How insecure are you?

So how insecure are you?

True enough most of us can feel a little bit insecure at times. Like the time when sitting next to a colleague who wore bright pretty colourful shawl with painted face while you yourself wore a black tudung bawal with a pale pale face..haha( example? Cik Afie la..sapa lagik? :P)…but that’s it.. as time flies I forgot about the painted or not painted face and as I speak or as I work, I know I am not any less than any of those painted-face people. Heh heh…

no offence…none of my colleague wore too much make-up..its just enough to cheer up their appearance…I do wish I have more effort to do the same…but oh well..i m a skin-health fanatic…so nope… :(

Anyway…what I am trying to say is, it is ok to feel insecure at times. That is how you would improve yourself. Get above it and be better. That is self-critism and it’s ok.

What destructive is when you feel insecure; you tend to criticize that person and failed to criticized yourself as well. Just because he do things differently than the rest of us, doesn’t mean he is wrong and we are right….right? …think about it…what is so wrong of being different than the rest of the world?

When I was little, I was walking with my uncle, there are two path and most of us took the right one (I don’t really know why)…when I feel somebody tug my arm…it was my uncle and he said, “”why follow the crowds?”

I was about 10 at that time but it is something that carved into my mind till now…and to it I stay true. So what if sometimes we are different? So what if we refuse to use iphone and use htc instead (ha ha ha .. :P )

;)

Have a nice day and Selamat Menyambut Pesta Keamatan dan Gawai! ;)

Megaquake; hour that shook japan

A quote from one of the survivor,"the scariest part of being in an earthquake is being so hopeless. The earth decided to move n u just have to move with it."

Tringat i get upset when friends started sharing the tsunami video minutes after it happens.....come to think of it...i was upset cuz i was so scared...god knows how i feel at that time....

There r two types of quake...horizontal n vertical...the more scary one is vertical...the earth would move up n down..n up n down...i experienced it first hand few days after the megaquake...even if it did happened before,i wouldnt notice it cuz its quite small...but the one that happen days after d megaquake, there is no way anybody can missed it....

I was on skype with my mom n brother at that moment....luckily we were done talking n they r watching tv here in malaysia while i cont with my packing there...suddenly the earth shook....i remembered trying to reach for my mouse to disconnect the skype-call (dont want my mom to know its happening at that moment)...but the whole house was shaking like crazy i cant even reach the mouse! My hand was inch away from the mouse but yet i can reach it cuz my entire body was shaken up n down cuz of the quake...it was crazy!!

"Fear is only natural...but combatting the fear is the responsibility of performing my duty" a japan fireman...

3 aftershock after the megaquake measured at 7 on the richter scale....aftershock at 7!

First its the megaquake...then its the 12feet(?) Tsunami...then its the radiation-plant explosion...then its the aftershock...

The japanese are great....they respect others n their level of consideration is high...and even higher during disaster...they have their own saying of "bersatu teguh, bercerai roboh" n they stay true to it till the end....

Days after the megaquake, the only advertisement on tv was about being considerate, being together n being with family....there r only 3 advertisements they played again n again on tv...

God i miss japan...especially shinjuku n shibuya n my own little pink apartment that i live in alone for two years...if the wall can talk, they will tell you guys everything...all the ups n downs i had there...i hope for nothing more than being alone that two years prepare me even more in facing this world.

More than anything else, i miss my friends there...friends whom tried the best they can to console me whenever they can. I was the youngest among them n i know i took a great advantage of that by being the most spoilt one as well (haha)...but my friends there are amazing. I dont have a lot of friends but the one that i have are amazing...truly amazing....n i love them dearly...

n right now i m missing them...all the jonathan's n starbucks' n ginza's n tully's n all the place we can hang out n eat n have coffee n then karaoke or walk endlessly...window shopping...or shopping....or just sit n talk n talk n talk....

so often i would order my caramel steamer at starbuck (which is not available here...muchhhh to my dismay)...and just sit there alone n watch as the world goes by...my mind would race against time...trying to analyse my life as quickly as possible n trying to make the most out of it...my fav starbuck is the one at south terracce shinjuku...the one towards takashimaya....should u have the chance to go to shinjuku, just go to the south terrace (just outside the train station...through south exit, if i m not mistaken)....

and another fav of mine is the one at shibuya. If u go through the hachiko exit, u cant miss it...its located just nicely next to the great crossing of shibuya n u can sit on the 2nd floor n just watch hundreds of people cross the road every minute! U can see all sort of people there....all sort of people...tourist n locals all adding colours to the area...

Another one is the one also in shinjuku..but this one is tully's cafe....a friend of mine show this place to me n i love it cuz we had a some great time there together... ;) this one is located inside a shopping mall....i cant remember what but if u go through the kabukicho(?) exit, turn right then walk towards the yodobashi camera...the shopping mall i meant is located accross the street from yodobashi camera....on the meiji-guro avenue...

Almost every saturday or sunday i would take the train to shinjuku from tokaidaigakumae...the ride is about one hour, 680yen(?) on the odakyu line....sometimes i would stop at yoyogi-uehara to take the chiyoda-line...this one is the subway n its a lot more cheaper! I think chiyoda-line is under tokyo metro...dats y its cheaper....along the way we would pass the famous harajuku, the glorious omote-sando, the formal kaisumigaseki n so on... ;)

Miss japan....

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Plain jane

So mix fm morning show discuss about this earlier today...

A girl call the radio station to share her dilema...she is a plain jane n has been ok with it till lately people start to tell her how tired/uninteresting she look...plus her friends wear a lot of makeup(according to her) n sometimes they put on pressure on her to do the same...

Being me, i know what advice i wud giv her should i have the chance. I realized some of us arent blessed with flawless skin. Some have oily skin n watsoever....

But one thing for sure is all of us can do something to improve our skin....our complexion....

Instead of investing in makeup, why not discover the best facial product for urself?

Instead of window shopping, why dont u take a jog around a block or two in ur neighbourhood? Exercising can actually gives u a better complexion....ur skin would radiate from all the good health...

Do u know by wearing makeup daily, u r actually painting ur face with harmful chemicals? N by doing so u r damaging ur skin hence in the long run, u wont leave the house with a plain face...cuz by then ur face would be pale n tired n.....just google 'celebrity without makeup'....look for artist like phoebe from friends or gaby from desperate housewives or madonna or such...n u will get the idea....their face are the perfect example of 'too much makeup before hence i cant live without it!'...

Wearing makeup is fun...but save it for special occasion k?....

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i love clouds!

I dont know why but i truly have cloud-fetish! Pretty clouds makes me feel all happy and motivated....(till i reach the office and realized how banyakkkk my work is..huhu)

one thing i've slowly admit is, i dont think i will be able to find someone new if i didnt take a better care of myself. Especially in body-weight area! The older i get, the more i realized that love is not the only thing that matter. Most realistic guys want a healthy woman to be their lifetime partner. Obesity=unhealthy. Enough said!'

But the one thing that comforts my 'unhealty heart cuz its covered in fats' is, someone keep on saying this to me, ýang luaran tu boleh di ubah. yang penting dalaman. yang dalam kalau buruk, buruklah...susah nak ubah.' Meaning we can be slim or fat, it doesnt really matter. What truly matter is our soul...

but i wanna be healthy for myself and insya allah for my future family! i wanna have kids and raise them healthily...i hope i will be blessed with a healthy husband and care enough for my well being as well!

I am 25 and someone else told me that my body is actually screaming for me to get marry! Screaming for me to find someone so i can settle down and start a family with. Honestly, i do feel that way sometimes...i just want someone to come home to after a hard-day at work. But i am definitely not going to settle with just anyone! Its for a lifetime...not a day or two.

Some of my friends are having their 1st or 2nd child. Perfect timing! by the age of 50, their child would be 25..just starting working hence insya Allah can help them to take care of themselves by then.

as for me...should i get marry in 5-6 years time, my 1st child would probably still studying by the time i am 50...shedih..haha

but i've learned my lesson...in life we can plan and decide and act...but the end result still rely on Yang Maha Esa...all we can do is berusaha and tawakal...

;)

here is a quote that i truly love lately;

"Anyone can become angry - that is easy. But to be angry with the right person, to the right degree, at the right time, for the right purpose, & in the right way - this is not easy. " aristotle

have a great day people....lets spread the love around! ;)

been busy

between work n home...i didnt have time for blogging...

finally i understand how easy it is to get lost in your work n have no time for your leisure activity...

whenever you start to work overtime or bring ur work home. stop n think do u really have to do it? u do have life besides that work after all right? its ok to do it sometimes but dont make it a habit!

as for me, i still have big project at home thus for months after this, my weekend will be packed with little chance to laze around all day...

but i am loving it....

you guys should do the same...

bored is no longer in my vocab...

:p

btw...garnier (d yellow one) has messed up my skin...n i heard that a friend of mine is having similar side effect also from using garnier...i m crazy upset but not totally at garnier...obviously i am the minority that have 'allergy' with d product. so friends, if u hav just started using garnier or thinking of using it, b careful aite...

lastly, have a great weekend! ;)