dear diary

...dear diary....haha..kmk kurang ska crita yg start ayatnya dgn...Dear Diary..... cthnya Vampire Diary?

anyway

...kmk tulis diary dolok ada sbabnya....sbab kmk leh kata apa jak dlm ya...and sekda org akan judge kmk or marah kmk....so lepas i let it all out, kmk akan lebih tenang....pasya bila dah tenang, kmk akan bc blt apa yg kmk tulis and kmk akan blaja something about life dr sia...sangat rational kan sbnarnya tulis diary.....tapi dgn satu syarat...sekda org lain bc diary kitak org ya..selagi hayat d kandung badan...dan kitak org pun, jgn la bc diary org...dah nama diary..benda ya terlalu personal.....

dear diary...till we meet again... :p

Sacrifice...

....there's no such thing as sacrifice right?...
...its just a decision you make...a decision that you make while believing you are doing it for someone else that you care so much....but really....its not a sacrifice...its just a decision...a decision to push aside what you want cuz u believe its for someone else....its just what you BELIEVE...you only..its only in your mind...you...YOU ONLY.....YOURSELF!
things are what they are the way you believe they are...
and right now this is what i believe...

...lifeless...

...woke up wish that i was dead...from the aching in my head...lay motionless in bed...

huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa...tiba2 lagu ya masuk otak....sikdala kmk wish i was dead...its just a song okay... :p

kepak kmk aie...p sekpat tdo...sriusly....dah berpusing-pusing atas katil ya for few hours...sik juak terlena...obviously ada benda dlm otak nak? huhuhu....

chat ngn member sorang tek....nya dpt offer sambung blaja g oversea...one of the top university....p nya pun request nak cuti knak reject oleh boss nya....ya la kelemahan kerja under orang...aduhhhh...gne tok? kmk kelak keja under org juak.....kin lemah rasa diri nak join dunia ya...


...iskhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.........

...words...

...no pain, no glory...

...no hardwork, no reward...

ya kata urang.... ;)

Cuaca Dah Sejokkk Balitttt

...setelah beberapa bulan summer...ahernya sitok sejok balit..ahhh..sukanya beta...

ekceli summer tahun tok kat sitok sikla sepanas ney...sik kedak mcm yg dgembar-gemburkan senpai2...sbab summer b4 tok, suhu leh mencecah 40 deg C n humidity 80%.....bayangkan...sangat panas dan sangat lembab..eh lembap... :p...anyway....

summer kali tok agak rendah suhunya sbab typhoon kot..mala hujan...mala ribut.....kmk suka ajak sejok2 tok....

tapi sigek la...on my way home from lab tdk..dah petang, so maknanya semakin sejuk..suhu hr tok sekitar 20-22 deg C....tapi tiba2 kamek rasakan angin ya cukup sejuk untuk molah bernafas jadi sik best...huhu..ya jak la kmk sik suka masa sejuk...udara terlalu sejuk sampey kitak org bernafas pun jadi sik selesa...dan dan dan...masa sejuk maknanya humidity rendah...makin la sik brapa best ngn kulit jd kering...n bibir pun kering....hurmmmm

p walauapapun kmk ska sejuk..sbab kmk sik perlu berpayung...sik la sun-burn gik!

muahahahahaha

bumbling bumble bee

....camtok kisahnya...kmk dah nunggu benda tok selama 4 bulan..selama 4 bulan..prosesnya sangat slow....slowly and painfully....

..org madah, kmk knak sentiasa call..sentiasa email sidak..brk benda ya settle..memula kmk sik polah camya..sbab as a respect la tek..ngenang kmk org br bah...so sidak lebih veteran dr kmk dlm hal tok..and mestilah sidak lebih tauk pa k polah...sapa lah kmk nak kata lebih lebih....(sik..bukan sarkastik...nang honestly kmk rasa camya....)..kmk kira masih baby gik dlm dunia kerjaya tok...

so kamek pun ekot phase sidak...phase romantik org kata...

...kmk ngaku..kmk molah keja romantik juak...p sik seromantik tok....

tersangat romantik sampey one part kmk nangis...sbab tersangat romantik benda tok d proses.... (iboh lupak, romantik=slow)...lepas kmk call nya hari2..email nya hari2..benda ya masih juak dproses dengan tersangat amat romantik...so one day kmk break down n nangis...srius...tensen!

bayangkan...... nya ibarat camtok
...kamek call, brk sidak polah 1st step....
..kmk email, sidak padah sidak akan polah 2nd step pastok....
...kmk email/call, brk step 3 d ambik...
..dan seterusnya....
...get the picture?...

yg polah kmk manas...nya madah step 4 akan dpolah next week, second day of the week...and kmk akan d contact on that very same day.

so on that exact day, kmk cek inbox kmk berkali2 sepagi and sepetang2...sekda! so kmk email la nya...sipi2 masa nak abiz opiz hour....pasya brklah kmk dpt 'email' yg dinantik nantik dr pagi.... isk.....sedih beta...

seriously, kmk sik tauk camney nak speed up proses tok, without sounding mcm sik respect sidak.... and...molah sidak rasa kmk sik respect sidak is the very thing yg kmk sik mok polah.....sbab pastok kmk banyak gik akan berurusan ngan sidak bah....

kamek sik nafikan...sidak polah apa yg sidak mampu....tapi alangkah menyenangkan semua pihak mun benda tok sik d polah dengan terlalu romantik?

.....my my my....

Puasa&Asakusa&Embassy&Merdeka&MerekaYgJahil

Macam macam nak d kata…but nothing I can share with the public…huhu….ooooo….

Ada ada

Last weekend…kmk g 2 majlis sungkey….first one kat masjid Asakusa..seriously, I love the name….cuz Masjid=Mosque…tempat muslim beribadat…and asakusa…well somehow asakusa reminds me of Japanese anime like naruto and such….and combining these two words together….macam hitam n putih….hmm…mumbling

Anyway..it was fun…organized by the Malaysian student so I get the chance to meet more Malaysian student studying here. Most of them are younger than me..and I feel old..isk.. :p

The food..we have Roti Naan and Kari Kambing…I know! Organized by Malaysian, held in Japan but Indian Food? Hehe..well….its because the mosque was sort of like taken care by the Pakistani who lives around there ( I Know Again! They are everywhere!)….so we end up eating their food…and we had the chance to solat terawikh berimamkan the Pakistan…there are also few Indonesian women who prayed with us. One of them chat with me and I am truly sorry that I failed to understand her words…most of the time she has to repeat herself either in English or Japanese..hehe….

Ohh…there are also Nihonjin lady that are Muslim…I heard that its quite common for Nihonjin girl to memeluk agama Islam…especially due to marriage.. : ) they look so cute wearing tudung..

Then the next day, we crash majlis berbuka puasa held by Malaysian who work at the Embassy. My my…they live quite wealthily here. There's this big pretty apartment-bulding just for them. Nice!

This time, instead of only meeting young Malaysian student, we get the chance to meet Malaysian family…with their young kids who fluently speaks Japanese…or English! Seriously…these are the kids who grew up di luar negara. I envy their ability to speak foreign language…but other than that, I think they are missing something by growing up here…after all Hujan Emas di Negeri orang, Hujan Batu di negeri Sendiri, lebih baik negeri sendiri…. ;)

Slamat Hari merdeka People….heard about the 'kepala lembu' incident….seriously?! Those people are indescribable….apa ka reti molah camya? Xkisahla kepala lembu ka..kepala babi skalipun…sampai hati pijak makhluk tuhan sampey camya sekali..kejam bah…skali pun its dead!

Sad….

…are we going back to the jahiliyah-time?

 

...selipar emas...

...apa ukuran seseorang itu berjaya?...

...kekayaan semata-mata?...

...sekiranya seseorang itu tidak menjadi lebih kaya dari keluarganya...adakah itu diukur sebagai tidak berjaya?.....

seriously.....why does everything has to be about money?