Shibuya Crossing

...located near the Hachiko-exit of Shibuy Station...

...when i 1st crossed here, my mind excitedly screams,' mariah carey has been here! She walk on the same i road as i m now!'
Haha...i m that crazy about her...

:p

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Jika manis, Allah mengajarku erti syukur. Jika pahit, Allah mengajar ku erti sabar. Jika dikecewakan, aku sedang belajar hakikat tawakal. Bila cemas, Allah mengajar ku erti raja’ (mengharap). Jika sedikit, Allah mengajar ku erti qanaah (berpada-pada). Ya Allah, lepaskan hati kami dari asbab-asbab ini, agar kami bebas dan tenang berpaut pada ‘musabbabil asbab’ (Penyebab segala sebab) – wajah MU ya Allah.

God,

grant me the serenity of accepting things i cannot change,

courage to change the thing i can,

and the wisdom to know the difference

_reinhold niebuhr_

Diary

...i started writing diary since i was a teenager....

...but i don't keep them...after some years, i burnt them...i think it is safer that way...i burnt them after that phase in my life is over...eg i burnt my school-life diary once i entered university... :)

...i love writing diary cuz it keeps myself in perspective...i used to read my diary entry again n again ..that way i can see myself from different view at different mood...

...i thought that was call narcissistic...but someone corrected me...it was called self-review...

..i m glad cuz self-review is actually a good way to learn about yourself...i think it is partly muhasabah diri...and i remembered someone told me, it is best if before we go to sleep each night, we spent few minutes to think back what had we done earlier in the day...and plan to be better tomorrow....

...i quit writing not so long ago cuz i was convinced by someone that i am actually writing diary so that i can remember all the negative things in my life...(cant believed someone can actually convinced me that way although nobody ever read my entry)...

anyway...the bottom line is, i always think keeping a diary is one of the best way to learn about yourself....reread your entry a month or a year after you wrote them...by then you would probably laugh at yourself for being mad at the tiniest thing or mad cuz u take things for granted and such and you will surely try to improve yourself even in the smallest area...u read,think and learn

the only downside is if someone ever read it and misunderstand your writing...so please please please keep your diary at the most safest place and please please please never ever read someone else's diary...even your wife's or your husband's...that is what we call respecting each others' privacy

and of course...it is better writing our most personal matter in a diary rather than posting it online....hehehe...i m also included in this craziness posting almost everything online! lets stop today! ;)

and start writing a diary instead

it helps to improve your writing as well

ngeh ngeh ngeh.... :p

My fickle mind

Smalam tutup blog sbb takut ada post2 yg 18SG.

12hours later i change my mind n open my blog balik

Hehehehe

Sorry la kengkawan yg dah bg email add

P email add korg sy dah simpan....for future reference.

;)

My life is good

He said, 'there is nothing i cant do'

She said,'ala....u finish ur work, pastu kita g berjoli'

Hehe

N i said

'U can do this fiela. Girllllll power!'

Hehe.....i know...mesti korang rasa nak muntah kan? Just tryin to be my own cheerleader... towards the finishing line ;)

So girls...who needs _______________ in their life?Kan?

Kalo ader its a blessing...kalo x....u can still live.... ;)

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Pain

God creates us considering every tiny detail there is...

One of the thing we oftenly wish for is the inability for us to feel pain...

It is only once the pain has subside that we may realize that pain is actually a gift from god.

The pain teaches us to be stronger.

It prepares ourself for more pain that we will surely face later.

Ironically, it also teaches us not to ever hurt anybody else.

Cuz through healing ourself,we learned that the only person we should stick with is the one who hold our hands through the healing proccess...n more often than not, the person who hurt us will left us hurt...broken-hearted...in pain...

My heart is in pain....i m grieving....

I m also healing....slowly....painfully...n that is thanks to my family n friends....

Well....u do deserves my appreciation....

So thank you for the 'gift'...

...and no...u wont get anymore gifts from me....

Oh....maybe just 1....

...n dat is a life without me...

....

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Issues

1st Issue

- there is a new zodiac sign? ophiuchus ..meaning all of our zodiac sign has been wrong all along! meaning i m not a leo! I'm a cancer! xsukeeeeee.......iskkkk......as a muslim, its nothing for me...i just like saying 'i'm a leo'...huhuhu....

2nd Issue

- Free thinker n 'It Gets Better in Malaysia'....i really wish Malaysian, especially Muslim realized that this is not a humanitarian act..it is actually a movement to 'memesong akidah'. Saya sangat menyokong humanitarian act...cthnya menutup pusat tahanan Guatemala atau menutup 'puppy-mills' yang melanggar kod2 menternak anjing (mcm yg ditunjuk dalam oprah)...but as a muslim, ada limitnya. Satu je advice, kembali lah kepada ajaran-Nya...dan janganlah mengaji sensorang...sebab dari mengaji sensoranglah akidah kita mudah terpesong, sebaliknya mengaji bersama teman2 lain yang lebih tahu...

3rd Issue

- Meminjam dan dipinjamkan...i've been tortured by this for a while now. i cant let it go cuz it involves quite a fortune. Tiap kali remind...tiap kali kna marah....sighhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...

4th Issue

-i have issues in my life that people close to me knows far too well. What bugs me so much is when these people started to talk to others about ME! People...i stay low-profile cuz i love my privacy...if i want sensation and scandal that attracts attention from people i barely knew, i could've do it myself! Do Not Trouble Yourself Talking To Others About Me! cuz that just make you very untrustworthy! n no. i m not imagining this. i know about this far too well but i m trying to let it go...just don't do it ever again. thank you.

_the end_

kepedihan hati

hati pedih

yesterday was another big moment for him

and i missed it

weeks ago was a big moment for him as well...but being as problematic as i am...i wasnt there as well

he said he is fine with it

but i still feel bad about it

wish i would stop feeling this

he obviously didnt understand

stop feeling anything fiela

there is nothing else u can do to turn back time

hati masih pedih

n smakin pedih...

:(

Punish Me if You Must

Punish Me if You Must

Currently i m being punish for something that i obviously did...and still do

Do what you must dear... it baffles me as well why am i behaving this way

and if you think punishing me is the best way...then please proceed

Just dont stop praying for me as well.

Siappp!

Chicken Croquette

my not so molek cek mek...but its tasty actually...cuz i use too little flour so its actually softer and sweeter.... ;) (notice the glossy-glass like on the surface? its actually melted sugar...muehehe...fail btol nk masak utk mak mentua camni)

n my a bit salted chick-peas...the skin were peeled off during the triple rinsing...in my attempt to reduce the saltinessss..... :(

kan dah cakap...it has gone awry.....uhuhu....p xper....like what my sister said...last2 masuk perut juak...:p

Jom g...dah siap masak... :p

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chatoyant

...so i m going snowboarding again.....tonite....at midnight...

i m so not planning to go cuz 1stly i dont wanna snowboard ever again....2ndly cuz it cost me quite a fortune since its a 4days trip...and i m not even gonna snowboard....

so why meh i decided to go?

no la...of course i m not forced to go...

suka hati i la nak pegi ke tidak

haha...i m rambling

oh well...truth is i have my own plans tomorrow...sweet paradise again n my sweet friend gonna bring me jalan2 somewhere...x igt nm tempat tu...eon lake house...or something like dat...

i hate it when people cancel the plan last minute

but now i am doing it

so i m hating myself for doing so

sorry kak... :(

you know why i go right?

i wish i m more persistent...but i m not...i have such a soft spot for you-know-who and i kinda disliking it..isk...

what to do?

i'm a girl...

just wanna make you-know-who happy

its like my new year gift to you-know-who

so i will try to have fun

although i'll be a bit sengkek after this

:p

oohh....i prepare some bekal for our journey as well

this time i prepare 'chicken croquette' (AGAIN)...and cek mek molek

although some of my cek mek leaking its gula this time

and it kinda pisses me off

maybe cuz i didnt put enough flour

so the cek mek xmo melekat

and the sugar just leaking out as i was frying it

aiya....so geram one

haha....why m i talking like this?

ooohhh...n i also boiled some chick-peas

n it accidentally become a bit salty

the salt-angel pour tooo much salt in it

so i ended up rinsing the boiled peas 3 time

and hope others didnt find it as salty as i did

it is still edible of course

it is fair to say that my cooking gone a bit awry today

:(

now i need to go n buy eggs n breadcrumbs....

i have yet to fry my chicken croquette

n i have no ingredients for the coating

so

thats all people

just wanna waste ur time

as well as wasting mine

:p

have a great life

and stop provoking others! especially me and my friends...it is so not nice

SweetParadise!!!

Feast ur eyes people...

At only 1500Yen...eat all u can....

Lets all pray they will be branching-out to Malaysia soon!!!

;)

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Chicken croquette

Minced chicken

Mashed boiled potato (the ratio of chicken:potato is 2:3)

Onion diced

Butter

Black pepper

Salt

Egg

Breadcrumbs

Cooking Oil

Stir fry (tumis) onion in butter
Add minced-chicken
Add salt n black pepper to taste
Make sure the chicken is fully cooked n dry

Then mix the chicken with mashed potato forming the 'dough'

mashed potato + cooked fried minced chicken

Left it to cool a little (till u can shape them)

Divide n shape the dough into balls in desired size

shape the dough into desired size

Prepare to deep-fry the chicken-balls

Before that, dip the balls in whisk egg...then roll it in bread crumbs...repeat this step twice

Then deep-fry till its golden brown...use medium heat....

Serve Hot! ;)

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Isn't it awful when

Isn't it awful when something happened to u literally, u started to relate it with ur life n u start to break to pieces on the dot....

u shouted 'shut up'....he got up n left u....u know he is trying to support u but a piece of quiet is what u need badly at that moment of time...and instinctly u shout 'shut up'.....he got up n left u....
In real life....u r pushing urself to the limit...he decide u need more push n started to say motivation words to u, u asked him to stop (unfortunately not in such a nice polite way cuz u r already under a great amount of stress)...n he got upset n left u...its ok....u asked him to shut up, n he leaves....he knows better right?

U keep on fallin n up again..then fall then try real badly to get up again....u r alone....u were up for 2mins n it takes u more than 20 mins to get up again....u push urself....u breakdown at ur failure...u cry....u calm urself n motivate urself....u support urself..u push yourself more...u still cant do it...u try n try n u were up.....seconds later u fall flat on ur face again....and once again u need to do it all over again...n there is no one there to help u....no one at all....
But thats ok....cuz then he came to rescue you...after he left u alone to.suffer....he came to rescue you....so that is ok as well....

Is it?

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