Your birthday means that you love the sun and the beach.

Your best colors are red and yellow.
You tend to have many friends and you are well-liked,
possible because of your outgoing and sunny personality.
You are a very positive and enthusiastic person.
Shopping is likely something you enjoy very much,
not just for yourself,but for other people as well.
You shine at parties and get-together,
and you are definitely an extrovert.

p/s: bena ka sik tok? hahaha

Sometimes & Always

Sometimes I woke up in the middle of the night….so many things on my mind….getting back to sleep is impossible…and before I know it, I'll find it even harder to breath…my mind refused to slow down, all the problem and unwanted situation came rushing back to me….the harder I tried to calm myself, the more impossible it seems…

Sometimes, when the room is so silent, and nobody is around, I find myself staring into the space, so many things on my mind…till I'm not able to figure out exactly what I'm trying to think about. But I love that moment. Through it, if I can have it a little longer, I'll be able to clear my head a little; I can feel as if the time stop and nothing move. No sound, no disturbance. I truly cherish such moment.

Always, I love the beach. I love watching the waves crashing the beach and the sound is something that can keep me hypnotize. Whenever I'm at the beach, my heart feels so serene, my mind lighter and my heart would smile. I can smile easily…but it's hard to make my heart smile.

( When I stayed in BNP for two months, I went to the beach every morning, before everyone else is up and just enjoy the 'loneliness' that the beach has to offer…)

Always, I feel happy whenever I see a baby smile. A baby's smile is the most pure smile you can ever get in this world. Their chuckle is even more blissful. When they smile or chuckle, their eyes twinkle and the happiness that they are spreading, is really infectious. You just have to open your heart to accept it.

Sometimes and always I'm really grateful with my life. I'm blessed with such a loving parents, sisters and brothers. When I fall, I can always be assured that there are hands that will help me to stand again. When I cry, I can always lean on one's shoulder and hang on till I'm strong again. Even when I'm hurting, one will always support me and remind me that I am much stronger and better than I ever realize I am.

Thank you for loving me for who I am.

…My Life…

My life….lately sekda apa gilak. Dah menganggur tok…apa ajakla crita. Duit sekda..teman sekda..ney la nak berjalan…isk isk…

 

Owh…riya balit kpg. Nenek sakit….bila dah berusia…camya la keadaannya…sik lamak sia..time ya masih keja..p yang pasti setelah sekian lamak sik balit kampong…sesekali balit rasa rindu alu ngan smua2 kazen mazen n auntie uncle smua. Entah bila family nak berkumpul semua2 agik. Maklumlah…bila dah beranak-pinak bercucu cicit…balit kampong pun kenak ada turn..huhu.

 

Hospital bintulu….compare to hospital umum swak kat kch tok…wp 2 2 hospital awam….hospital bintulu lebih bersih rasanya.…slalu terfikir…entah kenak hospital leh jadi sik bersih… mengarey-ngarey jak sampah..ya ajak dah cukup untuk org madah HUS sik bersih. Even sidak praktikal pun prefer hospital kat Sibu nun. Maka HUS dah berkali2 naik taraf…bangunan baru kin banyak…. Kengkadang terfikir juak..maybe sbab terlalu ramei org pergi sia…ya tempat ya agak kurang terjaga..mebi la nak

 

Di tambah gik ngan mentality majoriti rakyat Malaysia tok…tong sampah di kanan, plastic keropok di tikamnya ke kiri….pelik bah…apa la salahnya buang sampah ke dalam tong sampah? Ya benda basic nok kita belajar since skolah rendah gik eh. Slalu sik baca tok, "Jangan buang sampah merata-rata" tok sama maksudnya dengan, "Buang sampah ke dalam tong sampah"!.... lom gik nak bukak crita pasal recycle..hurmssss…..

 

Susah bah…cam org slalu madah first class facilities, third class mentality…eh..camya ka? Pa cam pelik jak bunyi nya owh..hehe….

 

Till then…have a nice day people!

 

Owh…pak lah pesan berjimat cermat! Dengar ya….berjimat cermat! ;)

 

Hari Terakhir

Hari Terakhir, kau katakan semua yang bukan bukan

Bukannya permainan, bicara tentang percintaan

Cubaan, rintangan, halangan yang ku hadapi

Tuk menebuskan dosa lalu pada dirimu, tapi

Ku pasrah, harapan tuk bersamamu terus musnah

Naluri lantas menjadi tidak tentu arah

Hatiku bergelora, bibirku tergamam pabila

Kau lafazkan kata kata yang menusuk jiwa

Diriku kini terasa sepi, yang pasti

Sudah kau nyatakan diriku kini

Tidak dihargai, air mukamu keras tabah

Ku diusir dari hidupmu, ku rebah

Tapi ku akur dengan takdir, uh jangan khuatir

Kerana hubungan kita sudah menemui hari terakhir.

 

Hari Terakhir, kita bersama

Musnah segala impian dibina

Hari Terakhir, cukuplah sudah

Lupakan saja, detik bersama.

hari terakhir...

 

Ku makin tabah tuk menempuh

Ku tidak lagi rebah takkan jatuh

Ke alam sengsara, ku upaya

Untuk menjadi insan yang berguna

Menemui Shazzy buat ku sedar

Dirimu dan diriku tiada yang benar

Tertulis dalam coretan hidupku

Tiadanya lagi engkau dan aku

 

"Hey joe bukan niatku untuk kebas kasihmu,

Dude believe me aku tak tahu pun she's with you,

dia telah memikat hatiku, gadis jelita penawar sepi jiwa ku,

fahamlah kalau ku tahu kau masih cintainya,

langsung ku tak pandang tentu ku ambil kira,

perasaan mu kawan, so listen we cool right?

janganlah ambil hati,kan ku jagakan hunny.

cuz she's the one for me."

 

Tiada maaf bagimu

Hancur sudah diari cinta kita..oohh

Akan ku tempuhi dengan kesabaran

dan ku kan lupakan, ukiran hidup,

di hari terakhir....

 

Itulah dia coretan hidupku

Hubungan tiga segi, aku, dia dan kamu

Namun semuanya sudah berlalu

Diriku dan Shazee sudah pun bertemu

Ku jabatkan tangan persahabatan

C'mon jo, jangan lupakan kawan dan

Janganlah renggangkan hubungan ini

Lets make new day, for u and me.

_JFK Hunny ft. Shazzy_

Girls talk…boys don’t.

Read my title again and again and keep it in your mind and refresh it again and again. It's a fact that you have to accept!

I read somewhere that when guy has problem or is stressed about something; he'll sit silently and think. Guys don't talk about their problem unless they really need help or just a piece of advice. Most of the time they will only seek advice from someone who is wiser than them, or someone they believe is better than them in handling such problem they are facing (that's wiser right? hmmm…..melewah)…

Guys don't go around and start sharing problems with the next person they met. Only girls do that.

Girls talk and talk and talk when they are so stressed up. They talk about the problem they are facing now, the one they faced yesterday and the one they might face tomorrow. That's true. Sometime, a really messed up girl can end up talking about 10 problems within ten minutes. Hah…that's a record, one minute for one problem. Haha.

Girls talk about their problem to feel better. The listener doesn't have to give her solution. Her listener just needs to give her undivided attention and sympathy. That's all she needs to feel better. Giving her solution, (unless she asked for it) will only make her more upset. All her listener has to do is listen intently, give her understanding nod, give her that sympathetic look, have that concern in their eyes. Body language is a crucial thing here.

Guys talk about their problem only to seek solution from his listener.

Complete opposite there. Just accept this difference it can help you a lot.

Just sharing! Mwah friends! :D

 

p/s: I read it in Woman from Venus, Man from Mars…..it helps me a lot…should help you too… ;)

Mood Swing swing Swingggg

People close to me knows what a moody person I am.

People not so close to me at heart, but close to me physically will see me as someone cheerful or just calm n friendly(erk?) well…I used to be friendly when suddenly I become bored being so warm and nice to every people I met and later on being back-stabbed by them. Hurms….

Am I a pretender? Hahaha….I just think it's unwise to be moody around people who don't even know your last name.

Guys love to say that girls' mood-swing is because of their imbalance hormones. Hahaha.

Guess what, saying such things to not-in-the-mood girl will only make things worse. Best thing to do is to stay by her side silently. But answer her calmly when she asked question. Don't bother to do anything sweet unless you are absolutely sure it will make her smile. Or you will end up making her sulking even more. It's hard to be girls, but it's even harder to be a guy when with a girl (especially someone you want 'impress') :P

When a girl is unbelievably moody, it doesn't necessarily means that it is that time of the month. Guys have their mood-swing as well (don't deny it guys!). Only that most guys know how to handle theirs better and decide to keep it inside them.

Kesimpulannya? Haha… I 'm just sharing how to handle a girl when she's so mean to you when she is usually sweet as sugar.

Have a nice day people! :D

Nothing Hurts Like Love

Broken hearts
Broken dreams
There just somethings that love brings
When you learn that its all been a lie
You cry
You find that

Nothing
Nothing
Nothing hurts like love
Nothing brings your heart so much pain
And you'll never learn
Till you get burned
Till your burned by the flame
Nothing hurts so bad
Nothing hurts so much
No nothing hurts like love

So you gave all you had
How the story turned so sad
Nothing left but the tears in your eyes
You die inside cuz

Nothing
Nothing
Nothing hurts like love
Nothing brings your heart so much pain
And you'll never learn
Till you get burned
Till your burned by the flame
Nothing hurts so bad
Nothing hurts so much
No nothing hurts like love

So dry your eyes
Its just your turn to learn
The time to find that nothing
Nothing

Nothing hurts like love
Nothing brings your heart so much pain
And you will never learn
Till you get burned
Till your burned by the flame
Nothing hurts so bad
Nothing hurts so much
No nothing hurts like love

_Daniel Bedingfield_

Trust

 

There are two things (apart from other bigger things) that keep on bothering my mind today. One is body-weight. And the other is trust.

 

Ironically, someone text me today and asked me how can I trust a guy. Literally, I am known as a girlfriend who trusts her boyfriend enough to let him went out with his girl-friends.

 

I didn't snoop around my boyfriend's email inbox or check his hand-phone for any suspicious text-message. If I heard any rumors, I ask him, after rationalize myself. ( Well, if the rumors is too big for me to handle and its from a reliable sources and true enough to be called 'news' or 'facts', I don't give myself a chance to rationalize. Huhu)

 

The thing is, when we love someone, and we decide to have a relationship with him, we should also consider this. Do we trust him? In my opinion, if we don't trust that guy (and refuse to trust him), but yet we decide to start a relationship with him, we might be creating pain for both of us. Its either we start to trust him as much as we love him, or just walk-away.

 

However, if we are destined to fall in love (and completely trust) with a complete liar, then we just have to accept our destiny. When the truth is out, make a wise decision. Either you stay and accept his lies, or walk-away for a better chance in life.

 

Till then….. 'Love honestly'…

 

p/s: I walked-away… :P

heh heh

Plain bored

I'm just plain bored. Woke up around 5.30 today…surf the internet…mostly fb and Friendster….getting reply msg from my friends always makes me smile and laugh. I guess that's why I am so addicted to facebook (and Friendster). It keeps me 'alive' since I rarely spend my time with my friends in this reality world.

 

Recently in the news there's a girl who has been 'dianiaya' (ahahaha…couldn't find the words in b.i)….anyway.. as far as I'm concern, the 'penganiaya' did that on Friendster. This warns me about the reality of our cyber world. When most of us are so excited to upload our pictures and personal detail to Facebook, Friendster, Tagged, Myspace and such, keep in mind that there are people who are sick enough to misuse all of this… especially our pictures and personal details.

 

Want some real life example? Hahaha…this happens to my sister few years back. Somebody create a Friendster account and use my sister photo. She claims that she is the girl in that picture. So pathetic. As furious as my sister as, I think she should be proud to know that there are people out there want to be just like her! Hahaha…just kidding….this is a serious matter… ( :P )

 

What ever it is, just be careful. Don't fall into any type of fraud so easily. Especially those who asked you to bank-in few thousand ringgit so you can win few thousand more. To me it's absurd! (Mintak jauh…..)

 

Hmmm….world peace! ;D

Cinta Yang Sempurna

Terbawa aku dalam rasa
Yang selama ini terlupa
Ooohhh Ooooh
Mungkinkah ini cinta…

Hatiku cuba
Tuk mencari
Kemana aku telah pergi
Ooohh Oooh
Mungkin ini semua mimpi

*
Hanya ilusi
Cinta yang menipu
Keindahan yang semu
Semua hanya palsu
Keindahan semu
Semua hanya palsu

**
Bawa aku….
Kepada MU
Keindahan yang tak semu
Peluk aku
Jangan pernah
Kau biarkan
Ku terlupa pada Mu

Kasih tempat mengadu
Takkan ada cinta yang bisa sempurna
Selain kepadaMu
Kepada MU

_6ixth Sense feat. Noe (Letto)_

Shrek & Fiona

Last night ….on the first night of 2009…for the very first time in my life…I dreamt I have a baby. It's a girl..chubby, fair with dark brown curly hair. I love her so much and whenever I remember that dream, I hunger for the warm feeling that I feel in that dream. Yup. I truly love that child and loving her gives me a warm cosy feeling like a blanket wrapping my life.

Heh…it's just a dream. Don't worry. I'm not in a desperate need of having a baby…yet… :P

I guess I get that dream because I watch Shrek III yesterday. The one when he has 3 babies in the end. Shrek's babies are so adorable. They are just so unbelievably adorable and irresistible. Hmmm.

I love the way Shrek look at Fiona (I know its all computer generated!)…but the way he looks at her….so warmly full with love. I remember once someone sees me that way. Such things can warm your heart and makes you feel so loved and you'll be smiling so happily ever after. (hehe…just love dat words…happily ever after).

Lets go to far far away people…away from this madness…