I did something really drastic today. It has been lingering in my mind for weeks, but didn't really think about it thoroughly because I know he wouldn't like it. But today, I just went out of my mind and decide I need to do this, to prevent further damage to myself.
Initially I'm happy with my decision. I like it and I'm happy I can do something for myself. Sadly, later today, when I told him, he didn't like it and I feel so remorseful. So upsettingly remorseful. Bear in mind that it's not permanent. It will grow back within time and it will be better next time.
…I don't know what to say. Kadang-kadang, kita kena pujuk hati sendiri…