Nasi Kunyit

I tried to make Pulut Kuning today. It was my second time. My first time was a success I think, at least it tasted yummy, perhaps unlike the usual Pulut Kuning, but it tasted good! That's the most important thing right?

Haha….truthfully I didn't know how exactly Pulut Kuning taste like. Somehow I've forgotten the taste. So I came up with this Nasi Kunyit instead. (I didn't name it Pulut Kuning cuz I think it would be unfair. :p)

So I want to share this with you guys.

You will need;

1 cawan beras

1 sudu makan serbuk kunyit

1 clove bawang putih

1 cawan susu segar (cairkan dengan ratio 9 susu:1 air)

Garam secukup rasa

 

Procedure-nya

Bancuh serbuk kunyit ke dalam air,(air secukupnya untuk meliputi beras)

Ketuk bawang putih, letak dalam rendaman beras tadi

Biarkan rendaman ini semalaman (atau at least 3 jam)

Masukkan susu dan garam secukupnya ke dalam rice cooker

Masukkan beras

Masak nasi seperti biasa

 

;)

...why is the bedroom so cold?...

1. Lab dah dlm mood new year. They spend the whole day cleaning the lab. Totally cleaning. Disposing unused buffer and stuff.

2. We (my lab members n me) will be having 'bonenkai' tomorrow. Bonenkai is this year end party that the japannese do every year...end of the year obviously. :p
I'm pondering whether to go or not. Basically because they will drink and they will drink alot and I feel uncomfortable sitting together with them when they are drinking. Pity me...uhuhu

3. I spend my free time watching grey's anatomy season 3...after i completed season 2 and will continue with season 4, 5 and 6 after this. Sometimes i feel its really pathetic that i spend my free time this way, but it makes me happy and less lonely...so what the hell....

4. I am baking my very first cake and i am waiting for it to bake. It's moist chocolate cake.

5. I held my first lunch-get-together last Sunday. I prepared Laksa Sarawak. The kuah is almost perfect but i over-cooked the noodle....isk... i also prepared spaghetti bolognaise...the spaghetti is great...according to me...hehe

6. I feel I am calmer lately. At least calmer than i was two years ago. I feel older as well. But in a good way. :)

Till then... happy new year people... ;)

a cold wind will blow through your door

Night will follow day
Sure as the sun and moon
Remember I will always be with you
If i'm out of words to say
And I understand you
When you see a darkness coming through
Remember to keep one take shelter from the storm
The night will not last for much more
I wrote in a small note
put on your winter coat
A cold wind will blow through your door
Night will follow day
Sure as the sun and moon
Remember I will always be with you
Just fold your hands and pray
And I am beside you
Tell mother I hope to see you through
Remember to keep one take shelter from the storm
The night will not last for much more
I wrote in a small note
put on your winter coat
A cold wind will blow through your door

Happy or not…

It's your choice

True…sometimes sad things happen to us. We can't avoid it. It's called destiny. We can't really change our destiny. But we can always choose how to face it.

So happy or not is your choice.

It's a state of mind.

When you are sad, try harder to look at the bright sunny side. Try harder to smile honestly from your heart. Try harder.

But if you can't, means you are depressed. Some depression goes away soon enough. Some stays for one reason or another. Find help before it destroy you. Talk with your family or friends…get help dear…

no further question please

I confess that in 2009, I have....
( ) stayed single for the whole year
( ) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
(x) had your heart broken
( ) broke someone else’s heart
(x) had a stalker
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
(x) had a good relationship with someone
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
(x) have a relationship with someone you’ll never forget
(x) done something you’ve regretted
(x) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under a mistletoe

OTHER
( ) painted a picture
(x) wrote a poem
(x) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog
(x) listened to music you couldn’t stand
( ) went to a sleepover
( ) went camping
( ) threw a surprise party
(x) laughed till you cried
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
(x) visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren’t
( ) partied to celebrate the new year
( ) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something/someone important to you

In 2009 I…
(x) broke a promise
(x) lied
(x) went behind your parents back
(x) cried over a broken heart
(x) disappointed someone close
(x) hid a secret
(x) pretended to be happy
( ) slept under the stars
( ) kept your new years resolution
(x) forgot your new years resolution
( ) met someone who changed your life
( ) met one of your idols
(x) changed your outlook on life
(x) sat home all day doing nothing
(x) pretended to be sick
(x) left the country
( ) almost died
(x) given up something important to you
(x) lost something expensive
(x) learned something new about yourself
(x) tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it
(x) made a change in your life
( ) found out who your true friends were
(x) met great people
(x) stayed up til sunrise
(x) Cried over the silliest thing
(x) was never home on weekends
( ) got into a car accident
(x) had friends who were drifting away from you
(x) had someone close to you die
(x) had a high cell phone bill
(x) spent most of your money on food
( ) had a fist fight
( ) went to the beach with your best friend
( ) saw a celebrity
(x) gotten sick
( ) liked more than 5 people at the same time
( ) became closer with a lot of people

I'm not gonna get down on one knee...
I'm not gonna ask you a question...
i love you Meredith Grey....
and I wanna spend the rest of my life with you...

And i wanna spend the rest of my life with you....

:)

Fiela! Say it properly!

Labbbbbbb

Effectttt

Appliedddd

…well…that's what I learned in my English class today. My sensei said my English is good (ahahahahaha……I'm a proud girl! :p) ….but (sighhhh) my pronunciation is 'off' sometimes. Especially words like 'lab', or 'effect' or 'applied'….I tend to silent the 'b'or 't' or 'd' too much….especially when I'm presenting….uhuhuhu….must be the nervousnesssssss!

Okay sensei…I'll practice more and more! Wanna get that another 12% mark that you cut off from my midsem presentation….!....

Yes, I’m a muslim.

Yesterday, I stop at the dai mini-shop to buy some treats for me. The Makcik Cashier is so friendly and almost each time I'm there, she would try to chat with me, even though I've told her again and again 'Nihongo Wakaranai!'...(hope that's right) hahaha…..it suppose to mean, 'I can't speak Japanese'…or something like that. So…yeah…we do chat. Me talking English, she Japanese plus lots and lots of hand-gesture… :p

Anyway our conversation yesterday went something like this…

Makcik Cashier: You wear headscarf because you're a Muslim right?

Me: Yes. (Smiling…well…religious question like that always make me smile. I wonder why).

Makcik Cashier: But you're in Japan! Can't you take it off, even when you're in Japan?

Me: Ohhh….no no… dame' dame'…(dame' means cannot…if I'm right…again…hehe).....

in Japan, they use this hand gesture meaning 'No' or 'Cannot'.....

…Islam….here there everywhere….no matter where I go…Islam is in my heart and will always be my way-of-life… ;)

…

…tgk The Notebook…nangis

…tgk The Last Kiss pun nangis…

…tengok Grey's nangis juak...

…isk….

...childishly fun...

...it was ages ago....now it seems so childish....but fun! :p

Yada yada….

It's been awhile since I updated my blog. Nothing much lately….nothing that can be shared here….just lots and lots of personal stuff…..huwarghhhh

 

Here's something interesting. I have a Mat Saleh sensei…born and raised in New York. I am so lucky to have him as my English teacher…simply because he's a native speaker! Plus he's fun and so full with life. He's been travelling all around the world. Gaining experience by travelling to the third world country like Thailand and Vietnam…before landing in Japan and started to work here. Not to mention he married to a Japanese lady and I bet their child must be adorable…. ;)

 

So he invited me to join his undergraduate class every Friday afternoon ( I registered for his postgrad class on English Presentation for Engineers)…this undergrad class is an Oral class where almost 80% of the class was conducted in a way that students held group discussion. The objective of the class is really simple. Allowing students to speak English, hence improving their fluency in that 'bahasa orang puteh'…

 

Every Friday afternoon he would greet the class, have a little chat, telling important announcement if there's any then he would divide us into groups and each group has group leader that he has appointed weeks before that. Group leader have to find an article (in magazine, webs, newspapers etc), summarize the article and then discuss the article in their group; by first telling his/her group members about the article, then tell his personal-opinion on that topic(from the article), before asking his/her group members about the topic. It's a really casual class and I love every minute of it.

 

Before my sensei let us start the group discussion he would always say; 'So Speak English, Learn Something & Have Fun'.

 

I really love that class. Simply because I love every opportunity I get to increase my fluency in speaking this language (it's also the reason I have this blog…to improve my speaking and writing-skill in English).

 

To add it all, this class has a mixture of Japanese-Malaysian-Indonesian-Arabian-Chinese (from China) and also American mixed culture…because there's one of us in that class. Fun? It is, fun and very interesting indeed. I get bits-and-pieces about each country, for example; Do you know that in Saudi Arabia, studies are totally free? It's like study fees doesn't even exist there. And in Japan, a husband is expected to give all his salary (every month) to his wife, then his wife would give him a small sum of pocket-money and she will keep the rest. Americans doesn't use the term 'handphone'…it's Malaysian and Indonesian and maybe Singaporeans that use that term. So it's fun fact like that. Sometimes it is a more serious matter like the corruption in Indonesia and the great recession in China. I love all of this stuff. Makes me feel wiser… :p

 

Well, that is the highlight of my week. ;)

skin care tips from fiela...

1. try to wash ur face same time everyday ... mcm kmk,kmk mesti cuci muka before kol 6 ptg everyday and bila bgn pagi...mun klua lepas kol 6 ya...cuci agik b4 tdo...

2. make up remover bukanlah utk bersihkan make up semata-mata...dlm dunia yg pnh pencemaran tok...slalu2 lah gna make up remover b4 facial wash... choose a mild one... i prefer bedak sejuk biore ... ponds pun ada... other brand i'm not sure...

3. masker is essential... try nivea... murah n berkesan...pakailah dlm 2 kali seminggu...

4. cheapest masker? cold egg white...sapukan pd muka yg dah dbersihkan...biar selama 5-10 mins...rinse with warm water...then cold water once...wouldnt hurt to add honey into that egg white... ;)

4. exfoliation is crucial... do it at least once a week...easiest way, gna scrub... but b extra careful...some scrub tends to make ur pore larger... xska scrub? gnala facial brush/sponge...ada jual kat watson... :p

5. jgn sekali-kali cuci muka gna air panas... the colder it is the better(jgnla freezing cold!!!huwaaa)... but if u r using facial wash that require warm water...gnala air sejuk for the last rinse...easiest way mengecilkan pores...

6. jgn picit jerawat!!!the best way is to put some antiseptic on it! i prefer johnson n johnson antiseptic cream... xsempat nk klua pun ...

7. sila gna uv protection cream!every single day...


hmmm...thats all i can think of for tonight...hope ut helps...good skin require good care... snang jak ya... ;)

It will never happen to us…

 

It will only happen to others…someone we don't even know exist…or at least someone who are related to us….but my mother's cousin's aunt's grandmother….

 

Yeah right….

 

Get real!...things that seems so impossible to us might not be that impossible after all…simply because we are human…just like them…

 

What happen if oneday…we went for our regular medical check-up…then the doctor found out something….smiling, he will say,'let's do the scan…but it's just a routine scan, nothing to be worried about'…really? There's nothing worth the worries? Nothing at all?...yokatta…. :p

 

Live like today is your last day…learn like you'll live forever…

...love her....

...it's as simple as that....

Decaffeinated me!

For the last couple of days…my addiction to caffeinated drinks started all over again….luckily its coffee instead of coke…but unluckily it's still caffeinated drinks…. Drinks that keep me awake when I want to sleep…when I need my beauty sleep….drinks that makes me insomnia…

Truth is I only like coffee when I am drinking it….i love the taste… but i hate the effect….it makes my heartbeat faster than it used to…makes me feel restless…I don't need such things in my romantic life…I am not an undergrad student anymore…a student that needs extra hour to memorize her notes (cuz that's what education is all about nowadays…memorizing facts! Don't tell me it's not true, it is!!!) … being a postgrad…I have all the time in the world to read my notes…between experiments…I always have the time on my hand…no more memorizing notes to the wee hour… being a postgrad …the important thing is to know and understand … not memorizing it for the written exams …honestly, I think open-book test is much much more better than any anything else … it proves that you understand, comprehend … what's the point of memorizing things but unable to understand them?

Reminds me…SPM for my brother would start tomorrow…I am nervous for him…but I hope he would cherish this moment….i love my form 5…I've never been any focused than I ever be when I was studying for my SPM….best time of my life…and the results worth it….worth all the lack of sleep through out the year…

I have a great … excellent SPM result…but what happened after that….its a shame…urghhhh…make me so mad just by thinking about it…. I am still playing with the 'what if' game …. Hmmm…. I should just let gone be bygone….

It's getting colder day by day…need my winter clothing sooner than I thought….

Nite people…..and…..don't cheat on the people that you love….or worst on those who love you…might as well tell them to stop loving you cuz u just don't deserve their love…. (emo emo..hahaha)

bila salah kira

600/20=3!!!!!

ada rasa nak tukuk2 palak org nok kira tok sik?
kamek sgtla bengang...rasa nak ketok2 jak palaknya....p malangnya kepala berkenaan adalah kepala kamek......huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

one whole day polah exp...in the end sekpat expected result...bila cek2 sbab salah dilution....yerrrrrrrebbbbiiiiii bah....iskkkkkkkk

…I just have to do this…

…sorry guys…but I just have to do this… :p

….the 64GB Ipod touch…

• 14,000 songs
• 80 hours of video
• 90,000 photos
• Voice Control
• Up to 30 hours of music playback
• Up to 6 hours of video playback
• iPod touch 3.1 software
• Wi-Fi
• Bluetooth
• Nike + iPod support built in
• Built-in speaker
• Earphones with Remote and Mic

…and I have one! ...*wink wink wink*

Grey's Life

...u want to have sumone as realistic and annoying as Alex to spice up ur life...
...u want to have high-spirited Izzie to make ur day seems brighter...
.... want George to catch u when u fall...wipe ur tears when u cry...or just be there when u feel so alone...
...u want to have true friendship just like the friendship of Meredith n Christina...
...u want to be loved the way Derek loves Meredith...

...at least that's what i want...and because of that i love them so much...

...lucky chuffy...

oh life...how can it be more messed up than this?...

i m lucky ducky duffy muffy chuffy...but there's always more than meets the eye...
...i m a fugitive...from my own life...hmmmm...

only human

...totally has nothing to do with me....
...but i feels like wanna kelar her face...and shoot him dead...hummmm
but datz my insane mind....isk....

me shopping

i love shopping....
...but limited to buying handbags n footwear i.e heels,wedges, flats (i dont really like flats but since i walk
hundred miles a day...i need them)...
...i hate buying pants...esp jeans..main reason? it makes me feel fat..cuz for a while i 4get dat...( please use sarcastic tone when you read this) ...only skinny people buy jeans...
:(
n d fact that i m in japan makes it worst...most of the girl here r so skinny...i feel like shrek when standing next to them...
hmmmm...
so lesson of the day,lose ten to twenty kg bfore u go pants-shopping...esp jeans...
:(

Mother_Seamo

Be my mother forever
Be well forever
You still have one more job left to do
And that’s to accept your son’s love and respect for you…
Hi Mother, Dear Mother, how are you doing?
Sorry I haven’t called recently, I’m getting by okay…
*Your body is small and so are your hands
White hairs are mixed in and you’ve grown more genial
But to me you’re still bigger than anything, stronger than anyone
I want to tell my kids about this love that supported me

Even though I grow impatient when I’m near you
When you’re far away from me I grow lonely
That’s who you are to me, you can cut through any problem and solve it
And you have the most patience and toughness of anyone I know
You would always be concerned over my well-being before your own

Cooking, doing the laundry, cleaning, raising a child
You even worked during your free time
You would only require things from the lowest places
I didn’t understand even though it was so obvious
It wasn’t until I started living by myself that I understood
Whenever I think of how much you’ve accomplished
And how hard it must have been, I feel like I can try my best today

I’d say, “Wake me up at seven a.m.”
And you would wake me up right on time
But I would be unfair to you
And say the words “shut up” while I was still half-asleep
This was the daily routine
You never made one tired face
And woke me up every day
Warmer and more accurately than any alarm clock

But then one day I skipped school and said, “I don’t wanna go”
I wouldn’t leave my futon and you stood in front of me
Hid your face with both hands and cried loudly
I also felt sad and cried
At that time I blamed myself wondering, “How could I be so stupid?”

Your body is small and so are your hands
White hairs are mixed in and you’ve grown more genial
But to me you’re still bigger than anything, stronger than anyone
I give you thanks for this love that supported me, my mother

I know there’s nothing more painful in the world
Than a parent burying their child
So I’ll make sure it never happens
Even if I only live one second longer than you
I’ll make sure of it…

I’m glad I’m your child
I’m glad you’re my mother
And that won’t ever change
It won’t ever change for all time
Because I am the very image of you…

....the glass is half empty.....

jgn makan gula batu

when i was a kid,i wud eat peanut-butter spread like lollipop...scoop it out from the jar...
n my mum, concern with my health, would remind me again n again how unhealthy my eating habit was...i wud just sulk...i was a kid...n at dat moment, i promise myself that once i m an adult, i wud eat anything i please...s muc s i want to...n mom cant say anything cuz i m an Adult!
well...i m n adult now...n mom is thousand miles away...she cant even see what i m eating daily...but did i keep the promise that i made to myself when i was a kid?
:)
nope...now that i m an adult...i can see that mum was rite...she is rite...and will always be rite... ;)

p/s: i miss my mum....uhuhu....

...diabetis...

....tauk sik, an obese Asian is more susceptible to health problem than an obese Westeners with same height and weight?.....

so Asian lebih snang dapat diabetes compare to Westerners...

...and in that Asian group....certain ethnic are more at risk than others.....namely Chinnese, Indian n Malay!...

there are 2 types of diabetes....

Type 1- you are born with it...shouganai...its not your fault...its not your parents fault....its just inheritance.... but u can manage it by taking insulin shot daily....but again....nak wat camner....kan? ;)

Type 2 - its your fault! your own fault....or your guardians fault....you eat too much till your body system gone gila...so they cant process your blood sugar and hence causing you DIABETES!
and its not as manageable as Type 1....you cant manage them just by taking insulin shot...even the docs are not sure what cause this type of diabetes....its either the body produce insufficient amount of insulin (memang la sik cukup since your body sugar is way too high!)...or your body doesnt utilize insulin the way it should.....

so people.....eat healthily.....less Macdonalds or KFC or Pizza Hut or such..... Less soda drinks.... less carbohydrate in everything.....moderate!
...more fresh green vege....fruits....and such....
...take the stairs instead...
...keep walking....stay healthy....


;)

...a must see...

...hot coffee...

date: 25 oct 09

time: 1124

temp: 13 deg Celsius

...nothing is better than a mug of hot nescaffe on this alone cold Sunday morning...
...huhuhu...
...seriously i need to start to make plans for my weekends...

...but its not so bad...i can have the Grey's marathon! :p

The Road Not Taken

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that, the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

_Robert Frost_

Hurmmm…

I am mad

I am mad at everyone….at everything…

But most of all I am mad at myself…

Naperlah my life jadi complicated sangat?

What do you think of the Christians?

This conversation occurs on the 1^st day of Raya 2009. I was waiting for the shuttle bus to take me to Narita Airport when suddenly a Mat Saleh approached me and give me a smile. Naturally I smile back and that's where it all started.

We were introducing ourselves briefly. He's a business man who has restaurants around German and now he's trying to open a branch at Philippines (or somewhere there). Anyway after the warm introduction, we had a moment of silent. That's where he jumps in…

German-Guy: What do you think of Christian?

I was taken aback. I don't mean it but I guess it shows on my face and before I had the chance to say anything, he added,

' Well, I know it's quite a surprise question'

Ahahaha…nanglah bang oiii….tanyak camya tetiba lepas crita pasal restaurant and I'm thinking this guy must be very rich etc.

Anyway... I smiled and said, 'I have no problem with Christians. In Malaysia we live harmony with other religion. We have Muslims, the Christians, Buddha, Hindu… Of course we are encourage to spread our own religion, all religion does right (he nodded) ... but in the same time, we respect them, and they respect us.'

He grin widely and start to talk about the Holy War, Osama bin Laden, about his experience living in Saudi Arabia 10 years ago and about his German friends who became a muslimah.

He's just like me…like most of us. Respect them and they respect us.

He thinks the Holy War is b***s***.

He said he had such a hard time living in Saudi Arabia until he has to leave. Most of the Muslims there are so cold towards Christians and he couldn't take it anymore.

Sad…..that's what I said to him…. 'It is sad to know that some of our brothers and sisters in Muslim are so shallow minded people.' So he added…'yeah…same with some Christians'

I just smile and in my heart I wish others are like us…

Bukan semua muslim terrorist dan bukan smua Christians suka perang like hurm….sik mok mencemar my blog by typing his name here….

'Janganlah kerana nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga'….

Is it fall? Or already winter? But has the summer really end?

My last update was about a month ago…so lets do this CheDet style… ;)

1. Since I last updated this blog, I've been busy with labs, raya, and more labs and now new class.
   
2. Went home for raya. Landed on Sarawak Bumi Kenyalang at the strike of midnight on 1^st day of raya. It's not that bad. The day started with me talking with a German-man who spontaneously asked me this, 'what do you think about Christian?' ( more on this later…). Then get to Narita Airport by shuttle-bus. Check-in and had a nice flight, one which I get about 6 dozens pack of salted peanut from the nice Cabin-Crew-Capten. I hate the food though. I had beef teriyaki or something. Can't remember. The night ended with me in my home sweet home with my father and mother and sisters and brothers and kiko whom I love so much.
   
3. Raya. Tried to spend most of the time with my family without neglecting my friends. I love my friends as well. We went for a photoshoot at Anggun Bridal Photostudio at Satok. It's right above the Secret Recipe. Sadly one of us couldn't make it since his father pass-away the day before. Al-fatihah…ajal sesuatu yang pasti dan mungkin lebih dekat dari yang kita jangkakan.
   
4. Settling official matters. Went to JPJ to get my international license. *You will need 2 copy of passport-size picture, 2 copies of your license and mycard and also rm150. First thing you should do when you arrive there is to take your number. Then quickly go to the information counter and ask for a form requesting the international license. Fill in the form quickly but correctly and clean. Then wait for your turn.* I also went to the bank and UNIMAS to settle few other things. May I remind you that maybank is less friendly entertaining your banking-needs if you registered for Maybank2u!
   
5. Went back to Tokai. My flight to KLIA delayed from 8.20 am to 9.05am. I was scheduled to arrive at KLIA at 10 am sharp meaning I'll be on time to catch my flight to Narita at 11 am. *That was before the flight to KLIA disrespectfully delayed. Disrespect is the word because a) at 8 am, the passengers are getting restless since we were supposed to board the aircraft at 7.50am but no announcement was made regarding anything and not a single MAS staff were there for us to consult and b) when we finally board the aircraft at 8.45 am, most of the cabin crew were so not-friendly and all-bothered up and has no patience left. One of them even scolds one of us requesting for their help. Tolonglah. Mun sik mok keja, iboh keja. Salah kamek orang kah flight tok delay? That is so unprofessional! And we had a cold-unfriendly-so unlike MAS hospitality all through the flight.* Nevertheless, I make it to my next flight. But my luggage didn't. I only receive the luggage the night after that. More than 24 hours after I've landed. Thanks to JAL( Japan Airlines), after hundreds of apology and head-bow at the Narita-Airport due to the unexpected event, they sent the bag straight to my doorstep safely the next night. I love JAL more than MAS now. No Offense!
   
6. Back at Tokai. So here I am typing this. I'm in my second semester (but haven't receive a single-cent from my-so-called-scholarship-provider)….hoping for a good semester and another good pointer this semester. ;)
   

World Peace! (style miss world..).. *wink*wink*

dear diary

...dear diary....haha..kmk kurang ska crita yg start ayatnya dgn...Dear Diary..... cthnya Vampire Diary?

anyway

...kmk tulis diary dolok ada sbabnya....sbab kmk leh kata apa jak dlm ya...and sekda org akan judge kmk or marah kmk....so lepas i let it all out, kmk akan lebih tenang....pasya bila dah tenang, kmk akan bc blt apa yg kmk tulis and kmk akan blaja something about life dr sia...sangat rational kan sbnarnya tulis diary.....tapi dgn satu syarat...sekda org lain bc diary kitak org ya..selagi hayat d kandung badan...dan kitak org pun, jgn la bc diary org...dah nama diary..benda ya terlalu personal.....

dear diary...till we meet again... :p

Sacrifice...

....there's no such thing as sacrifice right?...
...its just a decision you make...a decision that you make while believing you are doing it for someone else that you care so much....but really....its not a sacrifice...its just a decision...a decision to push aside what you want cuz u believe its for someone else....its just what you BELIEVE...you only..its only in your mind...you...YOU ONLY.....YOURSELF!
things are what they are the way you believe they are...
and right now this is what i believe...

...lifeless...

...woke up wish that i was dead...from the aching in my head...lay motionless in bed...

huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...tiba2 lagu ya masuk otak....sikdala kmk wish i was dead...its just a song okay... :p

kepak kmk aie...p sekpat tdo...sriusly....dah berpusing-pusing atas katil ya for few hours...sik juak terlena...obviously ada benda dlm otak nak? huhuhu....

chat ngn member sorang tek....nya dpt offer sambung blaja g oversea...one of the top university....p nya pun request nak cuti knak reject oleh boss nya....ya la kelemahan kerja under orang...aduhhhh...gne tok? kmk kelak keja under org juak.....kin lemah rasa diri nak join dunia ya...


...iskhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........

...words...

...no pain, no glory...

...no hardwork, no reward...

ya kata urang.... ;)

Cuaca Dah Sejokkk Balitttt

...setelah beberapa bulan summer...ahernya sitok sejok balit..ahhh..sukanya beta...

ekceli summer tahun tok kat sitok sikla sepanas ney...sik kedak mcm yg dgembar-gemburkan senpai2...sbab summer b4 tok, suhu leh mencecah 40 deg C n humidity 80%.....bayangkan...sangat panas dan sangat lembab..eh lembap... :p...anyway....

summer kali tok agak rendah suhunya sbab typhoon kot..mala hujan...mala ribut.....kmk suka ajak sejok2 tok....

tapi sigek la...on my way home from lab tdk..dah petang, so maknanya semakin sejuk..suhu hr tok sekitar 20-22 deg C....tapi tiba2 kamek rasakan angin ya cukup sejuk untuk molah bernafas jadi sik best...huhu..ya jak la kmk sik suka masa sejuk...udara terlalu sejuk sampey kitak org bernafas pun jadi sik selesa...dan dan dan...masa sejuk maknanya humidity rendah...makin la sik brapa best ngn kulit jd kering...n bibir pun kering....hurmmmm

p walauapapun kmk ska sejuk..sbab kmk sik perlu berpayung...sik la sun-burn gik!

muahahahahaha

bumbling bumble bee

....camtok kisahnya...kmk dah nunggu benda tok selama 4 bulan..selama 4 bulan..prosesnya sangat slow....slowly and painfully....

..org madah, kmk knak sentiasa call..sentiasa email sidak..brk benda ya settle..memula kmk sik polah camya..sbab as a respect la tek..ngenang kmk org br bah...so sidak lebih veteran dr kmk dlm hal tok..and mestilah sidak lebih tauk pa k polah...sapa lah kmk nak kata lebih lebih....(sik..bukan sarkastik...nang honestly kmk rasa camya....)..kmk kira masih baby gik dlm dunia kerjaya tok...

so kamek pun ekot phase sidak...phase romantik org kata...

...kmk ngaku..kmk molah keja romantik juak...p sik seromantik tok....

tersangat romantik sampey one part kmk nangis...sbab tersangat romantik benda tok d proses.... (iboh lupak, romantik=slow)...lepas kmk call nya hari2..email nya hari2..benda ya masih juak dproses dengan tersangat amat romantik...so one day kmk break down n nangis...srius...tensen!

bayangkan...... nya ibarat camtok
...kamek call, brk sidak polah 1st step....
..kmk email, sidak padah sidak akan polah 2nd step pastok....
...kmk email/call, brk step 3 d ambik...
..dan seterusnya....
...get the picture?...

yg polah kmk manas...nya madah step 4 akan dpolah next week, second day of the week...and kmk akan d contact on that very same day.

so on that exact day, kmk cek inbox kmk berkali2 sepagi and sepetang2...sekda! so kmk email la nya...sipi2 masa nak abiz opiz hour....pasya brklah kmk dpt 'email' yg dinantik nantik dr pagi.... isk.....sedih beta...

seriously, kmk sik tauk camney nak speed up proses tok, without sounding mcm sik respect sidak.... and...molah sidak rasa kmk sik respect sidak is the very thing yg kmk sik mok polah.....sbab pastok kmk banyak gik akan berurusan ngan sidak bah....

kamek sik nafikan...sidak polah apa yg sidak mampu....tapi alangkah menyenangkan semua pihak mun benda tok sik d polah dengan terlalu romantik?

.....my my my....

Puasa&Asakusa&Embassy&Merdeka&MerekaYgJahil

Macam macam nak d kata…but nothing I can share with the public…huhu….ooooo….

Ada ada

Last weekend…kmk g 2 majlis sungkey….first one kat masjid Asakusa..seriously, I love the name….cuz Masjid=Mosque…tempat muslim beribadat…and asakusa…well somehow asakusa reminds me of Japanese anime like naruto and such….and combining these two words together….macam hitam n putih….hmm…mumbling

Anyway..it was fun…organized by the Malaysian student so I get the chance to meet more Malaysian student studying here. Most of them are younger than me..and I feel old..isk.. :p

The food..we have Roti Naan and Kari Kambing…I know! Organized by Malaysian, held in Japan but Indian Food? Hehe..well….its because the mosque was sort of like taken care by the Pakistani who lives around there ( I Know Again! They are everywhere!)….so we end up eating their food…and we had the chance to solat terawikh berimamkan the Pakistan…there are also few Indonesian women who prayed with us. One of them chat with me and I am truly sorry that I failed to understand her words…most of the time she has to repeat herself either in English or Japanese..hehe….

Ohh…there are also Nihonjin lady that are Muslim…I heard that its quite common for Nihonjin girl to memeluk agama Islam…especially due to marriage.. : ) they look so cute wearing tudung..

Then the next day, we crash majlis berbuka puasa held by Malaysian who work at the Embassy. My my…they live quite wealthily here. There's this big pretty apartment-bulding just for them. Nice!

This time, instead of only meeting young Malaysian student, we get the chance to meet Malaysian family…with their young kids who fluently speaks Japanese…or English! Seriously…these are the kids who grew up di luar negara. I envy their ability to speak foreign language…but other than that, I think they are missing something by growing up here…after all Hujan Emas di Negeri orang, Hujan Batu di negeri Sendiri, lebih baik negeri sendiri…. ;)

Slamat Hari merdeka People….heard about the 'kepala lembu' incident….seriously?! Those people are indescribable….apa ka reti molah camya? Xkisahla kepala lembu ka..kepala babi skalipun…sampai hati pijak makhluk tuhan sampey camya sekali..kejam bah…skali pun its dead!

Sad….

…are we going back to the jahiliyah-time?

 

...selipar emas...

...apa ukuran seseorang itu berjaya?...

...kekayaan semata-mata?...

...sekiranya seseorang itu tidak menjadi lebih kaya dari keluarganya...adakah itu diukur sebagai tidak berjaya?.....

seriously.....why does everything has to be about money?

i Love Mohd Danial Ibrahim... ;)

…nangis…

Apa kita nak buat masa kita d timpa masalah? D timpa musibah….kita nak menangis je ke?

I was in form 2…during my Pend.Islam class…I was so messed up about something…I am not sure if it's about my studies or others, but I do remember my Ustazah said that to the whole class after seeing tears dwell up my eyes. After she said that, she look at me deeply…as if she's trying to figure out what's wrong with me.

I grew up with her words engraved in my memory…but still I do cry each time I am so stressed up about something. The tears are inevitable.

Sorry if I snapped at you during my 'I'm in a slum dump' (aha…don't even sure if that has meanings)…. What I meant was, I am sorry if I snapped at you when I was so down and stressed. Tried not to let the whole thing drag me down…

Dying for a warm comfy feeling…..dying to feel at ease again….

Sakura Sakura

Pokok sakura nang kacak. Kacak masa nya tgh blooming….for about one week…pasya kelopak bunga sakura start gugur mcm snow…lepas ya kita akan start nangga green leaves tumbuh….and green leaves ya akan trus tumbuh sampeyla ke summer tok…maknanya masa summer pokok sakura jadi mcm pokok2 lain..hijau jak kalernya…tapi masa nya tgh blooming memang amat cantik…ala2 snow…rasa romantic, harmony, sweet, happy..and sgala rasa positif akan timbul bila nangga pokok sakura..srius… : )

Apa nak d leter kmk malam tok?

Nothing much. My birthday was last week. I am now officially 23 years old. Celebrate it with my sayang. He bought a really sweet strawberry cake for me.

He brought me to this beach…it was really sweet and heart touching. I love this guy and I want to spend the rest of my life with him…(alamak..jiwang pulak… :p )

Climb Mount Fuji also last week. Last weekend actually. Thanks to him, I manage to reach the top. Trust me when I said I cried about 40% of the way.

HaHaHa…it was that bad! But thanks to his amazing patience and support…I manage to reach the top.

...the sunrise...captured at about 5 am from the 8th station (3100m)...

It makes me realize that doing such things with the person you love can only affect your relationship in 2 ways. Either the two of you become stronger together or weaker. Alhamdulillah, I felt like our relationship has strengthened so much lately. : )

Sure there's bump here and there. Tapi itulah asam garam kehidupan (xmok gna perkataan rumahtangga lok… hehe)…

Ooohhh..I've found new tv series! Greek! Its about sorority and fraternity life. Kinda fun. Yurps. Kinda fun. :)

Cappie & Cassey...love them both....but love Cappie more..he's this fun-loving but real smart guy...just the type of guy you want to have fun with... ;)

...Rebecca, Ashleigh, Cassey...
Love Ashleigh n Cassey...but hate Rebecca... :p

Till then…enjoy this sad sad video clip...

Singing road!

Happy Birthday To Afiela! :)

...it's my 23rd birthday... i am where i want to be....have what i want...but sure...life is long and i have so much more to learn...but so short like tomorrow is the Judgement Day...and i am still young to enjoy my life to the fullest!

...esok baaaa...... *sigh*

Summer Holiday

Finally its summer…well…not really summer since it still rains…but the undergrad students started their holiday this week. No holiday for me though….master student…hmpphhh….

Luckily our building will be closed for maintenance next week…so that gives us one week break. I badly need to stop the urge to go home since there's one week break next week. If I have a plane…I would fly home…definitely.

It is so unbelievably hot for the last couple of days, especially when it's not raining. Each time I *sigh* about the heat, I would remember my Geography teacher telling us about the extreme weather that most island have. Well…Japan is an island after all.

Yesterday receive a notice from my sensei telling me that I have TOIEC on September. Wow…I didn't even register for it. But it's a good thing, since I need to take the exam anyhow.

Since yesterday I tried to hack this game on the social network that I am using… LOL… not giving you the detail since it can be bad for me… :p But it doesn't work so sik kesah la nak… ;)

My weight seems to maintain ever since it drop to 3 kg before. Whatever…it doesn't really bother me since I am not putting an effort to lose more weight.

Ohh….how could I forget this…I went to watch the firework last weekend. I was so excited the whole time. Apparently the nihonjin celebrates summer with the firework display…wearing their yukata n jinbei and look so cute (especially young couples..hehe)… Lucky for me since I love the firework so much and I plan to drag my fiancé to every firework display, as much as we can go… … ;)

I am officially getting older soon…tried to get it out of my mind though… :(

Night people!

If you have diarrhea… muscle ache…your head spinning…you have flu…..go straight to the nearby clinic! Once it has been 2 days, no drug can save you…it's all up to your body immune system! So better be safe than sorry! ;)

 

...

...my birthday is just around the corner....

...i am still stuck here with no extra 'income'...and i am suffering quietly...

...seriously...money is not something you want to have problem with...

...i am getting more and more miserable each day...and trust me...its money related...

...tolonglah settle-kan my-money-related problem..at least i will have least things to worry about...

Kid’s Blog…

 

What is the youngest age someone should start blogging?

I was out with my sayang n his friend tonight and we were taking about generation gap and such.

Straight to the point…he mentioned something about student as young as in year 4, 5 writing blog. They were like 10 or 11 years old. Ya Allah…what has the world become?

Worst, they were 'bitching' in that blog. At such young age, I don't think they were supposed to do that. It may seem harmless, but if we think it more thoroughly, it's an emotional disaster!

Yes, we all go through that phase in life. Phase when we were so childish (because we were just a child) and we fight and argue with our friends, and say 'sik mok kawan' or 'sik mok geng' or what ever…but that's it…not written anywhere and anytime we get over our stupid fights, we will be friends again.

When we say unpleasant things about someone else, no matter straight to their face or 'mengumpat' about it with others, we will get face expression and reaction from the person we were talking with, and more than often, this makes us come to our senses and become rational again…or at least stop talking because we realize that we are talking about unpleasant things. Unlike when blogging, when bitching in blogs, there were no face expression and we won't get any reaction from others until we have post the blog…and usually, this is far too late. The damage is done. The emotional-disaster has occur..especially if our 'victim' has read our post!

As for the 'victim'…once she or he reached the blog…once she read the post…she can read it again and again…and if the post is really mean…that is when things become disastrous…either the fight become worse or she become emotionally wreck…she will always remember what she read, far better than what she hear…trust me!….and even if her 'prey' wants to make things better after that, it is so much harder! Cuz it's written down…black and white….its really there…not just said…but written…sure…the post can be deleted…but what if it's printed out?!

Children didn't know better! Even adult get into trouble for what they post on their blog! Even adult didn't know that much! So what make its ok for children as young as 10 or 11 to write their own blog? And worse 'bitching' about their friends and teachers…and others in their life? Kid, be a kid! And parents, be a parents…sisters be a sister..brother be a brother…it's the responsibility of each and everyone of us…

What has the world become? Why parents let their young ones, their beloved young ones use the internet so freely? The internet can be so much harmful than the real world. Your children can survive on watching tv alone (even that is bad nowadays.. with all the 'softcore pornography' and the rude language..and the 'World On War' thingy)…let them watch the tv…encourage them to play outside (accompany them to avoid kidnapping…no time? Hire a nanny…that's the least you can do…no money? Then you should've think about that before you had child…shouldn't you?!)

 

…and I haven't even started on children using Friendster! MySpace! And even HANDPHONE! Why on earth does a 10 years old need a handphone?!....i didn't have mine till I finish my SPM! SPM ehhhhh…….adohhhhhhhhhhhhhh

 

p/s: yup…my brother has his hp when he was young…isk….thats my mistake…my mistake…I admit…but at least we were watching what he's doing on the cyberspace…part of me is relieved that he is getting older…but he is still my baby brother… ;)

insanely happy

....insanely happy...

...INSANELY happy...

...insanely HAPPY....

...INSANELY HAPPY...

...these words keeps on playing on my mind again and again lately...i didnt know why....
...by the way its from the movie He's not that Into You....its Drew Barrymore line...i love her....and i just want to be.....

INSANELY HAPPY.....is that possible? :p

Rintik rintik hujan

It has been drizzling all evening…and all night…my bedroom windows being left open..letting the cold breeze entering the room. Guess its not summer yet …since there is no rain during summer. Hot all day and all night.

Today's new experiment…Ouchterlony assay. Again, I learn from my most helpful labmate, Isaji…so helpful and so great with the lab work. Just like me, he is still master year one…but apparently he has so much more experience that me…

Listening to Ketika Cinta Bertasbih by Melly Goeslow…great song…a bit like Ayat ayat cinta by Rossa…and it reminds me of something sad…but its over now…so why talk about it…right? :)

Baskin Robbin ends their 'Challenge the Triple' promotion last month…just before the summer started. Guess that's their strategy since summer promise more customer….watever…I want their ice-cream right now….hmmm….

So many things that I want right now…small simple things that would brighten up my day…but like what my sayang said, things I want is usually the things that is so hard to get…like right now, I badly want M&M…the classic one..no nuts…no crackers…just plain chocolate M&M…..

urghhhhhh

The Thousandth Man

One man in a thousand, Solomon says,
Will stick more close than a brother.
And it’s worth while seeking him half your days
If you find him before the other.
Nine hundred and ninety-nine depend
On what the world sees in you,
But the Thousandth Man will stand your friend
With the whole round world agin you.

‘Tis neither promise nor prayer nor show
Will settle the finding for ‘ee
Nine hundred and ninety-nine of ‘em go
By your looks, or your acts, or your glory.
But if he finds you and you find him,
The rest of the world don’t matter,
For the Thousandth Man will sink or swim
With you in any water

You can use his purse with no more talk
Then he uses yours for his spendings,
And laugh and meet in your daily walk
As though there had been no lendings.
Nine hundred and ninety-nine of ‘em call
For silver and gold in their dealings,
But the Thousandth Man he’s worth ‘em all,
Because you can show him your feelings.

His wrong’s your wrong, and his right’s your right,
In season or out of season.
Stand up and back it in all men’s sight –
With that for your only reason!
Nine hundred and ninety-nine can’t bide
The shame or mocking or laughter,
But the Thousandth Man will stand by your side
To the gallows-foot- and after!

Rudyard Kipling (1865-1936)

...just me...

Adjectives describing me:

spontaneous,
enthusiastic,
idealistic,
extroverted,
theoretical,
emotional,
relaxed,
friendly,
optimistic,
charming,
helpful,
independent,
individualistic,
creative,
dynamic,
lively,
humorous,
full of zest for life,
imaginative,
changeable,
adaptable,
loyal,
sensitive,
inspiring,
sociable,
communicative,
erratic,
curious,
open,
vulnerable

...jangan begitu,,,

...bila kita cuma dgr cerita dr sebelah pihak...dan terus menghakimi situasi....itu tidak adil...

…Someone said…

Whenever we fight... I would get out of the room and less than 5 minutes later I would go back and hug her so hard and say I'm sorry...I don't care who's fault is it … I mean I have to stop the fight and makes things better... that's my responsibility as the man.

it's his responsibility to do one important thing to protect u....including protect your feelings

People say time solves problems... but time also hurts.

_anonymous_

*My Saturday* (….my long due post…)

 

Bangun pagi…on laptop…bukak tingkap….kemas katil

Comment: panas hari tok…bukak tingkap pagi2 pun sekda angin sejuk masuk.

Pasya meng-fesbuk all morning……right now tgh gila ngan Sorority Life…haha…best gila….we have to organize our own sorority house…and attack other girls to get cash (other than organizing event)…lol…if only its true…

Comment: this addiction to fb games is taking too much of my time…but since I don't have anything better to do….sekpala nak… ;)

Cuci baju….washing machine luar rumah..being someone bertudung, I was so cautious whenever I step out the house sik bertudung…takut terserempak ngan neighbor bah…huhu….masa ambik baju yg dah siap d basuh….tiba2 terdengar bunyi org rumah sbelah bukak pintu…melompat masuk rmh sendiri..hehe…

Then….had a Hot Hot conversation with my sayang….me….sentiasa dahagakan perhatian…ya la jadinya… malas nak komen lebih2….

Tghari…perut mula berbunyi…tapi belum mandi…apatah lagi nak masak…….tapi disebabkan Hot hot conversation tadi….rasa lapar tidak begitu terasa….so ahernya mandi…..pasya sbab Hot Hot conversation juak….rasa nak gurin2 jak sambil baca buku….

So menjelang lepas tengahari, baca2 buku d atas katil..sambil menikmati angin sepoi2 bahasa dr kipas pemberian junior sayangku…. sangat berjasa kipas itu.

Entah bila dan bagaimana…..baca buku sampai menutup mata..hehe..sedar2 dah pukul 4….

Cek hp…ada msg dari teman yg ajak klua…janji pukul 4 jumpa kat Shinjuku…sedangkan jam dah pukul 4…tp diri masih d rumah….dengan pantas menghantar msg menanyakan 'kitak masih mok kmk datang kah?' …ekceli I did sent a msg to him saying I am not coming……but ntah knak..diri asyik 'bergelumang' dengan manusia yg agak persistent lately….so ahernya saya pergi….

Berjalan ke train station ambik masa lebih kurang 15-20mins…all the way I was sweating…urghhh…dlm hati pun berkata…'nasib bait sik makei make-up…mun sik nak ka cair make-up…aiya'….seriously…it was hot yesterday….the heat…urghh….rasa mok terjun dalam sungei jak eh….and yet sidak madah mid of august will be so much hotter with the temp around 30-40⁰ C…and with the high humidity…you will be sweating like a pig…isk…that's the saying okay…wp dlm hati mengeluh-kesah panas…tapi muka menten kiut..haha….

Sampei d train station…..reload kad…kmk pakei 'pasmo' d sitok…being a foreigners, kmk gna la machine yg ada guidance English..yg 'bestnya' bila kita pilih English…nya akan ada narrator…and suara narrator ya amatla kuat…sampey mamat jepun sbelah pun noleh..hehe….'sori bang, saya foreigner… :p'

Pasya train pun datang….jelas dan nyata d train ya padah Express Sagami-Ono…Sagami-Ono tok berada d tengah2 my place(Tokaidaigakumae) dan tempat d tuju (Shinjuku)…so mun nait nok tok…sik la sampey ke Shinjuku nak? Sampey Sagami Ono jak….p sbab malas tunggu…nait jakla….pasya bila sampey Sagami Ono terpaksa turun n naik the other train yg sampai Shinjuku……jam dah menunjukkan pukul 5.30…..huhu…..tringat teman yg tgh tunggu dr jam 4…gila la...sian eh…huhu….

Ahernya…sampai d Shinjuku jam 6.15 (lebih kurang la)…station paling ramei orang…and smua org rushing to their destination…seriously…nang rushing…mun nak jalan berlenggang d sia komfem dlanggar org lain…(ya metafora ok….Japanese sangat menghormati others pun 'space')…..

First thing…call teman….dgn muka tenang n control hensem…..nya datang…hehe….kontrol hensem…aiyaaa…g makan kat First Kitchen…upon his suggestion…kmk order Ebi burger n fries perisa butter….nyum nyum…owh…ebi is udang..hehe……burger udang..nyamannnnn……. (info tambahan …MacD sitok pun ada burger udang..nang nyam2!)

Pasya he show me around…the Shinjuku sky scrappers…..kacak…nang best…ala2 dlm tv…heh heh….

Pasya naik train….g Ueno….kmk ska nama tempat tok U-We-No…camya sebutnya…ejaan UENO…hehe…..on the way g tmpt karaoke..he shows me panggung wayang yg show Adult Movie…seriously…there are such things here..hehe…according to him, that panggung wayang cuma tunjuk adult movie….so tgk adult movie beramai2….buat yg innocent….adult movie lebih kurang cam porn kot..hehe…kmk pun kurang pasti sbnrnya… :p

Pasya jumpa teman2 lain..and g karaoke….for the very first time in my life….yup..hehe….enjoyed it very much…. ;)

Ya ajak la tek…lamak sik mengarut panjang lebar camtok…gamba2 lamak dah sik d ambik….huhu….kelak mu nada kmk upload…..d FB okay… ;)