My ‘tank’ n i

There's a saying in Japanese that means; each and every one of us has our own size of 'tank'. Some of us has big 'tank'…some has small. Then some of us constantly refill our 'tank'…some just use it up and rarely refill it.

Well the 'tank' is actually referring to our self-esteem. Some of us has high self-esteem, some don't. Some constantly has high self-esteem…some don't…when they're up, they're up…when they're down, they're down…get the idea?

I told my close friend about this…know how she describe me and my tank? She said, I have a big tank…and it is easily leaked…but the good thing is, I can quickly repair the leaking and refill the tank….that is really sweet of her…thanks dear…

So…how about 'you and your tank'?

Apa khabar hati?

That's my favorite question lately…to myself…just like them moment when izzie trying to hear her own heartbeat from her stethoscope…the day she came back to seatle grace to pack her stuff for good….but change her mind instead… (hahaha…I am a grey's junkie okay… :p)

Siklah….i am not imagining myself as izzie steven after denny's death… though it feels like it sometimes…and once again my friend's word came to my mind…'I think u dah overdose of grey's anatomy lah'…hehe

I miss them…I miss George and Izzie…and I miss all 5 of them together….

Jadi apa khabar hati?

jom jiwang

cinta...apalah erti cinta?

cinta pada yg esa...cinta hakiki...

cinta pada ibubapa...cinta selamanya...

cinta pada adik beradik...cinta cubit cubit mesra...sedangkan lidah lagi tergigit kan?...tapi air dcincang takkan putus...inikan pula darah yang mengalir dlm diri...

cinta pada sahabat?....rindu sentiasa...terkadang berselisih faham...namun true friendship never serene...dan walau tiada ikatan darah....tapi itu tak menghalang cinta itu seperti kasih pada adik beradik kandung...

cinta pada kekasih...hmmm...ni yg complicated...rsnya 90% dr love song d dunia ini berkaitan dgn cinta pada kekasih...

hidup tak semestinya serumit ini...mengapa kah perlu memikirkan insan yang ternyata punyai kekuatan untuk menyakiti kita wp mereka mampu mengelak dari lakukan sedemikian...

ahhh...rindunya zaman kanak2... segalanya sangat mudah...

kerepak-cherry-blossom

..lamak dah sik update...

...2 3 minggu lepas sangat busy+kurang ada motivasi utk berblog...

...terlalu banyak personal stuff yg sik sepatutnya d share...

...dapat keinsafan skit lepas bc post dr someone...camtok ayatnya, 'Tapi dalam facebook, si pipi tembam ya tek macam emosional jak.'

hahaha...sesapa pun ayat d ambik kmk tok...pinjam lok ahh... :p

p nang benala...kengkadang ter-emo lebih2 dlm fb bhy juak.....lamak2 tok kmk pk sbb kmk pun fb pun security berlapis2 bah..ngeh ngeh.....kengkawan kmk ada pelbagai group...e.g ada sigek group 'org tua'...iboh pk jaik...sesapa dlm group tok, sidak sikkan dpt nangga post kmk yg berkaitan game..sbb kmk tauk sangatla annoying kengkadang post camya bg sesetengah org... ;)

p lepas bc post dr someone yg sangat dear ngn kmk tok...wp nya sik tuju directly kat sesapa...kmk ambik pengajaran lah owh....nang effective la lekak d-kerepak... hik hik

ok2....kelak update gik...kmk banyak ambik gamba sakura @ cherry blossom...xla makey slr...pakei hp jak... :p

lak share ngn ktk org kayh... ;)

MengAdu-Domba

 

Okey…kmk tauk nang tok kisah lamak…lamak marek…Cuma lastnite b4 tido, kmk berpikey2 pasal jenis2 perangei manusia yg dah kmk kenal since kmk start pandey berkawan kat muka bumi tok.

Uihhh…macam2 perangei dah kamek jumpa…hari tok kamek nak bercerita pasal sigek perangei tok…

Pernah sik dengar perkataan mengadu-domba? Means nya memburuk2 kan Miss A depan Miss B. Pasya nya memburuk2 kan pulak Miss B depan Miss A. dengan niat sidak duak tok berkelaie…or at least hate each other…

Well…dalam hidup kmk, ada manusia macam ya. Macam ney nya leh dapat idea nak memburuk2 kan org ya, kmk pun sik tauk.

Kmk tok, jenis dengar jak apa org madah. Ya kelemahan kamek, mun masa berloyar ya, kmk sik kdak org yg tinggi imannya, yang akan kata camtok once org lain start mengaibkan org lain, sidak akan kata,'janganlah kita memburuk2 kan org lain owh?'…instead kmk akan senyum n layan apa d cerita nya…sambil mengingatkan diri kamek, there's two side of everything…

Mungkin manusia tok sik tauk, yang kamek tok, sense of curiosity kamek sangatlah tinggi. Dan kmk seorang yang akan berik orang lain 'the benefit of a doubt'…so pendek kata, kamek akan dengar crita dari duak2 belah pihak…dan kamek akan try utk tengok sendiri situasi ya…sbab kadang2, ney la tauk 2 2 pihak pun pembulak tahap psycho-path…

Jadi pengajarannya k kita smua…either kita padah camya bila someone start meng-aibkan someone, or jangan trus cayak apa d crita orang….sematkan dalam diri, sapa kita nak menghukum orang lain? Layakkah diri kita tok? Sedangkan amal taubat kita gik lom tentu d terima..p ada hati nak jadi penghukum kat muka bumi tok….renung2 kan… ;)

p/s: O kitak…mun kitak nak bahagia, cermin lok diri…kadang2 kita sik sedar kesilapan diri and kawan2 kita sik sampey atie nak tegur wp sidak tauk keadaan sebenar. Sbb nak jadi kawan yang bait tek nak, alu sidak support jak smua yg kitak polah, walau jaik, walau bait. Tapi kitak kenak ingat, effect nya kelak, effect tindakan kitak ya kelak, cuma akan kenak kat kitak…and bukan kawan2 kitak yg supportive tek. Sbb ya la ada yang mengatakan, 'true friends tell you the truth…no matter how painful it is'…

Have You Found Your Soul Mate?

The Indications

So chances are, there is more than one person out there who fits the bill for you. All of them are less than perfect. But if there are no perfect partners, how can you know whether to stay or go? Here are 10 relationship markers to help you know if he or she is The One:

1. When you're together you feel like you've come home.

2. You feel like your partnership was meant to be, as if kissed by destiny.

3. In your communication with each other there is a rapid "knowing" of what each of you means.

4. You have a shared mission in life, perhaps a cause, a career, or the creation of a family life.

5. When you're together the world seems like a better place.

6. Your mood is elevated when you're together. It's not necessarily passion or excitement, although that's there too at times.

7. When you look at him/her you see a part of yourself that's been missing. Perhaps it's her assertiveness or his joy of adventure. But it's something that when added to your life, makes you feel more complete.

8. Being together makes you more hopeful about the future you are creating.

9. You can be more authentic and fully yourself around your partner.

10. Being together makes each of you work harder on overcoming bad habits and becoming more loving people.

Don't worry if you don't feel all 10 of these things when you're with your partner. That's where the imperfection comes in -- either in you or your partner. If you are experiencing six or more of these markers, chances are you are matched well. Over time you can work towards having all of these qualities. Couples who have lasting love find that their relationships get closer and better over time. And that process has been my privilege and good fortune to experience personally -- after a lot of hard work that continues to this day!


source: Dating 101: Have You Found Your Soul Mate?

p/s: i've found mine...but....hmmmm

Designated area for Smoking...

this was taken from my university website...it bothers me so much till i shared it here...yup... you can smoke inside the university area...

...honestly?...

i cant be sure if its good or bad....cuz why cant they simply make university as the non-smoking area?

but to be fair....i think they are being realistic...and nihonjin are so well discipline, that they will only smoke at the 'designated area for smoking'...so not only non-smokers can avoid being the second-hand smoker inside university (simply by avoiding this area)..but also it prevent cigarette butt being toss everywhere...any where...like at...hmmm....nuff said...

Merokok Merbahayakan Kesihatan..pesanan jabatan kesihatan malaysia......(sesuka hati kuuuu... :p)

Past Present & Future

Despite all the things that had happened to me lately, I gladly want to announce that for a split second today, I smile from the bottom of my broken heart and tell myself, life is good.

Amazing right?

Well…my life is good.

At 24 years old, I have a permanent job, means I have my own income.

I have my own income, which means I can pay my debts steadily, which is exactly what I am doing now.

I even have some extra to invest for my future.

I am doing my master and luckily being paid for that.

I'm studying in Japan, means not only I am staying at one of the most fun place and most craziest place to shop in the world, but I am also in a lab that is so complete with much needed facilities and unlimited resources…

I can cook and I am learning to bake… I am a good cook…well…at least I love my own cooking…haha

I am learning to knit and my mom and sister had teach me to do cross-stich…I can sew and I am pretty certain I can do anything such as that once I put my mind on it.

Hah…I can do anything as long as I can put my mind on it…

Oh people…life is good…when you feel so down…feel down but don't do something irreversible… then try as hard as you can to be ok again…

Life is good…it's just sometimes, or maybe it's just me, being typical human who mourns over one-unfortunate thing, and forgetting millions of fortunate things that happen to us in the same time…

Rambling….hmmm

_if you say my eyes are beautiful_

If you say my eyes are beautiful
It's because they're looking at you
And if you could only see yourself
You'd feel the same way too
You could say that I am a dreamer
Who's had a dream come true
If you say my eyes are beautiful
It's because they're looking at you

If you wonder why I'm smiling
It's because I'm happy with you
And the warm sensations touch my heart
And fill me through and through
I could hold you close forever
And never let you go
I f you say my eyes are beautiful
It's because I just love you so

Now, my heart is an open door
Won't you come inside for more
You five love so sweetly now
Take my love take me completely now
If you say my eyes are beautiful
It's because they're looking at you
And my eys are just the window
For my feelings to come through
And by far you are more beautiful
Than anything I ever knew
If you say my eyes are beautiful
If you say my eyes are beautiful
If you say my eyes my eyes are beautiful

It's because,

It's because, they're looking at you

_whitney houston & jermain jackson_

all love

When I push the sheets away from your face
And watch you sleep all day here
And when I push you away
And say you simply cannot stay here

And it's all love, all love
It's all love, my stupid love

When I say you take away
The most important parts of me with you
When I've had the greyest day
You add more grey, it's just your way
It's true

But it's all love, all love, ohh
It's all love, all love, ohh
It's all love, all love, ohh
It's all love, my stupid love

You can't be the one to kill the pain anymore
You let me in but then you slam my fingers in the door
I've had enough but I keep asking you to give me more

What I say
That is no way

It's all love, all love, ohh
It's all love, all love, ohh
It's all love, all love, ohh
It's all love, my stupid love

It's all love, all love
(It's all love, it's all love)
It's all love, all love
(It's all love, it's all love)
It's all love, all love
(It's all love, it's all love)
It's all love my stupid love