Kisah budak gemok

When I was a kid, I was so fat that my mum needs to monitor my food intake. Thanks to my mum, I was saved from the obesity. I knew this cuz I read my infant-health card(?) , the red card you get as a baby, where it record all your immunization and docs visit…in mine, there is a detailed description on what I should eat and what I shouldn't.

I grew up as this chubby kid. I never had a trouble eating…I have no food-allergy and when it comes to food, I am not choosy. (heh…I am not choosy in almost everything…or so I said.) My mum always advice me to eat more moderately…my mum is the greatest…although I need to confess, when I was a kid, there are times when I am upset with my mum cuz she keeps on reminding me to eat less…I was a kid…I didn't know any better…now that I did…I truly appreciate every advice my mum gave…

In 1997-1998, my family and I went to Cardiff for a year. There, I walk to my school every single day. It's a long long walk but since the weather was so nice, it's a pleasant long walk. I wasn't trying to loose weight at that time. I was having the time of my life. Life is fun. When we return to Kuching, I was surprised to realize how thin I actually am.

Yes! For the 1^st time in my life, I am thin.

It lasted for about 6 months to one year. Slowly I accumulate fat ( :p) and slowly I become fat again. It's a struggle for me. Personally, I never care about it. I am fat, but I like what I'm seeing in the mirror. Though I can't fit to my sisters' dress, I get over that soon before I even realize I am upset.

The only thing that bothers me is how much people love to remind me that I am fat! It annoys me so much…but I can just smile politely…but cried tersedu2 in my heart. It is painful when all people can talk about is how fat I am. I guess they tell it to my face cuz I am between chubby—fat-obese….i am not really slim…but I am not obese either. So they think its ok for them to remind me 'aie…gemok kitak fiela'…'aie…knak kitak makin berisi?'….'aieeeeeeeeee….bla bla bla'… : (

So through my high-school, I struggle to maintain my weight….i always find comfort in food (typical female!)…I can have as many peanuts/nuts and pizza and oily food as I want, and still not having breakouts…. I love chocolate… I love all things sweet and carbs and fatsss…..

Few years ago…I went through a really bad breakup… I gain 10kg within 4-6 months. Before that, I was in my best shape. I am fit and my BMI is normal….till I gain this extra 10kg…for months after that…I still gain weight….till where I am now…

Losing weight is really hard. Especially when u are emotional. It is extra hard when you have no self-control and discipline when it comes to food and exercise.

Now I am going through a really bad patch. I have given up (not completely, but partially)…I have given up junk food and soda drinks especially chocolate, potato chips and coca-cola/cokes…I really am going through hell…I crave for extra sugar every single day…I want that sugar-high…I have replace my extra-food-consumption with fruit….but really! Fruit gives you healthy skin and bla bla bla…but it won't give you that sugar-high….or at least not for me…hmmm

The 'moral' of the story is, I am proud of myself…cuz even in this really horrible time of my life, I am able to at least maintain my weight and not gaining any… :p

 

p/s: yup….you guys had just wasted few minutes of your life reading this entry….ha ha ha… :p

idiotism vs courtesy-ism

...so mok dengar crita sik?...

camtok kisahnya...exactly two weeks ago kamek beli camera baru....Sony Cybershot TX-7...

memula nak beli earlier model, TX-5...memang dah ush

a kat online...learning it features and such....tapi bila sampey d kedei...hatiku tertawan ngan TX-7...so kmk sanggupla bayar few extra bucks to get TX-7 instead of TX-5...

so excited la tek...beli la kamek TX-7...nang puas hati la ngn kamera tok...

& then....kitak orang patut tauk yg TX-5 adalah waterproof....& it has 'underwater scene mode'

& TX-7 ada 'underwater scene mode' as well...

then few days ago kamek g ke waterfall...dengan komfidennya beta mengguna kamera ya masa bermain2 air....'waterproof' tek nakkkkkkkk......

WRONG!

memula d lens ada condensation on it...inside it exactly...but i thought its normal...agikpun air ya sejuk bah....so pk sekda masalah...

pasya nya sekpat on....'bateri weak kali nak'.....mujuk atie bah....come on la...camera ya baru gilak eh...dah rosak! gila nakkkkk....isk

pasya kamek balit rumah, kamek charge bateri ya..try on...nya on...tapi kat screen nya nothing...nang gelap trus....kmk tandahnya depan kipas for n hour or 2

....pasya pasang balit bateri...guess what happen?! ada 'hissing noise'...sriusss...macam bunyi masa kita keringkan kuali yg basah eh....bunyi air ya evaporate.....bila alih bateri baruk bunyi ya hilang... :(

ok kesimpulannya i broke my new camera! urghhhhh....manasnya ngan diri sendiri time yaaaa....tuhan jak tauk...

so the next day...try2 jakla g kedey ya...ney la tauk dapat d baiki....we hand it over to the shop-assistant(?) and just say, 'camera dapat on, tapi nothing appear on the screen'...nya belek2 camera ya...nya on kan kamera ya...and tgk sekda apa appear on the screen....pasya nya embak kamek org ke kaunter customer service....tunggah sidak pun technician...the guy did the same...nya sik tanyak apa2 soalan pun...nya belek2 camera ya...nya try on kan kamera ya...pasya nya padah camtok, 'new camera body ok!'

what?! hahahaha.....no question ask....he just hand us a new camera...complete the new warranty for the new camera....then asked us if we were satisfied with the new camera....the he said, 'Sorry for the trouble' and simply bow!

i lurveeeeee japan....i feel awful cuz its my own fault....but its great! 'customer is a god' here....so they say and that is how they treat us...

among the last picture of my camera...(isn't it cool if it really is a waterproof camera)

p/s: i promise to be less careless after this...promise....huhuhu

HUG

HUG

.a form of physical intimacy.

.closing or holding the arms around another person or a group of person.

.human signs of LOVE & AFFECTION.

.sometimes a romantic exchange.

.sometimes a sign of SUPPORT & COMFORT.

.sometimes a demonstration of affection and warmth.

.sometimes arising out of joy or happiness at meeting someone.

.increase levels of oxytocins (a.k.a the cuddle hormone).

.decrease blood pressure.

.dogs or other canines do not enjoy hugs as much, they interpret putting a limb over another animal as a dominance signal.

source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Hug

how inhuman human can be?

sunyikkkk

...dah sebulan x update blog.....

.....xlamak lagik...nang tandus la blog tok....umpama padang jarak padang tekukur...

;)

sekpa.....i am busy....too many personal stuffs/issues/troubles thats lingering in my life right now....how i wish i could simply sweep it off my life forever...and make room for brighter/calmer/happy stuffs/issues/troubles....

will update you guys soon....my experience as a Teaching Assistance...the students are crazy...seriously crazy.....and they drive me crazy sometime....good crazy...not bad crazy... :)

i m homesick more than ever...its lonely to be somewhere so far from your family and facing all the troubles...sometimes want to scream to their face...'Leave Me Alone!'....but in the same time...it sadden me to realize that i have less than a year before i go back for good...i will miss this place...my little comfy pinky home... :)

manusia.....susah nak bersyukur dgn apa yg ada... :(

later peeps....need to go to the lab...chaiyo' chaiyo' (seriously...what does Chaiyo' means? iskk)