Decided…

In my life, in the past, whenever I'm about to make big decisions, I always turn to the person I trust and love the most. Whenever they seem disapprove of the decision that I'm about to make, I will change my mind instead. I believe they know better for me and for that, I trust their judgments and believe them till I let them to decide for me.

But for the past few years, I've come to realization that they too don't have all the answer to my questions. They too don't absolutely sure of what is the best for me. There are times when I think back and figure out that my decision was better than theirs but since I chose to listen to them instead, there's no need to regret. I've come to my realization that, only god is perfect and my love ones are only humans. It's ok to listen to myself once in a while and it's ok to politely say no to them once in a while. It's ok for them to be upset for a while if I don't follow their decision, because if they really love me, they won't judge me based on my decision.

I am a person who believes that the best lesson learnt is the one we learn from making mistake or at least the one we can learn from others. I also believe that in life, we need to take risk because if we don't, then it is harder for us to succeed.

I've relied so much on others and it influences my decision making. It's time for me to wake up and decide for myself. Others can advice and I will take their advice with open heart and mind. By saying no to them doesn't mean I've stop loving them, but it means I want to make the best and the best for me is the best for them as well. I do pray that they trust me and if I do make mistake then I do hope they will forgive me and accept it as part of my learning process.

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My World ( Mari-mari membuang masa 2)

I’m just bored…plain bored in this warm room not knowing what to do…

(I know I have to study…but….hurm..i have no other excuse other than I’m not mentally ready to do any revision…sowiee)

Recently Friendster has been ‘ambush’ with this virus that keeps on sending un-civilised video and message to all of Friendster’s user. Pity Friendster administrator having to deal with this. As for me its simple…just switch to facebook for a while..since there is nothing we can do..unless you’re a computer genius..then you can help them to fix this problem….hurm…

Then recently I went to this recycling centre to sell few kg of old unused documents…it weigh about 62kg but worth only rm3…hahaha…I guess this is why most people just couldn’t care more about recycling…they feel like its not worth their time…oh well…its not really your fault that the world is getting warmer, the climate is changing drastically and surely its not your fault that we’re running out of our natural resources right?....if you say yes….you deserved to be kidnapped by the alien…end of story.

Snatch thieves…thieves…and all kind of thieves…just one thing I want to say… only god can judge you…. : (

That’s all so far…hurmmmmmm

mari mari kita buang masa

Isu 1: Sik boleh berkempen gna blog.....

......heh heh heh...nampaknya isu blog d malaysia semakin complicated...but again...please define wats the meaning of 'berkempen melalui blog'......not dat i have anything to do with it…(erk)...just wondering...just to increase my blogging-knowledge... :P

Isu 2: Bukit Antarabangsa dah runtuh...agak2 nya riverview d kota samarahan akan mengalami nasib yg sama sik?

.....mungkin la sik runtuh…Cuma nya akan mengalami masalah banjir yg maha hebat or maybe akan mengalami hakisan….cuz the housing area is exactly by the river…green green grass by the river? Owh tidak….yang peliknya…if I’m not mistaken…area by the river is legally prohibited (excuse my language) for any type of development…bukan jak nak jaga alam sekitar…but also for safety reason…tetapi…hurmmmm….

Isu 3:….. to be continue later…

Step one you say, "we need to talk"
He walks.
You say, "sit down it's just a talk"
He smiles politely back at you
You stare politely right on through
Some sort of window to your right
As he goes left and you stay right
Between the lines of fear and blame
You begin to wonder why you came...

_how to safe a life_the fray_

Baby, baby
When we first met
I never felt something so strong
You were like my lover
And my best friend
All wrapped into one
With a ribbon on it

_rehab_rihanna_

I can see us holding hands
Walking on the beach, our toes in the sand
I can see us on the countryside
Sitting on the grass, laying side by side

_my love_justin timberlake_

2008

1. Complete my thesis report.
   
2. Enter the working arena.
   
3. Graduate.
   
4. Membentuk Ikatan.
   

   
    

   Pa gik? Haha….tahun yg sangat complicated…dari awal tahun…sampey la hujung tahun….
   

   …bernafas dalam lumpur?
   

   Kadang2 rasa kedak ya…
   

   ….jap…dapat ka bernafas dalam lumpur?
   

   Hahaha….
   

   Ada yang best….ada yang sik best….
   

   Yang terlintas d fikiran nektok….how I cried when he left….
   

   Yang best? Being with him in the car..
   

   Adoi….jadi minah bunga dah… :P (Ya description oleh sorang sasterawan negara!)
   

   Bila fikir2 balit…terasa how much I've grown up…how much my mind has mature…..p lom cukup mature… :P
   

   P honestly la…..terasa perbezaan nya…..rasa cam bila memula masuk unimas dolok..cam masih mudak gilak….muda remaja….tok masih remaja…p sik la semuda ya agik… ;)
   

   Zaman persekolahan dah lamak d tinggalkan…rindu gilak ngan kengkawan smua….
   

   Bila dah keja tok….ramey dah berumahtangga….sekdala gago ngan bergeng-geng agik…huhu
   

   
    

   Hmmmm…………
   

   Sekadar coretan…menghilang ketegangan d dalam hati…

Simple Mind ?

Here's the case. Kmk org d beri keja oleh bos kmk org la. It requires our creativity. Masalahnya…hasil kerja kamek sangat simple n straightforward…sbab bila kmk decore nya, kmk akan decore nya simple2 jak. Bukan malas ka apa (cewah… :P) Cuma kmk rasa nya kacak kedak ya..sik jadi crowded …masalahnya..sidak lain suka nya kedak crowded…tang penuh jak…. Camney tok? Simple gilak kah minda kamek tok?

P nang bena la…based on my experience….majoriti yg kmk penah keja dengan, suka nya tang full jak rupa..wana-wani and macam2 ada…haha…….

Obvious Song

Do you miss me? It's obvious

Do you think about me? It's obvious

I love you, you love me

Obvious obvious obvious

Do you like me? It's obvious

Do you love me? Its obvious

I love you, You love me

Obvious obvious obvious

Don't ever change, its obvious

Forever ever it's obvious

I love you I love you

Even though at times you feel irritable

Even though at times it's difficult

Always think about me

Who'll always be smiling by your side

Even though at times you feel sad

Even though at times it's lonely

Always think of me

Who'll always be with you

p/s: heard it in My Girl(Korean Drama)…so sweet!!!!!!!!

…

Life

Bored

Lonely

Stressful

Unhealthy

Weepy

Angry

Upset

Harder to smile

You Are Bold When it Counts

You don't make a big fuss about getting what you want... unless it's really important to you. Then you're as bold as you want to be. You just go for it! You're often up for a little excitement and adventure. Well, as long as the cost isn't too great. You enjoy risk, but not for it's own sake. Let's just say you've learned a few lessons about risk in your life.

Are You Bold?

You Are Very Approachable

You can talk to anyone, and it shows. People are eager to start conversations with you. You are open and friendly. You are willing to connect with almost anyone. While it's great to be approachable, there is such a thing as too approachable. Eventually someone will try to take advantage of you. Don't be afraid to say no or end an awkward conversation.

Are You Approachable?

…

Flatter me, and I may not believe you.

Criticize me, and I may not like you.

Ignore me, and I may not forgive you.

Encourage me, and I will not forget you.

Love me and I may be forced to love you.

William Arthur Ward

A Ray of Sunshine

Congratulations! You're the eternal optimist, a regular "Sunshine Day" of a person.

When it rains, you think about how good the water is for the flowers and trees rather than how wet you're getting.

More likely to trust someone than not, you always see the good in people. Sure, that opens you up for a few let-downs, but that's okay — your great attitude will help you deal with them if and when they come.

In the long run, it doesn't really matter at all; everything's going to be all right! You like meeting new people and thoroughly enjoy their companionship.

In a nutshell, you just don't dwell on small failures — you learn from your mistakes and do your best to make everyone around you happy to be alive.

Keep it up!

p/s:hahaha....how true is this?

Red

Your color is red, the color of racy sportscars, blushing cheeks, and luscious roses.

Red symbolizes passion, romance, and love. So, since you're ruled by red, you probably trust your feelings more than your brain and tend to act spontaneously.

If you see something you want, you go for it without thinking twice — impulsive is your middle name. You don't wait around for people to make decisions, either; you dive right in.

Quite the romantic, you pay close attention to your emotions. In fact, if your heart isn't in what you're doing, you won't be satisfied.

Of course, even when you do pour all your energy into the projects you tackle, your impetuous nature means your passions can shift as frequently as the wind.

That's why some reds have trouble with commitment.

Our advice? Next time you're feeling fickle, think before you act, if possible. You might be surprised at the results.

Overall, though, it's great to be red. No one lives life more completely than you do.

Sepi

bisikku pada bulan
kembalikan temanku
kekasihku syurgaku

tanpa dia malam menemaniku
sepi memelukku

bulan jangan biar siang biar alam ini kelam
biar ia sepi sepertiku

_filem sepi_

Hadapi Dengan Senyuman

Hadapi dengan senyuman
Semua yang terjadi
Biar terjadi….
Hadapi dengan tenang jiwa
Semua… kan baik baik saja

Bila ketetapan tuhan
Sudah ditetapkan
Tetaplah sudah….
Tak ada yang bisa merubah
Dan takkan bisa berubah

Relakanlah saja ini
Bahwa semua yang terbaik
Terbaik untuk kita semua
Menyerahlah untuk menang

_dewa_