It all
started with a back pain. Usually I won’t even realized that I’ve been sitting
down for few hours straight but that week, I can’t even sit still for more than
half an hour.
But I just
brush it off. Telling myself to take more calcium!
Then I get
extra sensitive to smells. I especially hated the citrus/lemon/orangey smell. I
truly did. At first I thought someone was wearing an extra strong perfume….a
lemon smell. Then I enter my car and I can still smell it! Even when I am in my
hubby’s car I can smell it! It’s like I can smell it everywhere and it is
driving me nuts. But even then, I just brush it off…I told myself that I am
just being dramatic.
Then I
become so lethargic. It was bulan puasa. So like others, I fast! By that time, I
am already suspecting that something is happening (hehe)…but being me…I told
myself to wait…just wait…give it a couple of days or weeks before taking the
test…..takut baaa…..but fasting was a real challenge for me. I would become so
tired like crazy tired by 10 am! I just told myself to eat better during
berbuka puasa and sahur. It helps a little but boy….never thought I could feel
that weak and tired. It is not so much as hungry or thirsty. I am just so tired
like I didn’t get any sleep or didn’t eat for days (seriously).
And boy oh
boy…the toilet breaks I need! It drives me crazy sometimes. I even scared
myself by asking, “did I get the urine infection or something?!” ..haha…I know….
:P
Then I went
to visit my hubby. I told him my suspicions and surprisingly, he told me to
wait as well. Haha. At that moment, I was disappointed with his decision but
obey him at the same time….well…sort of.
So I give it
3 days. 3 days and we didn’t even talk about it (I think! Haha)…then I start to
‘nag’ about it. I was getting anxious. I am late! I have the symptoms. I
contacted my close friend and she is supporting me to take the test asap. I was
so nervous. So again…brought the subject to Mr.Husband. Finally he agreed.
We were at
his parents’ house at that time. We went to Sunway Carnival Mall, because I told
him we can get the test-kit at Watson or (wow….whats the name of the other
famous pharmacy?)… anyway…we bought one, go home and I get myself tested. Ooohh….we
bought the digital ones! Hehe…..and helo helo….we get the results.
We were
estathic but still can’t believe it. So we went out again (telling his parents
we wanted to buy something for berbuka! Haha)…and we drove to the nearest
clinic…and it’s closed (it was World Heritage Day or something like that so
most of the shops are closed.). Went to KPJ and they told us the specialist is
only available on Monday. Went to another clinic, which is luckily open that
day but they didn’t have the service.
So I contacted
my sister, asked her how accurate is the test. She said it is accurate. But she
also asked us to get a more classic test-kit. Hehe. We went back to Sunway
Carnival, went back to the same Watson and bought 2 more. Go home, tested
myself and never stop bersyukur ever since.
It was a
blessing really. Though it is quite hard for us, cuz we are living apart… but I
have never been more grateful in my life.
Suddenly my
life changed….it was changed less than 3 months ago…and now, it has taken
another dramatic change… I am grateful..