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1. Most likely (60%) I won't be going home for raya! GASP! Yeah people…memang mintak ksian ktk org tok… :p
   

   
    

2. I miss my family.
   

   
    

   
    

3. Inception is one of the most 'intelligent', 'smart', 'brilliant' movie I've ever watch… so go ahead and watch it… you'll be amaze with the physics concept they applied…not to mention the amazing graphic…(mun terms utk describe salah nang sorry la… gue enggak pasti apa terms yg betul)
   

   
    

4. I miss my friends.
   

   
    

   
    

5. Last weeks I finally use the phrase, "Trus G MANA?" in a real-life conversation…hahaha…. I was talking to my Indonesian friends. They were nice and irritatingly funny…. 'owh….aku nggak mau ada pisau d rumah, takut nanti aku stress, trus bunuh diri!" hahaha…lawak bangat lo…. :p
   

   
    

6. I miss my family and friends.
   

   
    

7. Predator XBEST! Save your money for BIOHAZARD and SALT instead. I mean it.
   

   
    

8. I miss kuching…its yummy weather and its yummy food and its crazy driver and its sudden heavy rain and its everything.
   

   
    

9. My weight is now officially at the border line of being overweight. GASP! Hahaha…not so much kan? I am worried actually….low metabolism…low physical activity…dahla makin tua… seriously….i think its just a matter of time before I get 'over-weight-related-health-issue'….no kidding people… I will try to lose more weight….yoshhhhhh
   

   
    

10. Bottom line is I am just homesick..haha..but I am grateful to be here…I am lucky to have this chance…I am thankful to everyone who has been supporting me... *keneng-keneng mata*
    

p/s: in a slightly better mood cuz they finally see me for who I am instead of judging me without actually meeting me in person…

and owh…congrats to my dearest friend yang nampaknya tengah plan nak 'getting hitched' soon…I am so happy for both of you…cant wait to meet your girl… smoga bahagia hendaknya…

If you,if you could return. Don't let it burn, don't let it fade. I'm sure I'm not being rude
but its just your attitude. Its tearing me apart. It's ruining everyday.
I swore... I swore I would be true, but honey so did you. So why were you holding her hand. Is that the way we stand? Were you lying all the time? Was it just a game to you?

...emotional d senja jumaat....

1. i am still at the lab...totally my fault cuz i went the lab in the afternoon today...eventhough i knew i have stuffs to do...sekpa....yg penting keja siap.
2. saya sangat ingga dengan kenyataan F**** S***** yang mengaku dia sedang bercinta dengan J****....saya sangat alergik dengan perempuan2 yang dahla merampas suami orang....then g buat statement 'saya dan dia sedang bercinta...we r in love...' urghhhhhhhh....muntah darah saya dengar...berdarah telinga saya dengar...mun lah saya volcano...dah muntah lava saya dengar...(ok..camney eja lava? lava ka larva...haha) ...anyway...dearest perempuan...ko dahla merampas suami orang....pastu you wanna rub it to her face? pedulikla kalo rmh tangga diaorg mcm tongkang d landa ribut badai tsunami! they even had a baby together! doesnt dat mean anything to you? skali pun dat guy bina taj mahal for you...berhati perut la sikit...ko ya perempuan...sampey juak kempang atie molah empuan lain camya? diam2 udah...mun org anok kau nang patut la juak....eiii.....smoga kitak 2 bahagia lah owh...
3. tringat kisah M**** dan R*****......kami bergamba mcm ni sbb disuruh photographer! kami masih menjaga batas2 agama.....huwaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaarghhhhhh...mun dah bodo,diam2 udah...sik perlu nak polah statement bodo....sigek jakla...mun photographer ya suruh bukak baju, ko bukak sik?
4. adoi...saya emo..ya memang saya emo pasal hal2 mcm nie....adoiiiiiiiiii....adoiiiiiiii....owh kawan2...janganlah merampas lelaki org owh...true we cant help who we fall in love with...and maybe jodoh kita adalah suami orang...but if that happen...do the right thing...pergi jumpa isteri..bincang cara elok...kalo isteri tu tak redha...tolonglah undurkan diri...dan berdoa pada tuhan...mintak petunjuk apa jalan terbaik...janganlah g menggedik2 kat laki tu and hope he will divorce his wife and leave her and their child behind....peritnya penceraian...janganlah jadi punca penceraian orang lain...imagine if the same thing happens to us....sedih la bila mengenangkan ada orang terlalu self-centered and sanggup buat apa saja asal diri dia bahagia....skalipun org lain terseksa... :(

p/s: really proud of my friend, Heliza Helmi...dah bukak syarikat sendiri....you go girl! cek out the HHP(Heliza Helmi Production) facebook here....sokonglah industri muzik tanahair kita.... :p

cairrrrrr.....

ur stare make me shivers....your smile melts me...when u laugh i feel so happy like a kid getting a candy....

haha...i've been in love with this man since i saw him on tv...he wears all black..his casual-oh-so-cool look drives me crazy...

name: Gackt (sebutan gak-to...if i m not mistaken)

d.o.b: July 4th 1973

p.o.b: Okinawa, Japan

BloodType: A

he's a Japanese male singer....since 1999, over 10 million copies of his album were sold in Japan....more info here

...hensem owh....some people are born to be good looking...charming and downright heartbreakingly handsome....if i have someone this good looking as my boyfriend...plus he is caring, loving, respectful, sensitive, macho, and all the good things that i want in man...i would parade him around just to show him off....hua hua hua...and then we would spend our time together....he loves me...i love him....we get married and have cute babies....and live happily ever after....*wink wink*

owh homesick nya saya

.....today is my youngest brother's bday.....i miss him so terribly...we are so closed since we both love to eat so much....haha...naahhh....we are so close....me and my siblings are so close and we miss each other all the time...

its his 14th bday....and i'll be 24 soon....so the gap between us is actually 10 years...my elder sister is 26, younger sister is 21 and my another brother is 18...i love them so much...god knows...

kadang2 terfikir...sampai bila lah nk rs homesick camni? i am 24 for god sake...some of my friends even has their own child already...but i guess having the type of love/care/shelter that my parents has provided for us and will continuously give, will make it impossible to stop being homesick whenever we are away...

my mum and my dad is the greatest....they pampered us...but not too much till we cant stand on our own two feet...mum, dad...i miss you....so terribly very much....

what saddened me most is that when i am out on my own, i let others hurt me and i hurt myself....sedangkan all my parents has done is protecting me and teaching me to take care of myself...i feel like i am letting them down in one way or another...i am so sorry for hurting myself and letting others bring painful tears to me....cuz i know...whenever i m hurt...you guys feel the pain a hundred times even worst....

i miss my sisters and my cousin munee....they are my everything....i miss my brothers....they are my strength...my everythin....no words can describe how much i need them in my life...

i miss you guys so much...i'll be home soon enough...i promise....

p/s: ....never ever let someone hold your heart in their hand...cuz they will crush it....intentionally or not...