Cikgu Fiela

Went to the bank today, to cash my cheque (erk…don't worry…its just a small sum of money..heh heh…)…when suddenly the guy at the counter said this to me, " cikgu kah?" I was so surprised but I just smile widely and nod.

All the time I'm at the counter, I keep on asking myself, is it that obvious? Is it written on my forehead that I'm a teacher? I don't mind people know me that I'm a teacher now, I just didn't like it when I am so predictable and read-able (heh heh…new word for the day).

Oh well… I am still asking myself, how do people know that I'm a teacher? This is not the first time. Isk…

Oh by the way, as I was walking away from the counter, the guy said, "makseh cikgu"….hahaha…. I do get that a lot lately. :P

...how much a heart can take?...

…remorseful…

I did something really drastic today. It has been lingering in my mind for weeks, but didn't really think about it thoroughly because I know he wouldn't like it. But today, I just went out of my mind and decide I need to do this, to prevent further damage to myself.

Initially I'm happy with my decision. I like it and I'm happy I can do something for myself. Sadly, later today, when I told him, he didn't like it and I feel so remorseful. So upsettingly remorseful. Bear in mind that it's not permanent. It will grow back within time and it will be better next time.

…I don't know what to say. Kadang-kadang, kita kena pujuk hati sendiri…

A child

There's a boy. He's in a good class. His appearance was presentable, neat n clean. He is not a genius, but he has potential. He was caught cheating on 3 of his exam papers (it could be more than 3 though). In the same week, he was caught smoking in the school compound. On last day of the same week, he was identified as one of the student that was in a big fight outside the school gate. What is wrong?

 

There's a girl, a hardworking girl. Always get good grades for her exams. Her mum is always 'behind' her. Her mum tells her that she must score A for all of her subjects. She MUST score A for all of her subject. Last day of exam, she was caught with notes in her pocket… Whose fault that was?

 

Between her/himself, parents and teachers who is to blame? It's not about pointing fingers, but it's about finding the root of the problem, and when doing so, we will realize that, there is someone to blame.

 

Once someone told me, 'anak tu, adalah apa yang di bentuk oleh ibubapa'.

 

However, once the child has all grown up and able to think for her/himself, should parents really take the blame?

 

What about teachers? A child spends more time with her/his teachers than with their parents. Don't the teachers have some influence in the child life?

 

…

…something…

Hak cipta terpelihara…d copy&paste dari mazafirzie…heh heh

"Lepas basuh pinggan, ikut Abah pergi masjid," kata Abah separuh memerintah.

Aku memandang kepada Emak. Emak angguk sahaja. Maksudnya emak mahu aku ikut Abah solat subuh ke masjid.

Jangan melawan.

Nampaknya, aku kena batalkan niat untuk sambung tarik gebar selepas
kenyang bersahur.

Aku bonceng di belakang. Kami tidak pakai helmet. Kopiah sahaja.

Ganjil. Dalam cahaya suram menjelang subuh, aku lihat kubah masjid
berada di tanah. Bukan di bumbung masjid. Ajaib.

Abah macam tidak nampak keganjilan itu. Aku cuit bahu dia dan tunjukkan
ke arah kubah yang berada di tanah. Mungkin kubah itu tengah sujud fikir aku.

"Kenapa?" tanya Abah.

"Lailatuqadar," kata aku dengan jari masih menunjuk kepada kubah.

"Kepala otak engkau. Berapa lama engkau tak ke masjid?"

Tidak pasal-pasal aku kena marah. Rosak pengalaman suci aku ini.

"Diorang tengah renovate masjid la. Bumbung masjid bocor.. pasal tu
kubah tu dorg angkat letak kat tanah..Bodoh," sambung Abah memaki lagi.

Kalau emak ada di sini tentu dia angguk sahaja. Terima sahajalah. Jangan melawan.

Kadang-kadang Abah lupa yang aku tidak duduk kampung lagi.

Aku cuma pulang untuk cuti raya.

…I live my life for you…

Y'know you're everything to me and I could never see
The two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you and no matter what you do
I promise you my heart
I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you
I dedicate my life to you, you know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you and there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together
I just can't live without you and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
I live my life for you