Monday, February 28, 2011

Dusty Springfield - You don't have to say you love me

a friend of mine played this song when i stayed at her place...since then i m crazy about this song...its just how she performed it...




When I said I needed you
You said you would always stay
It wasn't me who changed but you
And now you've gone away

Don't you see
That now you've gone
And I'm left here on my own
That I have to follow you
And beg you to come home?

You don't have to say you love me
Just be close at hand
You don't have to stay forever
I will understand
Believe me, believe me
I can't help but love you
But believe me
I'll never tie you down

Left alone with just a memory
Life seems dead and so unreal
All that's left is loneliness
There's nothing left to feel

You don't have to say you love me
Just be close at hand
You don't have to stay forever
I will understand
Believe me, believe me

You don't have to say you love me
Just be close at hand
You don't have to stay forever
I will understand
Believe me, believe me, believe me

letssmilealot


so i've changed my blog add.....and hope my stalker wont find it...

perasan kan?

ehehehe..

tapi memang ada pun....

so for the time being i am a fugitive.....

:p

and owh...i do remind you guys not to share my add kan? haha.....i just dont want the kepochies report back my blog add to the stalker...i dont mind strangers reading my blog....i mind the stalker...pelik kan? :p so its ok if you wanna place the letssmilealot.blogspot.com on your page... ;)

just malas nak melayan kerenah stalker itu...dia sangat memeningkan kepala dan menensenkan diriku ini... :(

Tuesday, February 22, 2011

Lama x rambling

1. My thesis presentation alhamdulillah went on smoothly...except for the fact that the layout in one of my slide went a bit 'berselerak'...i m too nervous to use the edited one....panjang critanya...so dats it...it went on smoothly...1 of the sensei did question my research! S if i didnt do good enough... he is right...cudve done better. He actually said,' this is your best result?!' In a joking but serious but joking manner...so i smile n said yes n sorry in a giggling but serious but giggling manner... :p

I actually thought that my voice r too loud during presentation! N no! Its not good if its too loud! It can b a bit irritating..n no..its not my high pitch voice...its just loud..huhu...but i tone it down n i hope none of them found my voice is irritatingly loud!

2. I've watched 'Red'! So freaking awesome! I truly enjoyed the movie...was laughing n touched at the same time. Just enough amount of good time i needed.

3. When i was at a coffee shop, a lady sat beside me. She was nicely dress,in a sophisticated way....sophisticated lady...till she huff n puff (smoking!) right next to me. I was furious! Not only because she is smoking while seating so close to me, but also because she is a 'she'! Enough said.

4. Missing someone terribly...i have so much feelings sometimes...and from time to time i wud miss one (or all) of my friends....n i kinda disliking it....its sad to miss someone so terribly...huhu...cpatla masa berlalu...

5. But in the same time, its kinda scary how time flew. I've been here for two years! N now its time to pack up n leave. I grow up here. I hope i would leave my naiveness here n come home with a clearer perspective on everything

6. Be happy! :) smile at urself n be happy. Be grateful for everything that had happened to you.

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Sunday, February 20, 2011

lapa lapo lapaq


kejap nervous

kejap ok

dari pagi sampai malam duduk depan laptop

tengok slide smp naik muak

ayat tiap kali prektis pun bertukar2

perkataan yg xdpt nk disebut tetap tersasul2 nak di sebut

antaranya;

-specificity
-reconstitution
n
-dipamitoyl phosphatidylethanolamine

as for the last word, i've decided to skip on saying it entirely! except if anyone actually ask for it during Q&A..ooh..i do hope someone asked me to say that out loud...cuz then it wud be the easiest question i've ever need to answer! :p

lapa sebenarnya...xmakan aper pun arini...sebab nyer 1..xder benda nak di masak...n i m too lazy nak berjalan keluar...
2..sbb malas nak berjalan n membeli makanan...
so arini just makan roti n banana smoothies....mcm xpcy kan? n now my perut screaming for food! huhuhu...

pastu sempat pilih baju utk esok...memula decided to wear my light-green baju kurung...then i realized that that baju has rhinestones on it....ohno! xbole xbole..sangat x sesuai utk esok...ader lagi 2 baju kurung (yup..i only brought 3 baju kurung)....satu yg kaler merah pink tu...tu pun xleh pakai...cuz dh gna banyak kali...so nk xnak kna pki yg kaler marroon coklat tu....wp dah pakai last thursday! huhuhu...

so itu je...rs nk berjalan cr makan kejap...wp sejuk..huhu..lapa lapo lapaq...

reminder


Semalam dapat reminder dari someone

dia pesan supaya jangan menjaja cerita kat orang lain

dia pesan supaya be the bigger person, have the upper hand

dia pesan supaya bersabar dan insya-Allah semua dugaan ini akan berlalu

dia juga berpesan, habis semuanya nanti harus kami pergi makan besar!

hehe..

just sharing all the pesanan

sebab dalam hidup kadang2 kita cuma tau melawan balik

antagonistic...bukan saja dalam otot badan...

tetapi juga dalam pemikiran..pemikiran yang kurang matang...kurang pengalaman

yang tenang dan bijaksana akan sentiasa bersabar dan tidak bertindak melulu

yang berusaha untuk tenang dan mahu menjadi bijaksana akan sentiasa mengingatkan diri sendiri supaya bersabar dan jangan bertindak melulu

yang kurang sabar dan enggan berubah menjadi lebih bijaksana akan terus hilang kewarasan dan akan mengamuk seperti kanak-kanak kecil

pilihlah yang mana satu diri kita

:)

Cuba Lagi


Satu dua tiga dan empat
Cuba berkali masih tak dapat
Lupakan sakit segan dan penat
Nanti di puncak pasti terubat

Empat tiga dua dan satu
Puncaknya betul aku di situ
Ada dah dekat, ramai yang berbatu
Cuba lagi dik ku tunggu

(korus)
Ku cuba berkali-kali
Masih tak menjadi-jadi
Tapi ku tak patah hati
Tiap kali gagal aku cuba lagi
Aku cuba lagi, aku cuba lagi
Hanya yang lemah kan lari
Jadi lelaki dan cuba lagi


Ku cuba, ku cuba, ku cuba
Puas ku cuba

Nah! Bukan senang hendak menang
Apatah lagi jadi juara
Nah! Bukan senang nak jadi bintang
Apatah lagi jadi lagenda

Aku tahu aku fasih
Nombor satu, yup, aku masih
Terima kasih seteru bersekutu
Keranamu aku bertambah mutu
Tetapi, kebelakangan ini aku tepu
Hampir beku, ni, buku lirik kosong nak berdebu
Hilang sengat hilang seri hilang seru hilang merdu
Mata tutup kepala tertelungkup
Pintu dengar ketuk, oh anakku menjenguk
Papa jangan kerut dahi
Tukar niat baca Bismillah mesti jadi

Buat lagu hebat radio tak nak main

Apa boleh buat? Buat lagu lain
Aku dengar sedap, dia dengar lain
Mungkin lepas menang AIM dia main
Jangan cari pasal, kaji hujung pangkal
Buat lagi sampai tiada orang boleh sangkal
Sampai orang kampung kata pakai tangkal
Sampai gadis kota tidur tepuk bantal
Sampai orang-orang gaji pun hafal
Tapi selagi tak berlaku, tawakal
Ganda usaha bukan simpati
Percaya besok lusa buat lagi
Mereka tanya sampai mana
Yo nampak langit sampai sana
Tiada makna kalau tiada fakta
Lihat carta situ ku diwarta

Ma kata ku pandai Pa kata ku kuat
Jadi kalau cari jalan tak jumpa, ku buat
Ke sini ke sana hanya satu garis lurus
Jangan menoleh mana-mana jalan terus
Ku bukan jenis suka omong kosong
Tolong dengar dik, jangan bodoh sombong
Lima ribu tahun atau lima saat
Kalau kita mahu kita dapat
Banyak laki, berapa jati
Banyak janji, berapa ditepati
Cuma dara sunti minta puji, anak jantan minta uji

Lepas cakap besar tanam pokok
Pasti belum boleh berteduh besok
Dan kalau tak berbuah doa sehari lagi
Tuah akan sampai dengan Taming Sari sekali

Ku cuba lagi

_Malique feat Lah Ahmad _

Friday, February 18, 2011

Not so private eh?


So a friend of mine...a close friend of mine ( :p)..recently visited my blog and that friend said that apparently I was not that private of a person.


It got me thinking and I asked myself, did I expose myself too much here? It worries me...

Gladly that friend told me, it's ok if I am comfortable with it...

Oh well...I am comfortable with it.

Most of the time when I shared my feelings and thought not just because I love to read my own post in the future (omaiiii.....self-narcissistic alert! hahaha)...but it is because I hope in I am helping others in one way or another

I've realized that the more open I am about life, the more certain I am that I am not the only one who is facing the problem, I am not the only one.

Of course this is by keeping in mind that I am keeping my true identity a secret....just a handful of people truly know who is the writer behind this rambling-blog-post...and luckily those are my friends and they are always welcome to give me feedback online as much as they did in real life.

and of course I make it real sure that i do not hummiliate anyone here purposely...so if i did...i am sorry...tell me which post and if its relevant...i would immediately remove it

(prasan! macamla ramai reader kan! :p)

Oh well...maybe it's time to move my blog again....cuz I do need to keep my identity a secret! ;)

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

Gentle-romantic guy

They do exist but they are so rare...

Guys keep on telling me that that type of male did not exist!

N i would tell them, 'they do exist! i'll change a gay guy if i have too!'

I still want to believe that chivalry still exist (not only when the guy is courting the girl, but exist forever,cuz its simply something in dat guy n he cant help it)

I wanna believe that if guys want us girls to be a Lady, then they have to be a Gentleman

N no i m not looking for perfections...i m looking for someone who can respect a lady...someone who know a real woman when he sees her...

...n i agree...perhaps the real reason i havent found my very own gentleman is because i am yet to be a real lady... n no, i dont expect to be treated like a spoilt-princess...cuz i m not spoilt, nor i m ( unfortunately... :p) a princess....
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Monday, February 14, 2011

Monday Monday Monday

1st...my thesis presentation is next week....am i ready?....

2nd...got few 'valentine's day' wishes today...oh well....u guys shudve wish me 'love' everyday n not only on the 14th feb! what is so significant about this day anyway? even the historians ensure us that valentine's day celebration has been blown-up out of proportion...so if u wanna show ur love to someone...sila jangan tunggu 14 feb...especially if that someone bernama afiela....

but owh well....i do love today anyway...cuz all over japan...all of the stores will be selling all sorts of choc....its like a chocolate-galore anywhere u go...n the great thing is, it will be going on for weeks... :D

3rdly...the thing about having ur relationship 'crash n burn' is that u will feel like u have no idea when it comes to relationship...when people asked for your lovey-dovey-relationship's advice, at first you will tend to shy away from this task.....but come to think of it, you do know better...cuz u've been there, done that!

4th…I m glad people finally see me! really see me! n not just as someone’s else’s shadow…I can be a great shadow….but I’m even better as a whole person….insya Allah…]

;)

Wednesday, February 9, 2011

Kahwin komfem bahagia?…tak semestinya sayang....


There’s a friend of mine….whom I believe a very well-read person…told me about a study he read online.

In that study, it is discovered that an unhappy person would not be a happy person even after he/she get married (unless he/she get to the bottom of the reason why he/she is so unhappy in the first place).

Normally they would get all hyped up from the wedding preparation, then the wedding ceremony itself and later on the honeymoon. Once all of these are over, and they start to settle down in their normal-married life, the unhappiness would settle back as well.

What I am trying to imply is, if you expect marriage to make you happy, DON’T!

If you are so unhappy, study the cause of your unhappiness. Is it your attitude? Is it because of your body-weight? Is it because of communication-failure in your relationship with your partner?

Fix it! Then be happy… ;) Get married and wish it will bring you more happiness… if you go back being unhappy, repeat the step mention above..

But if you are a happy person, and you wish the marriage would bring you more happiness, then DO SO!

Apart from the responsibility, and lost of some of your personal space (in my case it is a big deal! :p)…marriage is actually a heavenly-bliss that Allah has granted us. Waking up beside the person we love every morning…coming home to the person we love….watching our own child growing up…having someone to hug you when you need a hug the most….kan bahagia?

(macam ada pengalaman ek? Haha…..Movie ok Movie! :p )

So people….never ever expect others to make you happy when you yourself didn’t try anything…they can help us, they can hold our hands toward happiness, but if we are so unhappy, how can we even realize that we are moving toward happiness?

Rambling fiela…haha…

Be happy people….be happy…..be grateful of what you have and always learn what makes you unhappy and fix it.

Once you are happy, spread the happiness (dengan niat nak org happy jugak..and bukan sebab nak show off!) and you will get that satisfaction… insya Allah


Spread the happiness mcm nie....


Sunday, February 6, 2011

A 'very good' morning walk

So arini....just like any other sunday, i have plans with my friend...
Kami plan g flea market arini...so flea market sini start from 9 till noon...so nk xnk knala klua rmh awal..worst it took me abt 1hour 30 mins to reach them...plus 20mins walk to eki(train station) so lebih kurang i need at least 2hours la utk smp.

Today the weather is pretty nice. Soft wind with sunlight to make it warm enough but not till u sweat (or worry abt sunburn! :p).....

Tgh i dok angan2 about my life....i dok pk aper dah jadi to me before nie...and where i wanna go from now on....and how grateful i m for my family n friends who always always have my back in every decision that i make.....

(Wanna quote something from grey's anatomy that goes something like this.....'the thing abt family is, sometimes we didnt agree with their decision, but as a family, we have to respect that n support it anyway'....now...bear in mind yg ni kna la b logical.....xkanla kita nk support kalo family kita decide nk jd drug-addicts kan....p kalaulah ditakdirkan tu jadi kat family kita, jgn lah kita memalingkan diri dari mereka....mereka keluarga kita....they need our help...n i applied this to my friends as well...cuz u r my family...u r the family that i choose... ;) )

Ok berbalik ke kisah arini....so tgh i dok berangan2 tu kan.....i pun masuk la kombini, sbb nak bli air mineral. Kombini tu memang tepi eki.so dgn hati yg lapang i amik air mineral tu ..'i lohas' brand nyer(which is my fav)...pastu i pun reach inside my handbag utk amik my purse.masa tu br la terdetik dlm hati i ni...yg i xigt pun letak purse dlm handbag pagi td. 'Komfem xde ni'...so cek punya cek...memang xda....

So dgn hati yg agak bengang p rs nk tergelak kat diri sndr pun ada....i pun patah balik la ke rmh utk amik purse i.....yg elok je terletak atas meja.camna leh tertinggal tah...huhu

Memula g eki = 20mins jalan kaki
Patah balik ke rmh sbb tertinggal purse= 20 mins jalan kaki
N berjalan ke eki semula = 20mins jalan kaki

So total is 60mins jalan kaki....nonstop sbb i m late nk jmp kwn.... best kan?

Pastu g flea market....pusing satu area tu ader la dekat nk dua jam kot....

Pastu balik td berlari2 sbb takut terlepas last train...best kan arini? Mcm sehat je....ahahahaha....

:p

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Wednesday, February 2, 2011

this is my art-creation

...so some people paint...

...some people make collages...

...some people bake...

...some people make scrap-book...

...and there are thousands more art stuff you could do...its you passion...something u did to released ur feelings...whatever feelings that is...

...n for the 1st time today, i discovered my art-passion...applying makeup!...

...i dont usually wear much makeup when going out...i usually wear them this heavy when i m actually messing around with the cosmetics i have...luckily its not much... :p (though i do wish i have more when i m trying something new...hmmm)

and of course...smokey eyes is my fav...cuz it let me use as much eye-shadow as i wanted to..haha...

n i m seriously considering being a 'mak andam' as a hobby...will definitely take that 'makeup class' soon enough!