A blessing in disguise

Last Saturday, something happened and makes me realized in a blink of an eye, I could’ve lost friends of mine.

Days after the incident, I find myself thinking about them more and more. I knew them about 2 years ago and although we were living on the different continent, we were still as close as we can be. I dare to say, I see them as my own siblings….that is how they treats me…macam adik beradik

Though the incident shocked us to the core (or at least me!) and more than once, tears were shed, I can still see this is a blessing. It is like a reminder for us. I appreciate them even more and I appreciate life and death even more…

There is a saying, “death silence paltry feelings”… I couldn’t agree more.

Death and tragedy reminds us of the important things in life. It put us back into perspective. Reminds us our living purpose and remind us how temporary everything is.

There is another saying, ‘ the greatest lost is when you sacrifice everything in present just to prepare for the future’… what is future without present? Sure, we need to prepare for the future, but does it means we need to stop living in the present, so we can live in the future? What if the future never come?

Another analogy is that, how a husband slaves day and night, ignoring his wife and kids so that they can have a better future. Little that he knows that, without present, there is no future. What is the point of missing the present part of your child life so that they can have a better life (i.e more money!) in the future?

Everything is about being balance…keep it balance…

Prepare for the future but also live in the moment…

smart-casual....

Huwau lamak gila x update blog. Sngaja ngeso gago/busy. Hehe….just kidding….truth is my workload is kicking my hmmm…..so all energy and effort dicurahkan ke kerja and berehat selepas keja….no more extra time for casual reading…..isk…..my reading are now about my class and such…and nope you guys don’t wanna hear about it.

Except maybe one…..recently yahoo published an article regarding the real case of Benjamin button…..somewhere in this world, there are two brothers whose mind/thinking is rapidly changing into childlike again…they are about 30 plus but act like 10. No…its not acting…its who they are now….i guess the worst part is that they have their lucid moment and it is in that moment they wonder how and why their life has changed so dramatically. ….well…this is relevant to my class cuz the condition is due to the degeneration of myelin sheath in their brain….if I am not mistaken, remember Japanese drama, One Liter Tears? The girl in that drama is also suffering the same condition….only their symptom are different.

Did you hear about genocide in Gaza? Who haven’t right?

Did you hear about how our brothers and sisters arguing about to boycott or not? Who haven’t right?

Actually there is this one post in FB, that casually explain why our beloved country is not under attack….i love the way the author explain why….according to him, it is because we, as Malaysian are already under attack…all the arguments and berpecah-belah and such…well…who needs outsider to destroy us?

Few nights ago, a friend was on duty because of the tunjuk perasaan sumwhere-sumwhere. It baffles me how or why this culture enter our peaceful country. I mean, you said it is to fight against corruption….hello….korang belajar budaya tunjuk perasaan dari Negara jiran kan? Macam mana keadaan Negara jiran sekarang?!

So you guys said it is a peaceful rally and it is the police that cause chaos. Let me tell you this, gather 10 angry emotional man in a room and place one cop there. Let them wait and do nothing and just boils their emotion and anger by the minute.....now I dare you to tell me that they wont be violent…….Tell me that! Ensure me that!

Now apply this to the so called Peaceful Rally! Memula memang la peaceful cuz everybody can still keep their emotion under control….over time?! Come on…pk sendiri la…..buat la slalu and you will see how it will slowly destroy our country…..i mean that is what you want right?

Yang peliknya, masa Gaza under attack, pehal mamat2 n minah2 tunjuk perasaan ni x g tunjuk perasaan? Tunjukla perasaan korang yang membara2 tu….. g klua ramai2 kumpul derma….hasil kutipan derma, salurkan ke Gaza…..kan korang suka nak berkumpul ramai2 and buat kecoh…so why not contribute your passion into something useful and more productive…

Eh….this is supposed to be my casual post….hehe…turns up I have anger and upset pent up inside… I love my peaceful country….i do realize it flaws but it sadden me when people cudnt care enough to keep it peaceful…changes is good….but please be more civilized…..hidup kita kat dunia ni pendek je bang…

Ok….with that I rest my case….

Hope and faith

Hope and faith

Loose one and you might lose your appetite for life

Last weekend was crazy fun…. It didn’t start well and I almost didn’t go….bak kata orang tua-tua, ekot rasa, binasa.

Anyway, I sucked it up and go anyway…and truly had fun. I push aside everything and I mean everything and just live for the moment.

Spend a night at my sister’s place. She has 3 kittens who is crazily adorable….you will just fall in love with them straight away. Instantly I realized how easy it is to fall in love with god’s creation, big or small.

Then we drove to our destination. Arriving at their place around 1 plus, ate some Sup Kambing. It was scrumptious! They say meat does not melt but this one is close to melting in your mouth. It is super tender and it is cleaned superbly thus all the deliciousness of a goat’s meat flavors the soup without that Kambing Smell! Embekkkkkk

Too bad it so late at night, and I was super conscious about eating that heavy at such hour….ended up only eating one small bowl…when the truth is I can easily consume 3 big bowls.. :P

So we stayed up till subuh..preparing things for the majlis…it was fun, tiring but fun…they went out and get some roti canai (YUP!) and I find myself having a piece of roti canai at 4 am! Haha…so much of my consciousness eh…

The majlis went well…we were all extremely sleepy, midway of the majlis, most of us escape to our dreamland for a brief second….then my sweethearts from the north came and they insist on me joining them to the island… I was torn between two places…I can easily leave and join them but it wouldn’t be that nice cuz I am there for the majlis and not for a holiday….but hehe…after getting the green light from the organizer, I went to the island with my sweethearts and boy I had so much fun, I am still smiling till this very second. What they say is true, the best things in life are free….minus the money paid for transportation n food and accommodation that is..  :P

Went snorkeling and swimming and jet skiing…hang out and talk about everything there is on the surface of the earth…ate IceCream Magnum at 1 am…share a cup of Maggi Mee…the closing was perfect…I was thrown off the jet-ski….for a brief second, I was nervous…but then I quickly resurface and keep myself floating while laughing my head off….it was hard to get back on the jet ski cuz I was laughing so hard….

One thing I realized is that, it doesn’t matter where you are going and what you are doing…not so much as it matters in who are you with…I’ve been friends with this great people for almost 2 years now and nothing can compare the kindness they have to offer. They don’t treat me like a princess. They treat me as a human…as their sibling and that is the best thing a friend can give to us….we fight n argue but ‘air di cincang takkan putus’…

Looking forward for our next get-together-session!!

Transition

Sad…

Is it?

It is sad but I think that is part of life

Throughout your life, you will meet hundred if not thousands of people.

Some stay, some left

Some stay and you love it

Some stay and you are uncomfortable with it

Some left and you feel it is ok

Some left and you miss them all the time

But hey, why mourn over something that is gone?

Don’t make enemy, but you don’t have to keep everyone

Ever heard of the story about a girl who has a hundred close friends but in the end she has no one?

Simply said, our resources are limited

Our time and money and energy is limited

It is like the friendship is liquefied when you have too many close friends

You need to manage the time so you can be fair to all of them and to yourself not forgetting your family

So yup….I don’t think it is possible

This bring us to our topic;

Keep that matters and let go of the rest

Don’t make enemy but you don’t need one hundred close friends

Sometimes things happen and you and your best friend drift apart

It is ok….forgive and let it go

If in the future our path crosses again, smile and perhaps the long coffee chat can happen…again….and again…. :)

So if one day you and I drift apart, just remember, I do not hate you, I forgive you and hope you can forgive me too…why I stay away? Because at that moment of time, I am not comfortable to be around you…should we try again in the future if our path crosses, maybe we should….maybe we should not….let time tell

Bajet Bagus

Was singing out loud to ‘Pocketful of sunshine’, by Natalie sumtin sumtin when a  thought crosses my mind.

Not so long ago I feel ‘offended’ when ‘friends’ especially married friends, somehow judge me for not being married (yet). They gave me a long boastful speech on how wonderful their life is, how perfect they feel when they have their babies, what an amazing support their husband is and bla bla bla… they talk like I am single by choice and it is me who refuse commitment and I want to stay single forever (and ever)…

I remember feeling hurt and wanting to tell them, please, don’t be too proud with what you have, it is all fate and life is not forever. In a blink of an eye, that could all go away (and in a blink of an eye as well, I could have it all, or even better)…

I was bitter inside and I hated that….

Anyway, what brings back this memory is that, I am now feeling on top of the world and when friends said they would very much want that feeling as well, I would start to say, ‘just believe in fate…Insya Allah’.

Wow….when I heard myself saying that, I get scared and even concerned.

I am scared that I will be like that in the future. Judging others and start to feel like I am better than them.

It is so hard to keep your feet on the ground when you are bouncing up n down giddily…

It is so hard not to seem like to be above everyone else when you are floating so happily….

Ohhh..smoga kita semua terpelihara dari celaan manusia dan paling utama celaan-Nya…..