddenly we have to expose our MAHKOTA because we are pregnant?! 

We do have a choice…we do have female midwife somewhere…sure its not enough but we do…and if we look for them, we will find them…at least we try to find them! USAHA! 

With that, I rest my case… do wish we are more sensitive on this issue... do wish our leader do something on this… i wish it is not that easy for a male to be an OBGYN… I wish the system help our muslimah to at least have a female midwife without having to fight so very hard for it!

Hopes and dreams....

Hopes n dreams....I have none....
Crappy crap crap...
The truth is I do have hopes and dreams...
I just have to dig deeper to look for it...

Went to the office again today.
After 2 years, the case is still a nightmare to me...
When he said they have come to a decision...I said to myself,"is this how it felt when u r being convict?"

(2 guys just sat right next to me...and started to chat....I wish I have the nerve to say, "sir, I m not interested to hear your voice at all!..)

Anyway, back to the office...so yeap...I m being punished.... Punished for being ignorance. Forget about the fact that he forge my signature. Forget about the time when he came n bellowed that he should have the car. I couldnt make it clear enough that I don't want the car....I don't even want the dust from it!!! forget the fact that he stated that he badly wants that car n his dad can do so n so by talking to so n so...oh well....I do wish u get the car back. I seriously do. I know how much it icks you to loose the car...I know u far too well.

So hopes n dreams...I do have hopes n dreams...
I hope u get the car...
n whenever I dream of you, its my worst nightmare ever! Haha

...The wedding...

I m married...

I know...lame right? But I do...I seriously do feel like shouting to the whole wide world; I m married! I m married and I am happy and he is my bestfriend n we fight like old married couple n we berkukut like teens in love n we just enjoys each other's company.

the wedding was such fun! My make up was perfect...my dress is simply adorable (minus the fact that I didnt loose even one inch!!!)... we had fun...we laugh and smile and giggle and just had fun! 

After ijab kabul, I cried...hell...I cried from the start till the end! My mascara totally messed up...my fake eyelash drop off...my eyeliner just ...haha....my friend said I look like the My Chemical Romance....kikiki...I even stained my shawl with my tears! My mak andam(which is my beloved friend) need to redo the make-up for the photoshoot....

But....it was perfect...alhamdulillah it went smoothly. My close friends n family are there. 

Next is the reception....omg...I am head over heels with my dress. Did u guys know that my dress is pinkish purple?! Who wudve thought I would dare to wear that colour?!

Oohhhh....the bagpipe! My wedding have bagpipe played. They played it when we 'march-in'... then we walked under the swords...there is absolutely no words to describe ur feeling when u r walking under that swords...its like time stop n nothing else matter...

Then the cake-cutting ceremony. I told him I want pulut kuning instead...but how can we 'cut' pulut kuning with the sword? Haha. 

Anyway...when the band march in...playing the bagpipe(again!!! I know!!! Hihi)...the sword bearer march in front of them, my sister said, there is no way anyone can miss the excitement on my face...hihi. I love the song they played.....I love that moment....it was a bit kelam kabut cuz none of us know what to do n where to stand....do I hold his hand? Or do I just stand like a princess next to him...or what? Hihi...but who cares? We r the pengantin n we do what we like...n yes that is exactly what we did.

But most of all, it went great. There are flaws here n there...but hey...kita merancang sebaik mungkin, the rest is fate. ;)

Thanks all.....thanks for everything...